Confused In Love นิยาย & เรื่องราว

Hindi nagsalita ang lalaki at tulala lang ito. “I love you, Vincent. We need to be strong for Synesthea, okay?” “Mom, I don't hate her. I'm just jealous but I don't hate her. I love her to the point that I don't care if it hurts me, gusto kong angkinin lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman niya. Kahit idoble pa ang sakit na ibibigay sa akin, h'wag lang niyang maramdaman. Makita ko lang siyang laging masaya, gagawin ko. Anong gagawin ko kapag nawala siya sakin, Mom? Hindi ko kaya. I want to be with her. If something happen to her, I will follow her.”

"Hindi sa ganun, Rob! Alam mo, hindi mo talaga naiintindihan ang sitwasyon e. She loves you so much and she really wants to go with you pero akala lang niya na niyaya mo talaga si Domi —" "THEN SHE IS SO STUPID TO THINK THAT! ALAM NIYA SA SIMULA PA NA AYAW NA AYAW KO SA BABAENG 'YUN! Sinabi ko na nga sa kanya dati pa kung gaano kabaliw sa'kin ang babaeng 'yun!" "Yes, we know. Mas mabuti pa na kausapin mo si —"

Humarap ito sa akin ‘tsaka ngumiti. “I like you for a long time already, Damara. At first, I’m so in denial, I tried kissing other girls to confirm and tried to forget my feelings for you because I’m afraid that I might hurt you… but, after thinking of you all day long for years now, I know for sure now, Damara…” hinaplos nito ang aking pisngi, “I like you, and before confessing, I promised myself that if I did it, I won’t hurt you, just please… let me be with you, Damara. Let me like you–no… let me love you,” aniya ‘tsaka ito ngumiti dahilan upang ako’y mapangiti rin.

He said frustratingly. I tried to hold my tears nang yakapin niya ako at isiksik yung mukha niya sa leeg ko. "A-Ano ba tayo, Grey? Para alam ko kung saan ko ilulugar yung sarili ko. Yes, I was the one who flirt you first pero you're giving me a mixed signals. I'm confused." I told him quietly. "I want you to be my girlfriend, will you be?" He asked directly, then look at my eyes.

Love can be deceiving at times. Love can bring you heartbreaks and torment you into pieces. Love can cause your failures. Love can ruin your self and bring out the worst in you. Love can turn your world upside down. Love can make you crazy and lost your sanity. Love can make your life miserable. Love is the root of all confusions and worries. Love can bring you restless and sleepless nights. Love is the main reason of all jealousy and possessiveness. Love can hurt you and bring you into pain and deep sorrow. Love makes you impatient and do wrong doings for the sake of love.

Pero kaagad din nitong kinalma ang sarili at nakahalukipkip ang mga brasong lumapit sa kaniya. “Kamukha mo? Hindi ka ba natatakot sa mangyayari sa kapatid mo? Paano kung minahal siya ni Vicente dahil kamukha mo? He doesn't love her because she is she and not you. I couldn't see it to happen. At paano pa kaya kung malaman niyang naging kayo? Kawawang, Katarina.” Umiling-iling pa ito.

I hugged him back. In the first place, he did not intentionally dumped me. It’s too complicated to understand the situation, it’s hard to accept everything, but what else we could do? Life is all about love and pain. In this life, pain coexist with love, sadness coexist with happiness, hardships coexist with blessings. All of these is what makes life difficult to live. I only wish that restarting with him will help me understand everything I am confused about.

naguguluhan kong tanong. “The day your lover went out from your door step, it’s the worst feeling ever. It’s suffocating. The jealousy you felt is something like you badly want to kill someone. The pain when you found your lover being happy with other person than you.” He took a deep breath and puts down the bottle he’s holding on the sand. “Love is confusing, and love is something you don’t want to enter.” Napangiti ako dito nang ngumiti ito. I drank my soju ‘til the very last drop and drops the bottle on the sand.

Mahigpit ang hawak ni Francine sa kubyertos. Hala, ito na kaya ito? Sign na ba ito? Wait kalma, hinga! Paano kung magpo-propose na s'ya ngayon? Paano na 'yung plinano ko? Naging atat yata ako. Nako wrong move yata? Hintayin ko kayang bigayan n'ya ako ng ring or lumuhod s'ya? Teka paano ko malalaman kung bibigyan n'ya nga ako? Hay ang hirap naman lalo akong kinakabahan. Umaariba na 'tong tiyan ko sa kaba! Napansin ni Leonard na malalim ang iniisip ng kasintahan. "Babe, may problema ba?" tanong nito.

Nasa senior high na ako at ilang buwan na lang ay graduation na namin. Si River ang isa sa pinakamakulit na manliligaw ko. Kahit na ilang beses ko na itong tinaggihan ay patuloy pa rin siya sa pangungulit sa akin. At sinabi niya na hindi daw siya titigil hanggat wala pa siyang nakikitang isang lalaking kasa-kasama ko daw. O matatawag na boyfriend. Naiinis na ako sa kakulitan niya pero nakakapagod din naman ang pagsita ko sa kanya kaya hinahayaan ko na lang hanggang sa ito na mismo ang tumigil at mapagod sa pagsunod sa akin.