Can't Cry Hard Enough Mga Nobela at Kwento

As she turned her back on the door, tears started to fall off. Why can't she hold her tears up? She can't be stressed out. Dahan dahang dumusos ang katawan niya sa pinto hanggang sa maka upo. She cried and cried until she can't anymore. Bakit ba nangyari ito sakaniya? Why? Wala naman siyang ginagawang masama. She's a good friend, sister, daughter and a fucking girlfriend. "Hindi...Sorry," Crying while murmuring sorry.

“I really tried...I tried so hard...” I covered my face with both hands, no longer caring that people around us were beginning to stare. “But it still wasn’t enough...” My shoulders shook violently as everything I had been suppressing for the past year came crashing down all at once. “No matter what I do... no matter how hard I try... I’ll never be enough.” The words tore themselves out of me. “I’m so tired, Iñigo...” I cried. “Pagod na pagod na ako.” Panibagong hikbi ang kumawala sa mga labi ko.

Mabilis kong pinunasan ang luhang pumatak sa aking mga mata I don't want to be here anymore. This is freakingly suffocating the hell out of me. Please, someone get me out of here. My heart still pounding so hard. I hate this kind of feeling! I don't want this. I'm fine now, I started to move on... to live my life without him. Ci, get me out of here. But why the freaking freak am I crying?

Sinapo na naman siyang muli ni aling Tirang. “Baka kung ano pa ang gawin ko sayo eh." Napataas na lang din ng kilay ‘tong si mang Epyong dahil wala naman siyang magagawa kahit na pumalag pa siya kay aling Tirang. Warshock yata ‘to eh kaya minsan talaga mahirap pamaresan. Mahirap nga ba talaga? Oh sadyang natura lang ang pagkamaldita kasi babae nga naman diba?

Suminghot ako at pilit na pigilan ang luha ko. Stop crying Sam you're just wasting your tears sa mga gagong tao na katulad ni Dylan at Felicity. Why can't I still move on? Bakit nasasaktan pa rin ako?

"If I don't believe in love, then why does this heart aching? Why does these tears never run dry? And there are no options but to cry and hide? And now, I am nothing. Everything seems to be unfair even time and I can't find ways to figure out what might happen next, and this emptiness filled me, I'm still nothing. And I know there's no way that someday, somehow, I can make it through this feeling I've concealed before 'til now, but I'm trying to make sense but there's no more sense trying hard."

hard and deep. Bumagsak ang balikat ko at napaupo ako sa p’westo ko. Nasa likod pa rin ako ng column at hindi ko alam kung ilang minuto o oras na ang nakalipas pero nanatili ako roon. Because I can’t move. My head is aching and so is my heart. My heart is breaking and I know I deserve that. This is exactly what I deserve. Afraid that someone might notice me crying here, I wipe my tears.

sigaw niya habang patuloy sa paghikbi. My tears are cascaded falling down and I couldn't do anything to stop it. Umiling-iling ako habang titig na titig siya sa akin. His eyes are wet and I'm sure it reflects with mine. "H-Hindi kita... iiwan..." I said softly. But it seems like he didn't hear me. He's crying and sobbing hard and I can't do anything to let him feel that I'm always here! Hindi ko magawa! Wala akong magawa!

Pero ang hirap naman tuparin niyon kung sarili kong ama dina-down ako. "Ang hirap magsumikap sa buhay. Yung walang may proud sayo. Walang naka-appreciate sa pagod at hirap mo. Yung hindi nila nakikita ang pagsusumikap mo, " pinahid ko ang luha na kumawala sa mga mata ko. "Ang hirap lang kasi mismong tatay ko pa ang nang-da-down sa akin. "

Kasi kapag sinaktan ka, hindi niya sadya. Pero hindi pala lahat ng sorry, sincere. Hindi lahat ng “ikaw lang” totoo. At hindi lahat ng pag-ibig, makatarungan. Sampung buwan kaming magkasama ni RJ. Buwan-buwan akong nagiging bulag, pipi, at bingi para lang hindi ako maiwan. Mahal ko siya. Pero sa huli, hindi pala ako sapat para tumigil siya sa pagiging gago.