Traumatized Quotes Novels & Stories

“Minsan inaatake ng trauma si Gretchen, kaya hindi makaya ng parents niya nanghihingi ng tulong sa akin.” Nag-angat ako ng tingin. “Bakit sa'yo? Hindi nila dalhin sa magaling na doktor. Tsaka mismo si Gretchen ang makakatulong sa sarili niya!” tumaas ang boses ko. “Baka ginagamit na lang niya ang traumatic experience niya para mapalapit sa'yo,” Humiwalay si Matthias ng yakap sa akin hinawakan ako sa magkabilang balikat at naglakbay ang tingin sa mukha ko.

Why do I have to be the only one to be broken? Revenge. Only the ignorant don't realize that's wrong, but can they hold it against me? Two years ago, I was at my lowest point. I lost a child. I was cheated by people I trusted. The person I was hoping would support me abandoned me. I was forever deprived of the opportunity to be a mother. So is it wrong for me to make them suffer the miserable life I have? While I was haunted by nightmares and consumed by trauma, they slept soundly and even managed to prepare for a wedding. That's more inappropriate than revenge, right?

Pagsumbong nito at nagbugtong hininga si Dwayne. “I gotta go, princess.” He said and I nodded. He walked away from me. Nilingon n'ya ako at ngumiti s'ya. Ibinalik nya Ang tingin sa dinadaanan at patuloy na naglakad. Nagbugtong hininga ako nang Hindi ko na makita. “A one beautiful smile can really hide thousands of pain.” I bitterly said while thinking about what happened to Dwayne's. We share the same pain. We experience the same traumatic incident. Nilamon kami Ng galit at paghihigante. Wala kaming nagawa sa pagkamatay ng pamilya namin ngunit iba na ngayon.

“Sinabi ko na siyao ang rason kaya nakipag-engage ako sa kanya noon, kaya h’wag kang basta-bastang pumatay ng tao!” May hinanakit ang lahat, kaya kahit anong mangyari ay maghihiganti ang mga ito, hindi maganda pumatay ng tao. Bagamat buong buhay na siyang bumubuntot dito ay hindi natatakot pa rin siyang makita ang mga dugo sa kanyang mga palad. Sisikip ang dibdib niya, manginginig siya. Malinaw itong alam ng kanyang kuya na nagkaroon siya ng trauma matapos masaksihan ang mga pangyayaring iyon. Kasalanan lahat ng mga Giordani, kung hindi lang sana pinagbantaan ang kanyang buhay ay payapa sana siyang makakalakad sa balat ng lupa.

Trauma na hindi ko alam paano ko ba aalisin sa buong pagkatao ko! Paulit-ulit mo na nga akong sinaktan pero wala eh nabulag ako sa mga matatamis mong pangako. You're a walking red flag to me! My biggest mistake is to let you ruin me again. You're my biggest trauma, Levi! You gave me again the trauma that I don't want to experience. Yung trauma na ilang beses kong iniiwasan, yung trauma na akala ko hindi na mangyayari pa pero bakit sila mismo ang lumalapit sa akin, ikaw na naman ang nagbigay sa akin ng trauma. I'm not completely healed pero bakit may sugat na naman ako, malaking sugat na hindi ko alam kung paano gagamutin.

But still I’m here, facing all of that for my mom’s justice. Hindi ako papayag na gano’n gano’n na lang ang lahat. Gusto kong maramdaman ng Circassian ang pinagdaanan kong paghihirap kahit alam kong medyo mahirap iyong gawin. I want Helena rot in jail at kung sino pang mga kasabwat niya sa pagsunog sa sitio namin. This place might be traumatic but this place will also heal my broken heart.

Tinulungan niya akong kumalma. "Inhale, exhale..." Mahinahon niyang utos sa akin. Sinunod ko at nakatulong itong kumalma ako. "Don't stress yourself. You need to relax your mind, okay?" Aniya sa masuyong boses." I know it's hard but we'll go through it Tart. You are strong Baby, you are." Am I really strong? If I am then why I am suffering like this? Everyday is a struggle. Everyday I am reliving the pain. I remember the torture, the trauma.

He finished putting the plates on the tray and he put the tray outside and came back in. I saw how his face was contorted with a frustrated expression while walking back. He's not okay. Tumawa naman ako dahil sa naging sagot niya sa akin. But that laugh is not a happy laugh, more like a frustrated laugh. "I'm not some sissy, Elijah." Napapailing ako. He's treating me like a weak being who cannot handle some trauma. I know it's difficult to overcome trauma, but I'm different. I don't dwell in my misery because I know it won't benefit me. It's a matter of psychological decision. If you want to cage yourself and nurture the fear, you will be forever caged in unpleasant dreams and anxiety.

But, who knows! "I will forgive, but I won't forget. A cheat is a cheat! And sorry isn't enough for me to get better. Babe, you don't have any idea how traumatized it is for me, especially when I am carrying your child." I said. He closed his eyes and held my hands.

“Damian…” “No, Helga. Let me say this.” Huminga siya nang malalim, kita ko na pinipilit niya mag-ipon ng lakas. “When I saw that car, when I realized hindi na ako makakaiwas… the only thing in my head was that I can’t die without telling you how stupid I was. How I let past trauma ruin something good.” Naramdaman ko na naman ang luha ko, pero iba na, magaan, maginhawa, may pag-asa.