Toxic Parents Romane & Geschichten

Was that the punishment he wanted to give me? No! I couldn’t take it anymore. Kaya kong i-tolerate ang mga sarcasm at insulto dahil alam ko namang galit siya sa akin. But cheating was another story. Hindi ko mapapayagan iyon. Especially now that we were going to be parents already. Ayokong makita ng anak ko ang harap-harapang panloloko niya sa akin. Ayokong kamuhian siya ng anak namin kapag nakita nito na hindi normal ang setup namin. Higit sa lahat, I didn’t want my child to get hurt knowing that his father didn’t love his mother. So we’d better part ways now, before our child was born.

"I think I'm ready to set a date. Actually, gabi-gabi kong pinag-iisipan 'yon. We already have a child kaya wala na ring silbi kung papatagalin natin 'to." Hindi pa namin pinagplaplanuhan ang kasal dahil alam niyang natatakot ako na baka hindi maging maayos ang relasyon namin. I grew up in a traumatizing household with toxic parents. I witnessed how miserable their marriage was, kaya naman nakakaramdam ako ng takot na magpakasal sa taong hindi ako sigurado.

And that's something that I'm so regretful about. Kahit na naging ganito ang epekto nito sa kanya, at least, you can see that his parents were just trying to protect him. But in my case, my family will do anything to let me see the cruelty of the world, and will even vomit all their evil doings in front of me just to make me realize that it's not so bad to be evil after all... as long as you have the power to turn your evilness into something that can benefit you.

bilin niya. Tumango ang dalawa at nagtingin-tingin. Hindi niya nilulubayan ng tingin. Sa dami ng tao ay baka bigla na lang mawala. Ayaw naman niyang limitahan ang galaw nila. Hindi niya balak maging strict parent. Ayaw niya ng ganoon sa Daddy niya. Hindi niya pipilitin ang mga anak niya sa hindi nila gustong gawin. Kahit hindi sila makakuha ng mataas na grado kapag nag-aral na, hindi siya magagalit. Ayaw niya ng pressure. Naranasan niya na iyon at nakakarebelde ang ganoong pakiramdam. "You're such a disappointment."

Nanatili siyang umiiyak sa pagitang ng kanyang mga magulang, hinahalikan nito ang kanyang ulo at paulit ulit na humihingi ng kapatawaran sa kanya. And she know the answer,even before she came here. She already forgive them,no parents are perfect . Akala lang ng lahat ‘yon,pero ang totoo hindi . In reality,no parents are perfect. No children are perfect,no human being are perfect . Lahat nagkakamali at nagkakasala,sa pag ibig ,sa pamilya o sa batas man . But being imperfect doesn’t invalidate you on being hurt. It’s okay to be hurt,to trip .But at the end of the day,you will always get up,and fight to go on. Life must go on,and being hurt is part of that. And life with your family,that’s the

Ramdam kong umakyat lahat ng dugo sa ulo ko. "What is your problem with me? Is it because I didn't help you to make excuses to your parents that you have failed in your classes?" Nakaramdam na ako ng galit. "You have a problem and that is you seek recognition from your parents because they don't care about you! They don't give a fuck about you because you are not worthy to them! They just kept you because they benefit something from you and that is to become part of their puppet collection! You plastic bitch!"

"Am I overacting? Tss... Nagsimula rin kaming mag-away no’n dahil parati talaga siyang walang oras sa akin. O kung kakausapin niya ako ay laging tungkol sa ’yo. Kesyo kapag nandito ka na, ganito ganiyan. That’s the reason why I hated you in the very first place. Kaya ganoon na lang din ang galit ko no’ng naging kami ni Luis at nalaman kong bestfriend ka niya. Sobrang toxic ko to the point na pinalalayo ko siya sa ’yo... Kasi naiinggit ako. Parang..." Napasinghap ako. "Parang ako naman. Ako naman ’yong ikuwento nila lagi. Ako naman ’yong intindihin. Ako naman ’yong hanapin. Pahingi n atensyon. Kasi hindi nga ’yon nagawa ng mga magulang ko tapos msiki ba naman kapatid at boyfriend ko, ganoon.

"H-how do you say like everything is so easy, Ganther? You don't know how painful is it. Growing in lies. Growing up without parents. You don't know how is painful it is." "I didn't know, Kit. Because I grew up numb. I do have parents but I feel I don't have. The fact that they there beside me, pero hindi ko maramdaman. I grew up in manipulated lies that were put in my mind. My mom tells me she loves me but I'm not enough for her. So I need to do things to make her happy. My dad left us for Misha and her mom. I don't want mom to be sad to I became a monster. So I jumped to the 2nd floor of our mansion to make my mom's happy. So that dad will come back to us. He really did but I become a mons

Totoo nga na kapag nag-aaway-away ang mga magulang, anak ang unang naapektuhan. Sana bago kami magka-anak ni Ervin, maging maayos muna ang relasyon naming dalawa. Natatakot akong magkaanak nang alam kong pagdadaanan din niya ang pinagdadaanan ngayon ni Keith dahil sa hindi okay ang mga magulang niya. Ayokong mabuhay sa toxic na lugar at relasyon ang magiging anak ko kung sakali man. Lumapit ako sa kanilang dalawa para tulungan si Akiro. Hindi na kasi siya nakapagsalita pa.

Napangisi ako. I was about to ride on my car when suddenly, I stopped. Inihagis ko ang susi ng kotse sa loob bago ko muling isinara ang pinto niyon. The first step of walking away from a toxic family is to never use the thing they got for you. At sisimulan ko ang akin sa pag-abandona sa sasakyang iniregalo sa akin ni Daddy noong sixteenth birthday ko. ***