Любовь Novels & Stories

Hindi niya namamalayang kulang na pala sila sa communication. Love is complicated. Parang chemicals lang 'yan sa chemistry. Kailangan sakto at tamang measurement ng chemicals ang nilalagay para ma achieve mo ang goal mong makabuo ng substance. Pag nagkulang, palpak at pag sumobra mas lalo namang palpak. In love, too much is toxic while lacking is dull. Kaya complicated ito dahil mahirap i-balance. But just like chemistry, if you learn from your mistakes you'll eventually learn how to produce the substance that you really aim.

Malungkot ko siyang binigyan ng ngiti at bahagyang napabuntong hininga. “I think love is in everything...” I trailed off. Nag-huhukay muna ng lakas na loob mula sa kaloob-looban. At nang may kaunting nahukay ay saka ko lang tinapos ang pagsasalita. “Love is when you feel fear, hatred, anger, trauma and all the feelings that you could feel. Yung sa akin kasi it's everything. The hatred is there, fear, sadness and the trauma. And I know it's love because if it's not love what I gave back then, then maybe I shouldn't have felt those feelings at all.”

Maraming puwede, marami ring hindi puwede! Ang sabi ng aking puso at isipan, mahal na mahal ko si Robert noon at ngayon! Sa pag-ibig walang kasiguraduhan. Puwedeng mauwi sa hiwalayan o puwede ring forever depende sa dalawang taong nagmamahalan. Sabi nga ni Kate Moss na nabasa ko sa F*, “Love is always a risk worth taking. The biggest gamble we’ll ever take is with our hearts. In handing someone our most vulnerable pieces. Not knowing where it will lead. Where it’s meant to go. Whether they’re a lesson Or forever.”

Nasa senior high na ako at ilang buwan na lang ay graduation na namin. Si River ang isa sa pinakamakulit na manliligaw ko. Kahit na ilang beses ko na itong tinaggihan ay patuloy pa rin siya sa pangungulit sa akin. At sinabi niya na hindi daw siya titigil hanggat wala pa siyang nakikitang isang lalaking kasa-kasama ko daw. O matatawag na boyfriend. Naiinis na ako sa kakulitan niya pero nakakapagod din naman ang pagsita ko sa kanya kaya hinahayaan ko na lang hanggang sa ito na mismo ang tumigil at mapagod sa pagsunod sa akin.

Hindi nagsalita ang lalaki at tulala lang ito. “I love you, Vincent. We need to be strong for Synesthea, okay?” “Mom, I don't hate her. I'm just jealous but I don't hate her. I love her to the point that I don't care if it hurts me, gusto kong angkinin lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman niya. Kahit idoble pa ang sakit na ibibigay sa akin, h'wag lang niyang maramdaman. Makita ko lang siyang laging masaya, gagawin ko. Anong gagawin ko kapag nawala siya sakin, Mom? Hindi ko kaya. I want to be with her. If something happen to her, I will follow her.”

I run fast as my heart was slowly tearing apart. God, I love him... H-Hindi naman totoo na hindi ko siya mahal e. Kasi ang totoo. Siya ang buhay ko. Siya ang mundo ko. At siya ang lahat sa akin... God, I hope he will forgive me. I hope, he will understand me. I hope, I overcome this pain... Zayn... Baby, I'm so sorry kung nasaktan kita. I'm sorry... I love you, but I need to let you go...

A love that stay. A kind of love that last forever.

sana malunok mo 'yang bubblegum h*******k ka. Kaya pala noong tinanong ko kagabi kay Emrys siya Pala 'yong I love that someone e tapos hindi pa niya alam ang reason kung bakit niya love ang h*******k na Ylonang 'yon! Tutal wala naman talagang karason rason 'yon!

*****ART***** "BUT THIS love I have for you can be compared to a malfunctioning car, its been so impossible to control. It actually didn't bring me to the destination I want to reach, but brought me into your world instead. Into your world filled with a lot of drama, pains, sadness... but know what's crazy about it? I found happiness in your world, you've given me so much and I'm so grateful about it."

Hindi ba dapat ipaglaban niya ako kahit papaano? But there are still questions that I need to find an answer too. Tulad nalang din ng kay Vince, hindi ba. Those three words 'I love you'. He loves me, pero paano? Bakit? He loves me but we are best friends, how did he love me? We have our promise, that whatever happened we will not fall. Bakit ba nangyayari 'to? Hindi pa tapos ‘yong kay daddy. Mr. Villanueva said that he would take care of it. He had informed me earlier through phone. Gusto n’ya raw na mabawasan ang mga iniisip ko.