Worst Fears Novels & Stories

Unti-unting nawala ang kaunting ngiti na nasa labi ko at sa isang iglap ay parang lalabas na mula sa dibdib ko ang puso ko dahil sa kaba. “What do you mean?” “Hindi ka slow, Nico. Alam kong naisip mo na ang sagot sa tanong mo.” Tinawanan ko pa siya at pabiro ko pa siyang inirapan. “You know how much of an overthinker I am. I might be thinking of the worst.” “Baka tama iyang nasa isip mo. Sabihin mo sa akin kung ano ang naiisip mo.” No. I’m scared. I hate how fast I catch up on things sometimes. I might be wrong this time though. I am an overthinker. I always think of the worst thing that may happen. And sometimes, it comes out true.

aniya at akmang tatayo na subalit mabilis nitong hinawakan ang kanyang kamay at mariing pinisil. "Please Rain, huwag ka munang umalis. N—natatakot ako. Baka... Baka bigla siyang bumalik at gawan ako ng masama. I'm afraid of him. He's so scary Rain. His smiles are scary. I'm sure he's a psycho. I can see it in his eyes! He's a psycho!"

Pero naunahan na niya ako, at ang masama pa, ay alam na ito ng buong bansa. Sinubsob ko lang muli ang mukha ko sa unan at hindi ko alam kong ano ang gagawin ko. I didn't go with Nestor last night. I had a bad feeling that today would have its worst. And yes, here it is. . . the worst day of my life! Parang hindi ko yata siya kapatid sa mga pinag-sasabi niya. It looks like I was the bad one that ruined her happy ever after with Nestor. She cried live on television, sobbing like a freaking damsel in distress! Shit.

maktol ko namang wika sa kanya. “Eh, paano naman ang business natin doon, hindi natin ito ma-manage kapag patuloy natin iniisip ang mga fear natin.” aniya hindi ko naman mapigilang maisip sa kanyang sinabi, dahil tama naman siya. kung patuloy akong magpapadaig sa aking takot na makita ang taong dahilan ng paglayo ko. “Sige, kailan ba tayo uuwi,” ani ko. bigla naman siyang nagulat sa aking sinabi.

"Ano?" "You've done nothing wrong to me. In fact, I don't think that I really hated you, it wasn't hate... It was fear, rather. Now that everything just fell into place, I feel nothing. I lived those 5 years with the fear that Zane will leave me and Shane for you sa oras na magkita kayo ulit. Bakit? Kasi sa limang taon na 'yun ay hindi ka niya nakalimutan... Sa limang taon na 'yun ay ikaw pa rin ang mahal niya. He love you so much to such extent that it became my greatest fear sa oras na magkita kayo ulit." Napalunok ako ng laway.

anas nitong pinilit ibuka ang bibig. Habang tumatagal mas lalo ko pang nakilala ang amo ko. Oo, perpekto ito sa panlabas na anyo, perpekto ang estado ng buhay ngunit sa likod niyon ay may mga bagay na hindi kayang tumbasan ng anumang luho. "I-I have fear... fear of the dark... Kahit anong pilit kong iwasan ang dilim sadyang hinahabol ako."

Kung pupunta na naman ako ro'n, baka bugawin niya na naman ako na siyang ikinailing ko na lang. I'm not scared to be embarrassed, what I am scared of is to be glared by his igniting eyes like he doesn't anyone to know that I am his wife! He was staring at me at those times like I was a trash and a beggar who need nothing but money and attention. That's what I am scared of. To be treated again like stranger and trespasser.

Ang weird lang, shit. Biglang naglaho ang warehouse. Nasa loob ako ng isang kuwarto—madilim, malamig, at may puting ilaw mula sa kisame. At naroon siya—si Mama. Nakatali ang kamay, duguan, at umiiyak. Hindi ito totoo. Hindi ito real. “This is what you fear, isn’t it? To lose the people you love. To be helpless,” anang boses ni Nyra na tila nanggagaling sa lahat ng sulok ng kuwarto.

Konti nalang bibigay na. I never appreciate others' feelings because for me it's just nothing. A distraction, a waste, and a useless thing in this world. It'll just destroy you. To change you into someone you'll never imagine. "You're afraid..." He whispered. I want to answer that I'm not. Being afraid is not part of my world. Kahit kailan hindi ako nakaramdam ng takot. Why would I be scared? If deep inside I know that I'm scarier than what I'm facing right now.

Pero ilang beses siyang sumulyap sa akin. Medyo malayo pa ang biyahe papunta ng syudad, pero hindi ko naman maramdaman na gusto kong matulog. There is something that keeps on bothering me, I felt bothered for an unknown reason. Fear is creeping on my system. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ganito ang pakiramdam ko. Something is really up. Pakiramdam ko ay may mangyayaring masama. But I don't want to overthink, baka napaparanoid lang ako.