Why Do I Even Bother Novels & Stories

I don't have to see them all the time and bother myself, so it's better this way. "I think it's better they don't come to see me. After all, they are not doing me any help but bothering me. They should just stay away from me till we leave this place," I replied to her. But it seemed like I was deceiving myself because, somehow, I was expecting them to come and bother me again. But no one came. Even when I bumped into them, they just looked at me and left. They didn't say anything to me. Why do I even want their attention? It's one of the questions I keep asking myself. Am I completely losing my mind? Isn't this what I've always wanted?

Emeka roar “What wrong I’m I doing, no one cares about me, I’m the one taken care of myself” she paused, wipe her tears. Emeka melted, he felt his heart was burning on fire. For the first time he felt he has let his sister down, he has never taken responsibility of his little one’s affairs, he feels guilty, stare at her for some time, and left, without authoring a word. He spends the rest of the day thinking, he needs to sit up as a man, take up the responsibility of caring for his family. Since his not a graduate how possible is it, he can’t even speak good English, even the construction work his into, is just a peanut money, it’s not even enough for a pack of cigarettes and some bottle of

The question caught me off guard, having no answer I changed the topic. "Can I come over?" I'm bored out of my mind here. "No, I have a date tonight." I groaned out loud, raising my head up from the very relaxing bed. "Back to my question, why do you care so much?" "I don't." I defensively said. "Okay girl, I believe you." I hung up not wanting to be asked any other question. I breathed in asking myself the same question. Why do I care so much? ~~

I said, “I guess you should make him clear not to bother you anymore. Just tell him that you already like someone else and you are in a relationship.” She looked at me and said, “You know that I do not like lying. But I also had thought about that. But again what if this idea does not work. What if he still keeps bothering?” I said, “First try to tell him that and if he again bothers you then let's just complain it to our parents.” She said then, “I guess you are right.” I said, “Do it right now.”

Can someone please wake me up when everything's fine? Who would enjoy a life where problems come one after another? I am just trying to survive. I am just trying to change my fate, but what are all these? "Haa…" I'm tired…

"Oh yes, and what about your baby?" This is where some people, depending on whom you are talking to, but this exact moment is where they will say that I am selfish. Hey, they might even say that I am irresponsible. But why do I have to keep on reminding everybody who and what I am? Does no one understand what it means to have a passion, to do something that gives a meaning?

Maybe it's just my body reacting from stress or whatever. I thought of telling it to Gavin, Sylv also volunteered to go to Gavin to make a personal repost regarding of what I have experiencing, but I remember that he's ignoring me so I think he will not care much about it. I'm just a tool.... An asset for him anyway. So if ever, he really don't have a use of me anymore, and that's the reason why he's ignoring, he might really execute me... Why is it so hard to live? Why is it so hard to like someone?

I'm sure late fees are collecting on all of the books I probably still haven't returned to this day. Quit, quit, quit. It seemed like a bad habit of mine, to give up, as most would.say. And then Id always ask myself, wouldn't I be a bigger fool if I stayed? If I clung to something that didn't make sense? Something that wasn't my world? Dancing, soccer, writing, all had the same thing in common. They didn't bring me to life in the way that I needed.

“Why even try if no one cares?” I wanted to scream, to cry, to let out everything that was building up inside me. But I couldn’t. I was too drained, too worn out to even care anymore. All the energy I had put into this, all the time I had spent trying to make something happen, felt like it was for nothing. Like everything I did was just one more step toward another wall, another dead end.

"How could you not hear me, mama?! I called you more than once! I don't really know the issue with you at all! It's really, really becoming a bother to everyone!" "I'm sorry, Lilly. I've told you before that there is…" "Nothing wrong, right?! Nothing wrong?! Are you serious, mama?!