Novel & Cerita Affectionate Love

And my hubby makes the best shake eversince. Now, I'm reminded again that I'm super lucky to have him. My Mikho's not the romantic kind of guy na ibibili ka ng mga mahal na bagay or a guy who will bring you to a fancy place or who would spend too much just to make you happy. Hindi siya ganun. He spends so much in making you feel so loved even by the simplest things, by being there all the time and showing how much he cares by being sensitive to your needs. He's super affectionate and super sweet in his own way kaya super love na love ko talaga ang hubby ko. And now nawala na iyong inis ko sa kanya.

Malungkot ko siyang binigyan ng ngiti at bahagyang napabuntong hininga. “I think love is in everything...” I trailed off. Nag-huhukay muna ng lakas na loob mula sa kaloob-looban. At nang may kaunting nahukay ay saka ko lang tinapos ang pagsasalita. “Love is when you feel fear, hatred, anger, trauma and all the feelings that you could feel. Yung sa akin kasi it's everything. The hatred is there, fear, sadness and the trauma. And I know it's love because if it's not love what I gave back then, then maybe I shouldn't have felt those feelings at all.”

I thought then na ang affection I had for her was more deeper than Kim. Yes I fell in love with Shanaia that's the truth and she always hold some part of my heart but the love I have for Kim is way stronger na hindi ko inakalang lalabas at lalabas parin talaga kahit na anong paniwala ko sa sarili kong dahil lang iyon sa matalik ko siyang kaibigan.

Napakuyom ako ng kamao. “He’s already coming.” “Of course he is,” sagot ko. “Because of you.” Hindi ako sumagot. Kasi totoo. “Love,” dagdag niya, parang lason ang salita. “Such a useful weakness.” “Hindi ‘yon love,” agad kong sagot. Ngumiti siya. “Then what is it?” Hindi ako sumagot. Hindi ko kaya. Hindi ko alam. “Call it whatever you want,” sabi niya. “Attachment. Obsession. Possession.”

Hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili kong nakawan siya ng halik habang natutulog. Mas gusto ko pa rin na gising siya habang kinukuha siya nang buo. Being my pet inside her, deeper, is the greatest pleasure I experienced before. Hindi ko na rin alam kung mas matimbang ba ang lust and affection than love? Dahil parang hindi lang love ang gusto ko at hindi na rin katawan niya ang gusto kong maangkin. Naiinis ako kapag palagi niyang pinagdidiinang babae ang gusto niya. I can’t imagine how she would please a woman. I mean, she’s a woman, though. And for sure, she can never please a woman like me.

There was something in his tone. “Love is supposed to be given, not taken,” dagdag niya, halos pabulong. “Kahit sa kama… hindi dapat pinipilit. Making love is more than just bodies touching. It’s a choice, a gift, and it should always be willing. Kapag lust lang, mabilis, mababaw, parang gutom na agad nawawala. Pero kapag love, mas malalim. It’s about trust… about making you feel safe, not used.”

Umusog ako kay Gab at niyakap ko siya. I love hugging her it's feel so good... I love her smile, I love her nose, I love her irresponsible lips, I love her hair, I love her sweetness, I love the way she jealous, I love kissing her, I love every part of her, I love her charm, I love to be with her, I love her attitude, I love—fuck! Damn! I love every part of her, all of her... Do I love her?!

“You can maybe, erase that feelings? You don’t deserve me, Nikolaus. You deserve someone better.” “You don’t decide whom I deserve to, wife. And no, I won’t let this feelings of mine fades away. It’s already deep, wife, deep that I might drown on mine own feelings. This is not just a normal affection or admiration, wife, this is what they called love. I am in love with you, wife.” He honestly responded while looking into his wife’s eyes. He can see it, the emotions in her eyes, is not playing him. He can see it, the hesitation that hindering some other feelings on it. The emotions battling in her eyes.

Ilang sandali ay hinalikan niya na naman ako pero hindi parin ako tumugon sa mga halik niya. His lips touched mine carefully as if tasting me. He moved slowly, made more pressure between us. Bigla akong nanghina habang dinadama ang kanyang labi sa akin. He bit my lower lip making me open my mouth and he immediately explore inside. Mas lalong hindi ko maipaliwanag ang mararamdaman nang inikot niya ang sariling dila sa loob ng bibig ko. I automatically felt an unexplainable feeling. Para bang milyon-milyong boltahe ang sinaksak sa katawan ko dahil ramdam na ramdam ko ang matinding kaba. Hindi ko alam pero nararamdaman ko rin ang kakaibang pakiramdam na tinatawag nilang 'lust and desire'. Befor

“Listen to how comfortable you are telling me those words as if it was the most simple thing to say to someone, habang ako heto at parang hindi na maka hinga sa sobrang kaba? Heck no, the conversation about this crap is over Luis.” Hindi maka tingin kay Luis na sabi ni Kitana. “Hey, you are scared I know, I am not asking you to give me answers now but I am asking for you not to avoid me, these words are not easy to say, I just find it easy to say because I am saying it to you, I like you, no, I am in love with you, Kitana Dawn Yousaf Al-Sayed and I am not forcing you to say the same thing, at least not just yet.”