Worst Fears Novels & Stories

“When I was young, I worry about liking a person and not being liked back. On my teens, I worry about getting into relationships and getting brokenhearted. Nang nasa twenties na ’ko, I worry about whether I’m in the right relationship with the right partner. I ended up breaking my own heart, worrying, hurting myself, letting people go, letting other people dictate my actions. I worry whether or not to get married too soon. “Pero pagtapak ko ng thirty”—umiling siya—“I’m concerned whether I will marry at all. I regretted wasting time with the wrong people: People who killed my time. People who used me. People who toyed with my feelings. I fear that I may not find anyone who will love me. I fea

Bakit hindi ko nakikita ang sarili kong iyon kay Apple? Dravour, hindi ba't ito na ang huling pagkakataong ibinigay mo sa sarili mo para kumilatis ng babaeng ihaharap sa mama mo? You even hoped that this last one would finally work! And, if ever, IF EVER, that this one works, what are you so afraid of? Bakit ka hindi mapakali? Bakit ka nag-aalala? Why are you so afraid to fall? Maybe because, the previous ones left you upon seeing the worst version of you? Because they were so scared of you? Na hindi rin malabong mangyari sa ngayong nandito si Apple?

“So I’ll ask again. You okay?” Bagsak ang mga balikat na tiningnan ni Vesper si Kane. She can no longer pretend. “Honestly? I'm not. I’m scared, Kane.” nanginginig ang tinig na turan ni Vesper. Nagsimula na ring mamuo ang mga luha na kanina pa niya pilit na pinipigilan. Kane nodded like he’s expecting it. “Of what?” “Of messing this up for you. What if your Mom’s right? What if one bad headline costs you everything, Kane? What if people believe the article and you lose because of me? I can’t take it, baby.”

gigil na sabi nito na itinutok sa kanya ang baril. Nanigas naman siya sa kinatatayuan. Naramdaman niya ang malamig na takot na bumalot sa kanyang puso. She’s scared she might die, worried her child will get dragged into it, terrified she won’t see Eachen or her parents again. She’s wondering if this is the end of everything. What about the dreams she and Eachen had—building a complete, happy family?

Parang may pumipisil sa dibdib niya. Parang hindi siya makahinga ng maayos. Napapikit si Emilio at halos mapaumura ulit sa subrang pag-aalala. Napaupo siya at tinakpan ang buong mukha habang nanginginig na sa galit at takot. For the first time, fear crept in... Not just anger. Pure fear. Paano kung mahuli siya? Hindi niya kayang isipin ang kasunod noon.

Huminga ako ng malalim at pilit na nilalabanan ang lungkot sa buong pagkatao ko. "I became like this because I was left behind..." and that is my biggest fear ever. Being left behind by the person whom you thought will never leave and you trusted the most. It's brutally fatal. "Now, my heart is wrapped in a cold ice..." I whispered before tucking myself to bed.

isali pang natatakot ako. Baka kasi hindi matanggap ni Aiden ang kalagayan ko and worst... baka hiwalayan niya ako. And that thought breaks my heart the most.

Isang linggo na halos ang nakakaraan subalit mainit pa rin ang usapan tungkol sa ginawa niyang pag-amin tungkol sa kaniyang pagka-tao. Hindi inasahan ni Art na tatanggapin siya kaagad ng mga tao sa paligid niya gaya ng kaniyang kinatatakutan, he's actually expecting the worst— judgements, hateful comments, shameful attacks and the likes. Buong buhay niy ay na-takot siya para sa araw na ito, pero isang bagay ang na-realize niya matapos ang nangyari— minsan hindi ang mga taong malalapit sa'yo ang dadamay sa'yo sa problema, minsan iyon pang hindi mo kadugo o kakilala.

72 I couldn't sleep because of the fear I felt that night. Takot na takot ako na biglang bumalik ulit si Tito Alfredo. I want to call Maddix, but I'm afraid of Tito Alfredo's threat. The way he looked at me last night was so scary, as if if I didn't really follow what he wanted me to do, he would do something I wouldn't like. Ang sabi nito ay si mama ang pupuntahan niya kapag hindi ko siya sinunod. Napapikit ako at agad na tinwagan si Mama noong gabing iyon. I was so scared, and I can't even think straight.

Hindi naman s'ya makakapayag na mauwi sa wala ang pinaghirapan n'ya. " Karamihan pa naman sa mga bagay na nakukuha sa agaw ay madali rin naaagaw ng iba kaya mag-ingat ka," dagdag pa nito. Halatang tinatakot s'ya. " An egocentric person fears abandonment," matalas na dadag nito sabay tinapik ang kan'yang balikat at umuna nang umalis palabas ng unit. Palihim niyang naitikom ang kan'yang kamao.