Feeling Loved Novels & Stories

pag papa awa ko naman dito at lihim pa na napangiti dahil sa pag papa awa ko sa kanya. Hayst ganito ba talaga kapag in love at may katugon din ang nararamdaman mo nagiging corny na ewan parang tanga lang. Hayst hindi naman ako ganito lalo na siya hindi siya ganyan ka sweet pero nag iiba talaga ang tao kapag ang mahal mo ang kasama mo e. May mga nagagawa ka na ikina bibigla mo na lang na nagawa at nasabi mo na ang bagay na yun.

I want him to love me. I could only imagine how it feels.

Mariin ko rin na kinagat ang loob ng pisngi ko lalo pa at gahibla na lang ang layo ng mga labi niya sa akin. "Every moment with you feels like a breath of fresh air. Whenever I see you, there's this comforting light and warmth that I never knew I needed because I’ve always been surrounded by darkness. I felt that the first time I saw you. And I... I am f*cking loving everything about us, especially how my heart beats for you. You make me feel alive in a way I didn’t think was possible, and I want to hold on to this feeling forever."

Doing it made me feel like I'm on a rehab and I finally healed afterwards. Ngunit hindi ako masyadong magpapalubog sa ganyang bagay. Loving someone is not when you feel lust. Parausan ka na nga lang eh tingin mo ba mahal ka ng isang tao? Tawag doon, past time ka lang.

Iba kasi yung feeling na ganito, may mga taong nag-aabang, nakikinig, nag-aalala, at sumusuporta kahit hindi mo sila nakikita in person. My followers… they always make sure I feel loved and appreciated. Yes, alam kong hindi lahat ganon. May mga nakikiusyoso lang, may dumadaan lang, may naghahanap lang ng chismis o tea. Normal naman ’yon. Pero alam ko rin at ramdam ko na marami akong loyal na followers. Yung totoo talagang nandyan. Yung sumusuporta sa akin hindi dahil sa issue o sa hype, kundi dahil gusto nila ako as a person. As Honey.

Hinawakan niya ang dalawang kamay ko at tumingin diretso sa mga mata ko. “This past year with you… it’s been the best year of my life. You make me want to be better, not just for me, but for you. You… you make me feel like I can finally breathe, like I can finally be myself. And I… I can’t imagine my life without you.” My eyes brimmed with tears, not from sadness, but from the overwhelming feeling of being loved so completely. “Kael… I feel the same way. I’ve never… never felt like this with anyone.”

"Tara na. Baka late na tayo." Sa mga oras na iyon, pakiramdam ko, parang napakaswerte ko na mayroon akong mga kakilala tulad nila. I feel loved and cared. That despite my situation and past, they will always fight for me. That they will always there to understand me. That they will always at my side no matter what happened.

Pinikit ko ang aking mga mata at sinabayan siya sa chorus ng kanyang kinakanta. “Kaya naman dito ka sa piling ko. Oh, dito ka lang. Dito ka lang. Bumabagal ang ikot ng mundo kapag ika'y nariyan, oh aking tahanan.” Ano nga ba ang pagmamahal? Ano ang nararamdaman kapag ikaw ay ang mamahal? Pero sabi nga ng anak ko, love is a powerful feeling to feel towards a person. Love is when you value them and give them worth. Love is sharing burdens with them. Love is being by their side during their ups and downs and I…

Malungkot ko siyang binigyan ng ngiti at bahagyang napabuntong hininga. “I think love is in everything...” I trailed off. Nag-huhukay muna ng lakas na loob mula sa kaloob-looban. At nang may kaunting nahukay ay saka ko lang tinapos ang pagsasalita. “Love is when you feel fear, hatred, anger, trauma and all the feelings that you could feel. Yung sa akin kasi it's everything. The hatred is there, fear, sadness and the trauma. And I know it's love because if it's not love what I gave back then, then maybe I shouldn't have felt those feelings at all.”

Mahal niya ang mga taong nakapalibot sa kaniya. Aprobado ng don ang sagot ng kaniyang apo. "When do you feel loved?" "When someone hugs me. When someone appreciates me. When someone listens to me. When someone loves me." Nabubuhusan ng pagmamahal ang buong katawan ng don. Niyayakap na siya ng kaligayahan. Kahit nangungulila siya sa kaniyang dalawang anak ay nararamdaman niya na nasa malapit lamang sina Kagami at Andromeda dahil kina Alexander at Adrianne. "My king, do you think loving someone is important?"