Fear Of Fire 소설 & 이야기

"What?" ​"You're afraid of me," ulit niya. "Not in a literal sense. I know you're not scared of me like that. Pero emotionally. Psychologically. You're terrified of what I represent. Every time na lumalpit ako, umuusog ka. Every time na nag-attempt akong mag-start ng real conversation, binabara mo ako with professionalism. What are you so afraid of? What about me specifically terrifies you?" ​Hindi ako makasagot. Paano ko ba sasabihin na natatakot ako kasi baka magpadala na naman ako? Baka maging tanga na naman ako?

Tumigas ang dibdib niya. This wasn’t coincidence. This wasn’t paranoia. This wasn’t imagination. Someone was monitoring her area. Someone had interest in her movements. And someone had done this before she stepped out. At doon, unti-unting nagsanib ang dalawang pakiramdam na matagal niyang kinikimkim: Fear. And fire. Hindi na ito simpleng emotional journey. Hindi na ito simpleng career battle. This was a sign that the game was escalating

Dahan-dahang pinakawalan ang hangin sa mga baga ko. They say my husband-to-be is a hellhound. That he can figure out your deepest fear in minutes and use it against you. I guess it becomes easy to detect fear—become well-acquainted with it, even—when so many people are afraid of you. But I’m not one of them. I’m not afraid of him. And I think he knows it, too. Right from the very beginning, my fear was never for myself. It was for the people I cared about. It’s why I stepped in front of Papa and Atticus that day at the engagement, and it’s why I stepped in front of Beny today.

Since FEAR has strong connections to government agencies and military personnel, it has a strong possibility that Archibald is backed up by them, kaya malakas ang loob niyang kalabanin ang Westside. FEAR, a military agency that solves complex and violent enemies the normal police cannot handle, mostly supernatural ones. Kagaya sa Westside Dragons, karamihan ng miyembro nito ay mga talisman users. Malaking organisasyon ang FEAR, marami silang koneksyon sa malalaking organisasyon sa labas at loob ng bansa. I hate to admit it, pero sila ang grupong kayang tapatan ang Westside. The two groups have been clashing for so many years, pero hanggang ngayon, wala pa ring nakadadaig sa bawat isa.

Kahit nanghihina ay pinilit kong ilapat ang kamay sa tiyan niya para yakapin din siya. "It wasn't easy for me to act like normal around you while I'm suffering inside. N-Natatakot ako na baka kapag sinabi ko sa inyo hindi niyo ko paniwalaan," nanginginig ang labi na saad ko. "Takot na takot ako sa putok ng baril, Styx . . . kasi naalala ko lahat ng nangyari bago ako nawala sa inyo sa tuwing makakarinig ako no'n." And I chose to overcome my fear by fighting for you and our kids. I almost killed Antonio that time.

At nang tuluyan kong yakapin siya— parang sumabog ang lahat ng ingay sa utak ko. Mainit ang katawan niya, marahan ang paghinga, at sa bawat galaw niya ay naramdaman kong unti-unti siyang kumakalma. “Thank you, Fire…” mahina niyang bulong. “You make me feel safe.” Napapikit ako. Kung alam mo lang, Ninang… hindi ko dapat ginagawa ‘to. Pero sa sandaling ‘to, wala na akong lakas tumanggi.

He spread his arms to cover me from his back. The nervousness and fear that I felt just got tripled. I wanted to do something but I don't know what. This is what I really fear the most na baka may makasalubong kaming panganib kung tatahakin namin ang kagubatang ito. I still wanted to hide to our spot earlier but I also do get Harry's point.

Kael finally said in a low voice, “being scared is normal. Fear means you actually care. But if you let that fear control you, you’ll never know if what you’re holding back from could’ve been something real… something lasting.” Naramdaman ko ang paghagod niya sa likod ko, na para bang naiintindihan niya ang nararamdaman ko. Napakagat labi ako at mabilis pinunasan ang luha sa gilid ng mga mata ko.

"I-iyon ba ang dahilan kung bakit ayaw mong umaalis akong mag-isa ng walang bantay? Dahil ba ay natatakot kang may mangyayaring masama sa akin Liam?" Mahina siyang tumango. "That's the reason. Your husbands receives lots of threats and I'm afraid if my rival knows that you are my wife. They will hold you as their target that is why I want you to be ready. I want you to learn dis-arming enemies. Do you understand as to why I want you to be a strong one?" Tumango ito ngunit may pag-aalangan. "B-but, there are things I'm afraid to hold unto. I'm afraid of holding guns, afraid of lightning and storm. I even afraid of fire due with the experienced I don't want to reminisce—"

I stood motionless with horror; I felt a wave of fear when I hear a click from the trigger of his gun. "I...I'm so-sorry...I did-didn't mean to do it! please, I'm...I'm begging you. I did it for her-her sake!" My tongue is strangled with fear, and I can't even speak fluently. He grinned, then eagerly fire the bullet above my head. Napatili ako sa gulat, halos tumigil ang mundo ko sa nangyari, napahawak ako sa dibdib ko na ngayo'y ramdam na ramdam ko ang malakas na kabog ng puso ko.