Let It Hurt Until It Hurts No More Novels & Stories

“Does it still hurt you?” He expected her to nod but no. Umiling ito at humugot ng malalim na hininga. “Brille was both my platonic and greatest love. Hindi madaling mag-move on lalo na’t sobra kang nasaktan sa ginawa niya noon. Pero may pagpipilian ba ako? And besides, it’s all in the past now. If I still bleed, then it’s part of the healing process. There are no easy way or fastest route for healing. But I’ll heal. I’ll just let it hurt and hurt until I feel numb and then maybe… it won’t hurt anymore.”

Sumalubong Ang ngiti ng isang babaeng Hindi maikakailang pinagpala ng husto ng magsaboy ng kagandahan Ang nasa itaas. "May magagawa pa ba Ako kung naka upo ka na." bumalik Siya sa kanyang gawi. Pinaglalaruan Ang hawak at nakatuon Ang tingin rito pero Ang layo Naman ng takbo ng kanyang isipan. "That glass won't say anything even if you look and play with it forever." Nakangiti ito ulit. "It's fine. The least I could do is not hurt anyone.. "

Kasabay ng lyrics ng kanta ang pagbukas ng pintuan ng simbahan at ang pagbulusok ng makapal na usok sa church entrance. “But it hurts so bad I can’t take it any longer.” Patuloy sa pagtugtog ang kanta at sa pagkakataong ito sumikip ang dibdib niya. Naalala niya na palagi itong paulit-ulit na kinakanta ni Clarence kapag matutulog na sila. Kahit na may sakit ito, pinipilit pa rin nitong kantahin ang bahaging ito ng kanta.

"Shhh... I'm sorry I hurt you... You know I can't stop myself. Shhh... I love you." Impit siyang napaiyak. Kinagat niya ng mariin ang kaniyang labi at pinigilan ang sariling pahintuin ito. Masuyo siyang hinalikan ni Fender sa labi at kahit papaano nakatulong ang halik nito. Naibsan ang sakit na nararamdaman niya, pero 'di sapat 'yon para tuluyang mawala ang hapdi at kirot sa loob ng kaniyang pagkababae na parang may pinupunit.

Parang binabasa niya ang takbo ng isip ko. Malalalim ang bawat paghinga ko dahil heto na naman kami. Nire-ready ko na ang sarili ko para sa matinding sakit na idudulot niya na naman sa akin. "If it hurts, tell me," aniya habang nakatitig pa rin sa akin. Ako naman ay parang nahihipnotismong napatango lang. "Good."

Baby, I'm not made of stone, it hurts And loving you the way I do, it hurts When all that's left to do is watch, it burn Baby, I'm not made of stone, it hurts It hurts the way you pretend you don't remember me And it hurts the way that you forget our times together baby Like the time laid in bed when you said it's forever, baby It's forever, baby Oh I can't explain no more.." napikit ako ng mariin at pinakikiramdaman ang bawat mensahe na gusto niya g iparating. Yes I cause him a lot of pain na talagang pinagsisihan ko dahil wala na siyang ginawa kung hindi mahalin lang ako.

I don't know anymore if I would try again. I'm so done being in pain. I'm so done feeling hurt. Don't I deserve even just a little bit of happiness?

Pekeng ngumiti si Trick at siya ang tiningnan nito. “That’s because if the world will know about it. Who will come to me to get treated for their sickness when they’ll think that I’m not capable of treating them because I can’t even treat myself and can’t understand and feel their pain?” he said it in the most saddest tone. Straight but soft and breakable voice.

But it's never the same I guess I kinda liked the way you numbed all the pain Now the day bleeds Into nightfall And you're not here To get me through it all I let my guard down And then you pulled the rug I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved I'm going under and this time I fear there's no one to turn to This all or nothing way of loving got me sleeping without you Now, I need somebody to know Somebody to heal Somebody to have Just to know how it feels It's easy to say but it's never the same I guess I kinda liked the way you helped me escape Now the day bleeds Into nightfall And you're not here To get me through it all I let my guard down And then you pulled the rug I was gett

is just a torture. Gagawin niya ba talaga lahat ng sinabi niya? Raddix, would you really kill me? Hinayaan ko ang sariling lamunin ng labis na kalungkutan. Tuloy-tuloy ang pag-agos ng luha sa mata ko tila wala na itong balak huminto. Hindi ko na inisip kung may makakita sa akin ngayon, ang gusto ko lang ay maibsan iyong sakit. The pain is just too much. Iba pala kapag galing sa taong mahal mo iyong masasakit na salita... doble iyong sakit na mararamdaman mo. Para akong sinasaksak ng paulit-ulit.