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''I have never felt so humiliated in my entire life. I stood in the middle of the stage with this huge bright light shining directly in my eyes. I had sweat dripping down my forehead and the whole auditorium was so quiet you could hear the toilet flush from across campus. Everyone was sitting there waiting for me to say something, anything. What was I to do or say? I just knew I blew my chances with the Juilliard scout, I just knew it. I wanted to just cry. Maybe if I cried enough it would wash out the whole auditorium, am I right? Thanks to Ms Fiddleson for mouthing the words to me, so I just carried on as if my skirt didn't just rip in half," I paused to take a sip of my water before I continued, "The performance went on fine after that but afterwards, Fiddleson gave me that look and I know that when I see her again she's going to throw a fit. The good news is that the scout came up to me and-,'' I stopped when I realised Zack wasn't focussed on anything I was saying.

''And then he shot me and, I died,'' I said, my tone flat.

My self-proclaimed best friend just nodded and made some sort of sound to let me know he was listening. Yeah, right.

''True story and then my twin took over my life, in fact, I'm the twin right now and, I'm on a mission to hunt down that Juilliard scout and kill him for killing my sister.''

''That's great. You've always lived an exciting life, anyways what's the deal with her?'' Zack asked me, his eyes not moving from someone that was behind me.

I sighed; I knew he wasn't going to listen to anything I had to say if his new love interest wasn't involved. So, to appease his curiosity, I glanced over my shoulder to see Mindy Louve. Mindy sat with her friends one seat over, she had her jet black hair in a ponytail straightened like a barbie doll. She was most likely wearing black jeans and a crop top, her signature style, but she was sitting and the pink bomber jacket she had on was obstructing my view. Mindy was an okay individual, she was on my gymnastics team but we never really talked a lot. From what I've heard though, she's nice.

''That's Mindy Louve. She's alright and, she does gymnastics. She's friends with Linda you know,'' I said to him turning back around.

Linda was one of the many girls Zack has dated in the past. Their relationship, however, ended very poorly, Linda ended up moving to a different school because she couldn't focus on anything but him and was going basically insane from it, that's what the rumours say at least. I wouldn't know, I try not to interact with Zack's conquests since most times they were threatened by my friendship with him. 

As if I stood a chance with him.

''She's a gymnast, huh. They are very flexible people,'' he said finally meeting my eyes.

He had that Prince Charming smile that could make anyone crumble to their knees. Boy, I was crumbling, I've crumbled so much I doubt there was anything left. 

Regardless of how dashing he was I still wanted to scream at him. I'm a gymnast! I'm a very good one who has won multiple medals. You've seen half my routines. Outwardly, I simply nodded because sometimes dealing with him is a hard task. By sometimes, I mean most times.

You're so pathetic.

To any person who didn't know Zack, even some who do know him, they would call him a playboy. Truthfully, he acted like one so it was justifiable but, he really wasn't. He just gets easily infatuated with girls, unfortunately, I was an exception. I've always wondered why Zack never really thought of me romantically. Maybe I wasn't what he wanted physically or mentally in a woman? No, that can't be it, most of the girls he goes after are in one of my after-school activities so we had the same interests. Plus, it wasn't like I was outrageous dumb either because I would occasionally be on the honour roll, not always though. Maybe I wasn't social enough? No, that can't be it, I was well known, not liked, but known. Maybe that was it, I wasn't liked by all and Zack was always a people person. It's not my fault, to be honest, I tried but, they were only interested in getting something from me.

''How should I approach her?'' he asked his eyes going back to her.

''I heard she's not doing well in Chemistry. You could offer to tutor her,'' I suggested against my better judgement and all common sense.

Sure, I was in love with him but I'm still his friend and friends help each other. I'm also hoping that when he gets with every girl he fancies, he'll experience whatever it is that he wants and fingers crossed he'll come back to me. The only problem I have with my poorly thought-out plan is that he gets so caught up with the new girl that he completely forgets I'm still alive. Honestly, that could be why I'm a part of so many clubs, to distract from the bitter loneliness and despair.

Dramatic much, geez. You truly are meant to be an actress.

''That could work, thanks,'' he said and got up to go win over Mindy.

That wouldn't be a very hard task, seeing as Zack was a very charismatic person or maybe that's my biased opinion. 

I give it two weeks, I say to myself as I got up to go eat my lunch in the library. I don't need to hear the love of my life making another woman laugh.

I should get some friends, I tell myself. Oh, and stop talking to myself so much.

I added both things to my list.