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Reina's POV

I sniffed in as low grunts and the sound of skin slapping against skin pierced through my ear, I could feel my heart shredding into tiny bits I knew wouldn't be recoverable as I listened on, squeezing hard on the door knob, I tried all that I could not to let myself immerse in the sea of thoughts that threatened to take me away with it, I kept trying, trying to be strong, but It appeared that I wasn't trying enough, where exactly had I gone wrong in all of this?

Beads of tears cascaded down my face and I bit on my lips until I could feel the metallic taste of blood which was mixed with salt.

“ Madam, I told you not to come in but still, you refused to heed my warnings” the secretary admonished me as the moans and grunts got worse, and I was forced to take a step backwards, pulling my hands away from the knob as though I had been scalded by something hot. I loved him far too much to let another woman take him away from me.

I wasn't going to let it happen, although our marriage had been arranged. I had always wanted him, I had loved him when I had seen him walk into the compound and the way his face had lit up with a smile on it when he saw me had melted my heart, making it hitch when our eyes met.

I gulped in, squeezing the paper tightly, the main reason I was here. I blinked away the tears that threatened to drop before flashing a smile at the secretary, who was fidgeting and looked worried.

“ Do not let him know I was here” I clenched my fist before turning around on my heels and walking out of the office.

“But….” I glared at her, hoping she would get the message and when she nodded, I sauntered away, trying as hard as I could to stay strong even when my leg almost gave way underneath me until I was in the elevator.

I leaned against the side, letting down all the tears that had brimmed in my eyes, I was heartbroken and tired, I guess this was what I got for being over-excited, for not wanting to keep the news to myself, for thinking that Richard would be excited to know we were finally expecting our kids. After trying so hard for years.

I placed a handkerchief over my mouth when the elevator dinged, my heels clicking on the marble tiles as I made my way out of his company, the same one I had helped him build, the very same one I had given him all of my shares when he was about losing it all, perhaps was this my fate? To keep getting hurt? By the same man I loved?

“Madam” the driver took a step forward but halted when I raised a finger out to him, stopping him from coming forward.

Every one of them at home had the same look on their faces when they saw me, like they were sympathetic. Was I being foolish, holding on to a man who never wanted me? Or was it bad that I loved him that much?

“ The cake?” I asked as I placed a foot into the car, watching as he gingerly stepped in, before turning on the ignition.

“ A little party is being thrown at a home in honor of you and the chairman has sent a little gift for you”

“ The chairman,” I chuckled softly before scoffing out,

The one who I had heard banging hard into a stranger? Somehow, I couldn't stop myself from wondering if he had the same look on his face as he had when he was fucking me, or would it be different?

I loosened my grip around the paper I was holding, before dipping it into my bag.

I exhaled deeply when the car rolled into a stop before a magnifying glass house, one that was mine and Richard's and would be the children as well.

I knew what I wanted to do, I would keep shut about this because I did not want anything to happen to the children, I had grown up with both of my parents, and they deserved that also, they needed to know what it felt like to grow up with both parents by their side.

“Reina” Nina shrieked excitedly when I placed my feet out, a wide smile on her face before jumping on my body.

“ You have to be careful, Nina, you do not want to hurt me and….” My eyes strayed to my stomach when she yelped out, but I placed a palm on her lips.

“ Does that mean I will be a godmother soon? How far gone are you? Gosh, I am so happy for you Reina, I know how hard you have been trying and now, you have your little bundles of joy" she said with teary eyes,

I flashed a smile at her, letting her wrap her hands around mine, as we walked into the house.

" Does Richard know? Have you told him?”

The smile on my face faltered as fast as it came, and I shook my head “I will let him know when he is back from work and…''

“Work…work…work…what exactly is wrong with him? Today is your twenty-fourth birthday and since you both got married, he has never attended any, and…”

I slipped my legs into the flip-flop the maid had placed down, handing her my bag.

“ He sends me gifts,Nina, and they tell me how much he wants to be here, but he is occupied with work”

“ Gifts aren't his presence Reina, When exactly are you going to talk about that with him? Let him know that he has to buckle up,how much longer are you going to make excuses for him…we both know…"

Her voice trailed to the background as I let my eyes run through the room I was in,

Everything was done already, decorations were everywhere, just like it has been for the last four years, A little tiny cake was left in the middle and his gift, but still, he wasn't here, his presence was missing just like always.

“Are you okay?” Nina asked immediately as I stood in front of the table.

I pulled her into my arms, hoping that I would get succor from them.

“ I am tired, Nina,” I confessed to her as tears slipped through my eyes.

My heart seemed to have gone cold, and I was finding it hard to breathe. “Of everything, he is hardly ever around and… I do not want him to go… he is barely even a husband to me, do you think he would love them? Our kids?”

She pushed me away slightly, her hands caressing my stomach gently, “Then get a divorce,”

I wriggled her hands off me, taking a step backward" You are joking,right? Because I do not understand why you would suggest that, you know that…”

“ That you love him…"she intercepted me, rolling her eyes to the side,

" I do, but still don't you think it would be better if you got a divorce, You will always have my support”

“Get out” I gestured at the door to her, fuming in anger, this had to be it, how could she think of suggesting something that outrageous to me?

“ What? You do not mean that, do you?"

“ Get out, Nina, how could you? Of all things, how could you tell me to get a divorce when you know how much I love him? How…” I tried to calm down, I was raising my voice and it wouldn't help.

She shook her head at me, before picking up her bag, taking a last glance at me, "I hope you wouldn't regret your decision,"

“ Shit, what have I done?” I ran a hand through my hair, watching her walk away. The sound of the revving engine resonated in my ear before it became distinct.

I crumbled to the ground, as everything seemed to shatter around me, she was gone, wasn't she?

I lifted my head when I heard approaching footsteps, his musky scent drifted into my nostrils.

“Richard…?" I whispered out, as he got closer, my heart flipped with joy as he approached me

Was he really here for my birthday? Finally, was everything going to be alright?

“Reina” he ran his gaze around the room I was in, before fixing them on me.

I waited for him to say the word, to wish me happy birthday, and when he bit on his lips before staring at me, my heart flipped because I knew I had hoped for too much.

“ Let's get divorced, Reina” he whispered to me,