why do you build me up

"Ad! Apa nama hubungan ini? Waktu pernah kasih kita kesempatan. Apa kita bisa miliki lagi?" Kedua mata kami saling menatap mencari jawaban. Kurvaku menurun. Begitulah aku memandang hidup yang ku jalani di akhir usia 20an. Di saat rencana tidak berjalan sesuai impian, apa aku masih memiliki mimpi tersisa? Tentang dia yang pernah berperan penting dalam hidupku, namun keasingan jadi pengganti keakraban antara aku dengannya. Jika aku bertemu lagi dengan Ad, apa aku harus menemuinya atau bersembunyi saja? karena sinarku sedang hilang, aku belum siap menampakkan sisi gelap dari masa lalu yang masih ku hindari. Perpisahan kala itu, membuatku ragu. Ada kisah antara kita yang belum tuntas. Apa mungkin itu tanda, untuk kembali memperjuangkan cinta atau lebih baik berhenti saja? Di masa belia kita kala itu, atau di masa kita terus bertumbuh, melewati berbagai fase hidup menjadi dewasa. Tentang aku dan Ad, apa sudah berakhir? Cinta ini akan bertumbuh dan menetap untuk dirinya ataukah dia?

"Baby... please don't do this to me! We can fix it! Just please! please don't do this" I beg to him while his packing his things. "I'm sorry Sandra... but I can't.  I can't spend my life to you anymore. Don't make this hard to us, just let me go." He said without any expression to his face. " A-are you leaving me because she's back? Are you  going to throw everything we've been through,  for the fast four years of our marriage? Just b-because.... just because your first love came back? You're throwing me out because of her? " Pagtatanong ko sa mahinahong boses at habang pinapatatag ang sarili ko na 'wag mag- breakdown sa sagot na maririrnig ko mula sakaniya. Tumigil siya sa pag-iimpake at tumingin sa akin ng deretso na halos ikatumba ko. "Yes. Everyone said she's already dead, everyone lied to me. Everyone fool me! I wouldn't marry you if i just known she's still alive. I'm sorry... Sandra I hope you understand." Saad niya. Hindi ko man lang siya nakitaan ng pagsisisi o kahit awa man lang para sa akin para sa nagawa niya. Tang*na! ginawa niya akong rebound. Natawa ako sa mga sinabi niya, puno ng galit at sakit akong tumitig sa kniya at mapait na ngumiti. "So all this time I am just your rebound? all this time pinaniwala mo akong mahal mo ako ! Pinaniwalaan ko lahat ng mga sinabi mo, pinakita at pinaramdam mo, pati mga pangako mong hindi naman pala para talaga sakin! "Wala kang puso Jiro, hindi ka makatao... Pinag-sisisihan kong nakilala kita at nagtiwala ako sa'yo... at lalong pinag-sisisihan kong ikaw pa ang minahal ko."     Saad ko na punong-puno ng galit ngunit sa mahinahong boses at walang emosyong mga matang nakatitig sa kaniya.

Eunique James loved Kaisser Bennett so much. But when given a choice between the love of her life and her family’s orders, she would choose her family. So, even if it was hard for her, she left Kai to pursue her studies and work in New York. Years later, she comes home with high hopes of getting back with the man she loves. However, she never imagined how hard it would be to get him back because he was so mad at her. Moreover, he got a girlfriend. Will she be able to make him come back to her? Or will she move on to another man?

Dua-duanya sama-sama sayang, bahkan sayang banget. Namun, apa jadinya jika kedua orang yang sama-sama menjadi budak cinta itu harus berakhir karena masalah dari salah satu pihak. Apakah yang akan terjadi setelah hubungan mereka berakhir? Akankah mereka benar-benar mengikhlaskan atau tidak?

"What if....you were the one inside this novel?" In a chain story, the novel started with a girl named Leah, a beautiful girl with spoiled love from her brother [Lewis] he, who protect her from dangers, and her friends [Nami, Gu, Georgia and Ole] they, who helped her from her woes and problems. Now, however, she found something new. A novel that will change her life forever. If that's the case, then what will Leah do if she found herself in a novel where the novel chained her? "What if...." in a story, where you are just a side character running around with the main characters. Just "what if..."

Today is the day when my boyfriend Caleb agreed to mark me. I even took off my skirt, but he received a phone call before he could complete it. He instantly left me alone on the bed, making me feel extremely embarrassed. I tried everything to contact him, but I couldn't reach him. Then, when I finally called his childhood sweetheart, Susan, to my surprise, Caleb answered the phone. "Susan was scared by a nightmare. I have to stay with her to take care of her. Let's mark another day. And please can we talk later. Susan finally fell asleep again. I don't wanna disturb her rest.” "But this is the seventh time you have postponed marking," I said softly. "Marking can be done at any time, but Susan needs me! Don't you have any humanity, Maria?" He hung up, and I burst into tears. My inner wolf asked me, Caleb is gone, do you still need to mark today? I wiped away my tears and said, "Of course, I will do it.” And I immediately contacted the alpha of the neighboring tribe.

How could someone possibly love someone with doubt and secrets? Paris Felicity Rivera lost her memories, yet she didn’t cared. Sapat na sa kanya ang masasakit na pinagdaanan sa puder ng kanyang ama at ng pamilya nito. Her father would almost auction her hand for marriage to different bachelors, and all she wished was to get out of that life. At sa kabaliwang iyon, alam niyang wala na siyang takas. Thus, she decided that if she had to get married to Chester Del Fuego, she will have the decision regarding her body. And she’d give it to the man he loved the most; Chancellor. But… did she really? For Chancellor was a Del Fuego too, and he had the same face as his two other brothers. He had the same exact face as Chester, the man Paris was supposed to marry.

Avery Whitney was just your average girl trying to blend in. Her crush, Preston Adams, says otherwise. He sees her as an annoying nobody who doesn't deserve to exist in this world to the point he humiliates her in front of the whole student body. She felt utterly heartbroken so with that she vowed to herself that someday, he will get what he deserves. Four years later, she was now the Revenge Artist. She knows everybody's deepest darkest secret and uses it as an advantage for people who seek her help with 100% paybacks-a-bitch guaranteed. For payment, she doesn't need anything. Just the soaring feeling of accomplishment that she gets after doing the deed. The day came when luck was on her side. She caught Preston making out with the young hot Chemistry teacher, Ms. Brooks. Preston however was not pleased since he remembered what he did to Avery four years ago. She uses this to her advantage as blackmail so if Preston won't do any of her bidding, word will leak out about his indiscretion and that won't do any good for him. He will lose his popularity, his long time girlfriend Deana, his chance for football scholarship and worse, expelled. Little did she know that the more time she spent with Preston, the fluttering feeling she had for him would return.

Rara merupakan gadis nakal yang selalu bikin masalah nyaris setiap hari, sedangkan Aslan adalah guru termuda di sekolah Nusa Bangsa 86. Tidak pernah ada yang ketahui jalannya takdir menyatukan mereka berdua. Terjebak dengan perjanjian sang ayah membuat Rara menurunkan harga dirinya memohon Aslan menikahinya yang masih berusia 17 tahun. *** Zahra Rahayu Alfatir, atau yang disebut Rara sang pembuat onar di sekolah. Hampir tiap hari sang ayah harus datang ke sekolah karena Rara yang selalu melanggar aturan. Tidak ada yang bisa sang ayah lakukan kecuali berpikir menikahi Rara dengan gurunya sendiri yaitu Aslan merupakan anak dari sahabatnya. Aslan langsung menolak dengan alasan Rara muridnya, tapi karena sudah berjanji dengan sang ayah Rara terpaksa memohon Aslan menikahinya, padahal dia sangat membenci laki-laki itu karena selalu menghukumnya setiap hari. Lalu bagaimana kedua orang yang saling menolak perasaan bisa bersatu? Akankah cinta akan tumbuh?

Have you ever been betrayed by the two men you love the most?? And one of them turns out to be your very own best friend?? And one you never even thought of?? If yes, find out what happened to me in my story of deceit, heartbreak, sadness, depression, ' death ' and finding love again.