Why Do I Cry So Easily Novels & Stories

i can feel how she starts shaking, she started crying. " you know what, i am trying to hold my tears so dont just hug so suddenly, its making me cry more" she shake a little while saying those kaya mas lalo ko hinigpitan ang yakap dito " sometimes you have to cry your heart out. that will lessen the pain" sabi ko. " and if hugging you will make you feel better i would gladly let you have my shoulders" humagulgol na ito kaya pumunta na ako sa harap nito at pinunasan ang mga luha nito. she is so rare to cry like this.

Crying is a healthy way to reduce stress and negative effects in our body but seems like it didn't make me feel nor look good. My chest feels heavy from crying last night. I also looked like a corpse that gets up from its coffin because of the dark circles around my eyes, as well as my pale skin. Mas lalo yata akong na-stress sa itsura ko habang nakaharap sa salamin. I pouted while fixing my hair. Mas lalo siguro akong hindi magugustuhan ni Rius nito. I'm so ugly and stressed from everything.

Why I can't have those smile? Naramdaman ko na lamang ang mainit na likidong banayad na tumutulo sa aking pisngi.Whenever I'm hurt parati na lamang pag-iyak ang nagagawa ko.Whenever I'm sad and no one to talk to...tears are falling down. Why I can't have my Mom's advice and love?Why I can't have her comfort? Why I can't have my Dad's loving arms that would hug me tight whenever I am in pain?

Napapadalas na hindi naman ako ganito but someone said that it's okay to cry, because you're just expressing what you feel. I don't know what to feel, I feel so numb every time I cry. Bumalik na ako sa loob ng kwarto ko dahil malamig na sa labas, I feel warmth cold breeze. Sinara ko ang pinto papuntang balcony at humiga na sa kama, bukas ay kailangan kong gumising ng maaga dahil I decided to go in church before pumunta sa psychiatrist. I want to thank God for giving me another life that he almost took, but luckily I'm still alive.

kaswal na saad niya ulit. “And besides, you’re precious when you laugh.” That made me live for a week. His words comforted me despite being so close to breaking down when I am alone. I don’t know, but whenever I am lonely, my tears will just automatically fall without any reason. Iiyak lang ako nang iiyak hanggang sa kusa na itong mawala and at the end of the day, I still don’t know the reason why I cry. I don’t find the comfort of being alone the same also of being in a crowd.

Tumingin ako sa taas nang lumabo na rin ang mata ko dahil sa luha. I don't want to see anyone suffering in pain. I hate it. I hate how they feel sad. I hate the thought of it. I hate being sad and in pain so much that it envelopes me and swallow me. Maybe that's why I'm a pushover, maybe that's why I can't say no to anyone. Isang nakabibinging tunog ang narinig namin. Kasunod no'n ang katahimikan. Kumalas sa akin si Chryszyler sa pagkakayakap. He's still crying. So am I...

Why am I acting like this? Nakapasok agad ako sa kwarto at agad na humiga. I am covering my mouth with pillow, hoping that my mother won't hear my sobs. Why am I crying? Dahil ba nasaktan ako sa nakita ko? Bakit ako nasasaktan sa nakita ko?

banta niya habang naka-igting panga at masama ang tingin sa akin. “I want to cry. I don’t know why I’m crying. I’m so frustrated because my tears won’t stop coming up. I don’t understand myself. Am I getting crazy because I’m taking pills?” My tears won’t stop coming down. “Stop drinking pills,” sabi niya habang naka-igting ang panga niya. “I’m crying for no reason,” iyak ko sa kanya. He closes his eyes and opens them immediately. Mukha naman siyang kumalma.

Kitang-kita 'to kasi kulay teal ang sheets ko. And in just a few seconds, I was sobbing. Loudly just like a baby. Kahit siguro ilang beses ko 'to mapanood I will always have the same reaction I did when I first watched it. At siguro, at the very moment, lahat nang frustration ko ay nilalabas ko sa pag-iyak kong ito. A maelstrom of emotions stirring the clouds causing it to rain. Nawala ata sa isip ko na may kasama ako sa kwarto nang tinamaan ako ng breakdowns ko. But in crying, embarrassment had left my system. Siguro sobrang bigat lang ng lahat.

Minsan sa buhay, kung ano pang pinipigilan mong mangyari ay iyon ang mangyayari. Katulad nalang ng mga luha ni April. She really tried her best to not cry, para ipakita ditong matapang siya. Na hindi na siya nasasaktan sa mga nangyari sa kanila. Because for her, crying is a sign of weakness. Pero ang hindi alam ni April, crying is a manifesto that you’re just a human. You have emotions, emotions that can easily cloud your decisions.