Spoiling Myself

I stare at her while she's bent down. "Are you deaf?" I asked her again and she didn't answer me. "Hey!" I can't stop myself from shouting at her because I think she doesn't know how to speak. Napahawak ako sa aking ulo dahil tanging pag-iyak lamang ang tanging sagot niya sa lahat ng taong ko. I rested and looked at her. "Anong pangalan mo?" I ask her in Tagalog words because maybe she's not understand me. "J-Judy p-po S-Senyorito," she answered me while she's shaking. Now I understand that she doesn't understand me if I speak English. I can't stop from smelling and thinking what punishment I should do to her. Because she's my slave at isa siya sa pagmamay-ari kong alipin.

I love him since I saw him. Hindi ako naniniwala sa love at first sight pero ng makita ko siya binali niya ang paniniwala ko. Alam ko sa sarili ko mahal ko siya, kaya ganun nalang ang tuwa ko ng inapproach niya ako pero nawasak ang puso ko "Hindi ba best friend mo si Ms. Clarfson baka pwede mo naman ako sa kanya ipakilala sa kanya". My smile faded, my heart broke into pieces. Mahal ko siya at hanggad ko ang kaligayahan niya. Kung sa best friend ko siya sasaya bakit ko namana aalisin ang kaligayahan niya. Decades passed by, for almost decade ko na sya minamahal ng pa lihim. Could you imagine for almost decades na din ako nasasaktan ng palihim. But everything ruin, when my best friend married someone else and left my man broken. I don't know what happen but I found myself sharing a bed with the man I loved. I got pregnant with his child. Being pregnant with his child gives me hope, hope that he's going to love me how I love him but the hope has vanished. My love for him turns to anger and hatred. Is my love for him gonna die or consisting loving him even it's killing me?

Am I ready to be in love? Am I ready to sacrifice myself? Handa na ba ako sa mga mangyayare kapag sinabi ko sa kaniya na mahal ko siya? Paano kung hindi niya ako mahal? Paano kung wala naman siyang nararamdaman para sa akin ano ang gagawin ko? Deserve niya ba ako? Hindi ako para sa kaniya. Kaya titignan ko na lang siya na masaya sa ibang babae na kayang ipagtanggol at mahalin siya ng lubusan.

I hate his guts, ang bastos niya. Every time na magkikita kami para kaming mga aso't pusa. I told myself that, I won't fall for him. Then, one day kusa na lang tumibok ang puso ko sa kaniya and I can't help it. Should I give him a chance or not? Hahayaan ko na lamang ba na ang puso ko mahulog sa kaniya? Or do I deserve someone better than him?

Dalawang puso ang nakagapos na naaayin sa kagustuhan ng bawat isa. Thr thread can start to deepen or loosen and it's up to their descision. Ag sa bawat giit ng puso ay tila may binubulong, sa bawat katotohanan ay tila may nakatagong sekreto at sa bawat puso ay may nakamarkang pangalan ng nagmamay-ari rito. Ngunit paano mo mamahalin ang taong sumira at nagnakaw ng iyong karapatan? Paano mo itatama ang lahat kung una pa lang ay nagsimula ang kwento sa pagpapanggap at kasinungalingan? Hahayaan niya pa rin bang igapos siya ulit ng tadhana kasama ang lalaking kinamumuhian kahit na madaming rason para putulin iyon? Ngunit sa kagustuhan na pigilan ang sariling makulong muli ay hindi lang puso at katawan niya ang kalaban kundi pati na rin ang mapaglarong puso ng lalaking tinuturing niyang demonyo. "You smell nice Dawn, I don't care if you ars afraid of me but one thing is for sure, kailangan mong itatak diyan sa isip mo na I won't let you run away without having the thrill of having you and tasting you first,"— Flix Montero "I do prefer being tainted ang madumihan ng pauli-ulit ay sadyang nagbibigay ng kakaibang ligata sa akin and I won't let myself fall again for I know I won't ve love the way I like and expect it to be. Because happy endings are only for women that worth to fight for and I am not one,"—Dawn Mathison

WARNING❗️ MATURED CONTENT❗️❗️❗️ SERIES 11 OF 50! I am the perfect son in the eyes of my dying mother until I’m not. All the things I knew about myself and my mother’s death were all lies. My life in general was built on lies. Now, I only had to focus on one thing—be the best leader the Draco Elites had ever had. Be accepted by the notorious crime group, Foedus; to protect the people that matter to me, Carlene, and my men. That was until I met her. Stiffany. She changed every fucking thing. One look and I was bewitched. Under her spell. She’s refreshing and unique. Until she isn’t. She’s a bombshell liar with a smart mouth and legs for days. She betrayed me and I’ll break her. I’ll make her life a living hell. Until her past and mine come back at us. She was caught in the middle of the chaos and I was shattered. Now, I need to do everything in my power and Foedus to save my woman. I don’t care if I burn down the world to ashes or bathe with my enemy's blood. If my enemies—our enemies don’t kill me first. A buried past. A twisted game of love and betrayal. Three souls. Two women and a man with more enemies than allies. When love is more dangerous than entering the world of Foedus, will you leave or just surrender? “Lorenzo tastes like danger and power. A deadly combination. Totally intoxicating.”- Stiffany Author's Note: Names, places, characters, and incidents are just products of my imagination. Any resemblance to the event in the story is just a coincidence. Pwera na lang sa mga nagpahiram ng pangalan. God bless all.

It was a beneficial relationship for the both of us. A loveless and contractual realtionship. But, why did I let myself to have this feeling? Since when did I have this feeling? Is it possible for my love to be returned? Is it possible for me to stay with you? I want to be with you even if it means betraying everyone, If I can stay with you by leaving everything behind... I'm willing to do it without any hesitation. If loving you means danger, then I would gladly offer my life just to be with you!

I'm so tired of disappointing myself. I'm so tired of heartbreaks and tears. I'm just so tired. I never thought that love can be so tiring. “I p-promise... if this is the world of getting married to me, to hurt me, t-this would be the last tears I will cry anymore.” I said while crying under the rain. But could I still keep those words? Because my life didn't end here. Flood Voldizépeña is 27 years old. He's actually one of the most fearsome trillionaire of all time. A tall, smart, sexy and handsome guy with beautiful sky-blue eyes, who's breaking my promises slowly and tried to build another world with me. Should I let him? But I don't want to fool myself anymore if in the end he'll just give me heartache and destroy myself. But would he? Like, the world of getting married with a trillionaire? I wonder how it ends like.

If I just knew that youʼre my best friend crush I should avoid you in the first place, I shouldnʼt entertain you, I shouldnʼt give myself a chance to love you. But what can I do if I already inlove with you?

On their engagement day, her fiancé cheated with her sister, and pushed her down the stairs even though she was pregnant!Five years later, Charmine Jiang made an impactful return, rooted with a deep hatred for scumbags. She was cold-hearted, ready to fight for the family money, eyed to become a supermodel. She was ready to stun the world.Although she was determined to make her own money for revenge, hordes of men still insisted on helping her, spoiling her.“Who offended my lady? Get the gears ready!”“AK999 ready, I’ve got the scumbags! Dad, Mom, please bring me a little sister!”