Spoiling Myself

WARNING: RATED SPG! Sa loob ng limang mahabang taon, para akong kanaryo na nakakulong sa isang hawla na inaalagaan, pinalamutian, o ginagamit lamang sa kanyang kapritso. My existence revolved around being fed, dressed up, and trotted out when he desired my company. Life with a billionaire bachelor had its perks, and though I often likened myself to a slave, I harbored no complaints as long as the money flowed freely. Yet, as the years passed, the weight of my imprisonment grew heavier, each golden moment tinged with the bittersweet taste of longing. But the saga of my confinement finally reached its conclusion. Bumalik ang kanyang pag-ibig, at sa hindi inaasahang pag-ikot ng kapalaran, pinalaya niya ako para pakasalan ang babaeng mahal niya. Gayunpaman, nang magsimula akong umalis, isang hindi inaasahang bigat ang bumalot sa aking kalooban. Ito ba ay ang pagkawala ng pinansyal na seguridad na nakasanayan ko na, o ako, marahil, ay nahulog nang lubusan sa kanya?

Dalawang puso ang nakagapos na naaayin sa kagustuhan ng bawat isa. Thr thread can start to deepen or loosen and it's up to their descision. Ag sa bawat giit ng puso ay tila may binubulong, sa bawat katotohanan ay tila may nakatagong sekreto at sa bawat puso ay may nakamarkang pangalan ng nagmamay-ari rito. Ngunit paano mo mamahalin ang taong sumira at nagnakaw ng iyong karapatan? Paano mo itatama ang lahat kung una pa lang ay nagsimula ang kwento sa pagpapanggap at kasinungalingan? Hahayaan niya pa rin bang igapos siya ulit ng tadhana kasama ang lalaking kinamumuhian kahit na madaming rason para putulin iyon? Ngunit sa kagustuhan na pigilan ang sariling makulong muli ay hindi lang puso at katawan niya ang kalaban kundi pati na rin ang mapaglarong puso ng lalaking tinuturing niyang demonyo. "You smell nice Dawn, I don't care if you ars afraid of me but one thing is for sure, kailangan mong itatak diyan sa isip mo na I won't let you run away without having the thrill of having you and tasting you first,"— Flix Montero "I do prefer being tainted ang madumihan ng pauli-ulit ay sadyang nagbibigay ng kakaibang ligata sa akin and I won't let myself fall again for I know I won't ve love the way I like and expect it to be. Because happy endings are only for women that worth to fight for and I am not one,"—Dawn Mathison

Luna, and her journey of self-discovery and finding her place in the world. Despite initial difficulties, she realizes that she needs to adapt to her new situation for her own growth and development. Her mother wants Luna to pursue higher education and convinces her to study in Manila. She agrees, understanding that education is a powerful tool for personal progress. She prepares for enrollment and plans to leave for Manila soon. However, her encounter with Ryker Gregory, who seems to have negative feelings toward her, shakes her confidence. “I find myself swept away by the profound emotions that linger in the air. It is a realm where authenticity becomes fleeting, leaving behind nothing but remnants of my once vibrant feelings. Thoughts echo within me, whispering their secrets and leaving me yearning for more. Within the depths of my heart, I discover a peculiar contradiction—a longing for simplicity entangled in the complexities of love. Despite the dangers that lie in exposing my soul, it slowly emerges from its hiding place, craving connection and intimacy. Words wield an intriguing power in this realm, embracing both poverty and richness. Love becomes the enigmatic pursuit we strive for, seeking to be seen and appreciated amidst the captivating beauty of the world. Yet, I encounter individuals who weave intricate webs of lies, whether out of habit or with deliberate intent. In the face of such encounters, I am confronted with a choice—one that encompasses the essence of great and true love. As I traverse this labyrinthine journey, I embark on a quest to unravel the enigma of love. It is a search that takes me to the depths of my soul, forcing introspection and contemplation,” – Luna.

“IKAW?” My eyes nearly popped out of my face when I saw him—the mysterious stranger from last night. Is it him? The same man? Parang gusto kong mahimatay. Wehh? Hindi pwede! Impossible! my inner voice screamed, pero ang katawan ko nanginginig na parang nakuryente. Hard f*ck na yata ng buhay ‘to. And suddenly, a memory crashed into me like a tidal wave. That night. That stupid, reckless night. The stolen kisses, the laughter between moans, the way he made me beg—“Wag kang titigil!”—like I’d lose myself if he stopped. I swore I’d never see him again. I swore it was just a one-night stand, a mistake I could bury. But now he’s standing right in front of me. Not just a man. Not just anyone. But the CEO. And worse… the ex-boyfriend who once shattered my heart. His smug grin sent shivers down my spine. “Of course. Why wouldn’t I?” he said, like fate itself was mocking me. I froze, torn between rage, fear, and something I couldn’t even name. My mind screamed run, but my heart whispered, stay. My world was spinning, and suddenly, every choice felt heavier than ever. Will this be the start of something dangerous… or a responsibility I can’t escape?

I love him since I saw him. Hindi ako naniniwala sa love at first sight pero ng makita ko siya binali niya ang paniniwala ko. Alam ko sa sarili ko mahal ko siya, kaya ganun nalang ang tuwa ko ng inapproach niya ako pero nawasak ang puso ko "Hindi ba best friend mo si Ms. Clarfson baka pwede mo naman ako sa kanya ipakilala sa kanya". My smile faded, my heart broke into pieces. Mahal ko siya at hanggad ko ang kaligayahan niya. Kung sa best friend ko siya sasaya bakit ko namana aalisin ang kaligayahan niya. Decades passed by, for almost decade ko na sya minamahal ng pa lihim. Could you imagine for almost decades na din ako nasasaktan ng palihim. But everything ruin, when my best friend married someone else and left my man broken. I don't know what happen but I found myself sharing a bed with the man I loved. I got pregnant with his child. Being pregnant with his child gives me hope, hope that he's going to love me how I love him but the hope has vanished. My love for him turns to anger and hatred. Is my love for him gonna die or consisting loving him even it's killing me?

I'm so tired of disappointing myself. I'm so tired of heartbreaks and tears. I'm just so tired. I never thought that love can be so tiring. “I p-promise... if this is the world of getting married to me, to hurt me, t-this would be the last tears I will cry anymore.” I said while crying under the rain. But could I still keep those words? Because my life didn't end here. Flood Voldizépeña is 27 years old. He's actually one of the most fearsome trillionaire of all time. A tall, smart, sexy and handsome guy with beautiful sky-blue eyes, who's breaking my promises slowly and tried to build another world with me. Should I let him? But I don't want to fool myself anymore if in the end he'll just give me heartache and destroy myself. But would he? Like, the world of getting married with a trillionaire? I wonder how it ends like.

He kidnapped me, he lured me, he tormented me day and night, HE RAPED ME. I had no choice but to abide with his demonic rules and give myself to him. Kahit anong gawin ko ay hindi ko kayang makatakas mula sa impyernong kinalalagyan ko. I suffered day and night until I got the chance to ran away from him. I ran away with the biggest secret na ako lamang ang nakakaalam. Now I'm free from my tormentor, I'm finally free from Gene Marcus Carter.

Am I ready to be in love? Am I ready to sacrifice myself? Handa na ba ako sa mga mangyayare kapag sinabi ko sa kaniya na mahal ko siya? Paano kung hindi niya ako mahal? Paano kung wala naman siyang nararamdaman para sa akin ano ang gagawin ko? Deserve niya ba ako? Hindi ako para sa kaniya. Kaya titignan ko na lang siya na masaya sa ibang babae na kayang ipagtanggol at mahalin siya ng lubusan.

I stare at her while she's bent down. "Are you deaf?" I asked her again and she didn't answer me. "Hey!" I can't stop myself from shouting at her because I think she doesn't know how to speak. Napahawak ako sa aking ulo dahil tanging pag-iyak lamang ang tanging sagot niya sa lahat ng taong ko. I rested and looked at her. "Anong pangalan mo?" I ask her in Tagalog words because maybe she's not understand me. "J-Judy p-po S-Senyorito," she answered me while she's shaking. Now I understand that she doesn't understand me if I speak English. I can't stop from smelling and thinking what punishment I should do to her. Because she's my slave at isa siya sa pagmamay-ari kong alipin.

Rimiera, an island which was surrounded by two villages,a city, and a province. The village of the ceruleans, known as the Ice Tavern, the kingdom of charmers, named Charm city, the Raven domain of colossians, where night never leaves and the province of Leviathans, also known as Levi’s forest. I am a Leviathan, they told is that we are the strongest race. In our race, I am the weakest... I have an Unseen allure, I became invisible. Father once told us that one of his children will become the strongest. I am unlike my sister, she has a Shadow allure ability, she's the only one who has that allure; usually Ravens have that skill. Anyways, months have passed in the middle of the night, when everyone was fast asleep we were attacked by Colossians and Ceruleans. In our race, my sister and I were the only ones who have fled. We thought we are safe, but we are wrong. We were chased down, my sister was killed. I continued running for my life, I promised myself if I live longer, I will protect Rimiera and punished the Colossians and Ceruleans. My tribe was almost wiped out, we were hunted because of their greed for power and also the Colossians would rule. You were salvaged by a City where everyone thought you were weak, but everything changed. Doubts were erased and soon you're carrying everything on your shoulders. To prevent another hunting season... But if they notice that I am still alive, another hunting season might happen. I will tell you my story on how I will overcome this issue, how my tribe was wiped out and how I and my friends recreate Rimiera. I am Dane, the Last Leviathan.