روايات وقصص ضمن And Every Now And Then I Fall Apart

“I feel like I’ve failed them. I let this all happen.” No, she said firmly. You’re still breathing. That means you haven’t failed yet. I sank to the ground and covered my face with my hands. “Why does everything feel like it’s falling apart?”

The walls of my carefully arranged world crumbled around me as that realisation slammed into me. Everything was falling apart. Every. Single. Thing.

"Break whatever you need to. Scream if you want. Fall apart. I'll be here when you're ready to put yourself back together." And just like that, the dam broke. I cried. Really cried. The kind of crying that comes from deep in your chest. The kind that hurts. All the fear, anger, exhaustion I'd been holding in came pouring out. Alexander held me through all of it. When I finally stopped, I felt empty but lighter somehow. "I'm sorry," I whispered. "For what?" "For falling apart." "Everyone falls apart sometimes." He kissed my forehead. "Even strong people. Especially strong people."

We were falling apart. And I didn't know how to stop it.

I didn’t faint. I shattered.

I fell to the ground and collapsed. ~

And now he's gone, leaving me alone and broken. I sink to the ground, unable to stand. Tears stream down my face, blurring my vision. I clutch my chest, trying to ease the ache. But it's useless. Nothing can fill the void he has left in me. Nothing can make me whole again. I'm shattered, like a glass vase that has fallen from a great height. I can't be fixed, I can't be saved. I'm doomed to live in this misery, this emptiness, this darkness.

The sobs that escaped me were unlike any other cries I've let out in my life because the pain that I felt was indescribable. Everything's falling apart. ~~~

Smiling. Waiting. For the moment everything finally falls apart.

Like I'm standing in a life that suddenly no longer recognizes me. And right now? I have no solid reason why my life is falling apart like this.