Novel & Cerita Can't Fight This Feeling

Dating himself? Hindi ako mapakali. I want to pull my daughter away from him right now but I couldn't move. Something is stopping my body. I'm telling my foot to step forward pero hindi ko pa rin magawang gumalaw. I really hate this feeling! It's my fear that's stopping me to move.

I really wanted to punch someone! "Lakasan mo pa, Yna. You cannot punch me with that energy." What's wrong with my fist today? Kung kailan gustong gusto ko na makasuntok ngayon hindi naman ako makaasinta. Tinapunan ko ng masamang tingin si Kuya Gio. 'Pag wala talaga ako sa mood, dumidiretso ako rito. Ewan ko, pero pakiramdam ko 'pag nasa gym nakakagaan ng pakiramdam.

Sambit niya bago tumayo pagkatapos ay inilahad ang kanyang kamay. Malungkot akong napangiti bago tinanggap iyon. One of the saddest things in the world is to feel broken, and although you're somehow been figuratively ripped apart you feel like can never be put back together again. These are days when I ask myself! What are you staying here for? Most times I don't even have an answer. Sometimes I just don't want to be here anymore. That I don't want to fight this kind of sadness sicked. Those toughest thoughts to deal with.

Unti-unti at alam niyang may bagong emosyon na pumapalit at iyon ang mas nagpapagulo sa kaniya. "September.." inangat niya ang kamay at mahinang hinaplos ang buhok nito saka mas tinitigan pa. 'I've been fighting this nonsense fight. I've been struggling, trying to win this fight, Einver! Lumaban ako kahit gustong gusto ko nang sumuko! Sumusuong parin ako sa digmaan ng buhay ko kahit ako lang mag-isa laban sa lahat ng tao!'

Nakabibingi ang katahimikang namamayani sa kawalang aking kinasasadlakan. Sa gitna ng dilim, may mga takas na hampas ng hangin ang marahang dumadampi sa aking balat. Maya’t maya pa, biglang bumuhos ang ulan na animo’y sumasabay sa pighating aking nararamdaman. Maingay ang bawat pintig ng aking pusong pinipilipit sa sakit. Hindi ko maintidihan ang lahat ng aking nararanasan pero, I can feel that I am in my bluest state. Pain, hatred, anger, and the sense of rebellion raided my heart like a wildfire. But amidst of all these things, I felt so helpless. I am like a narrator of my own self, aware of what is happening but powerless to meddle. I can feel all these emotions, yet I am completely para

Mabilis subalit maingat siyang lumakad palabas ng silid nito tsaka sinapo ang kan'yang dibdib dahil biglang kumirot ang kan'yang puso. “DAMN IT.” Nagpapanggap lang siya pero bakit parang ayon ang hindi totoo? “Hindi 'to maganda...” Bulong niya She hates this feelings. She's not suppose to feel this. She can't. She's NOT ALLOWED TO FEEL THIS. Not to him... Not to the man that she can't even proudly call her OWN husband. TO BE CONTINUED

May mas mahigpit na galaw ko ngayon, kalkulado dahil hindi ako maaring pagduhan ni Aidan. May tensyon sa bawat sulok — parang may humihinga sa dilim na hindi namin nakikita. Lalo na sa paligid ni Precious. At iyon ang hindi ko matanggap. I hate this kind of feeling helpless even though I can do something about it immediately. Pero hindi ganoon kadali.

Tulala lamang ako sa harap ng vanity mirror. Ramdam ko pa rin ang panlalamig ng tiyan ko. Pakiramdam ko ay unti-unting nanlalambot ang buong pagkatao ko. I'm trying to get my shit together but I just couldn't. My body is reacting like there's a gorilla about to beat the crap out of me. Shit.

there's something inside me that opposes it, and there's this strange feeling I can't name. It's annoyingly painful.

Alam kasi niya na she will never do anything good kapag ganito ang kaniyang kalagayan dahilan kung bakit she's so eager to be calm ang relax. Habang mabilis niyang pinatkbo ang kaniyang sasakyan at hindi alintana ang paligid ay hindi niya napansin na may biglang nag overtake na sasakyan dahilan kung bakit mabunggo niya ito. Sa sobrang lakas ng pagkabunggo ay agad na nawalan ng malay si Aki.