Novel & Cerita Going Away

Kaagad siyang lumapit sa kaniyang asawa at pinakalma ito ng makitang matalim ang tingin nito kay Greg at Jade. "Please, ate. Pagpapaliwanag ako sayo. Pero sa ngayon ay aalis na muna kami ni Jade," malumanay na saad ni Greg. "Where are you going?!" "Ayokong tuluyan na masira ang araw ng kasal mo kaya aalis na lang kami," saad ni Greg habang nakahawak sa balikat ni Jade. Inaalalayan niya rin ito at sinabihan na aalis na sila.

Your family's disapproval, particularly due to my financial situation, has made it clear that they will never fully accept me. I deserve better, and so do you. I wish you all the best, and I hope you find someone who is a better fit for you and your family. Goodbye, and take care. I will always love you. Sincerely, Cassandra"

I HEAVED a deep sigh into the air as I sadly stared at my desktop screen. Kanina ko pa hindi maintindihan ang nararamdaman ko. Hindi ako mapakali at ang kabog sa puso ko ay parang kakaiba. It’s been four days simula nang magpaalam sa akin si Midas na mawawala raw siya ng isang linggo dahil may importante siyang pupuntahan at gagawin. Four days, but I already missed him so much. When he told me he was leaving, I asked him where he was going. But just like he didn’t tell me what his problem was, he also didn’t tell me where he was going.

Protesta ni Janice. "Marami pa akong gagawin sa office. You knew naman my business trip ako." Aniya. "Basta huwag ka mawawala sa kasal ko bakla." Si Janice. "Sure, padalhan mo ako ng wedding invitation sa kasal n'yo." "Ofcourse kayo pa! Malakas kaya kayo sa akin." Ani Janice. "I'll really have to go na." Paalam niya sabay layas na.

Nag-unahang bumagsak ang aking mga luha pababa sa aking pisngi dahilan para agad kong punasan ang mga 'yon. Humarap ako kay Israel at lumuluhang nagsalita, "Bakit parang nagpapaalam ka? Hindi ka naman mang-iiwan ulit 'di ba?" Halos humihikbing tanong ko. "I'll be gone for a month. I need to focus on our company in China." "You're leaving us again, Uncle?" Kunot-noong tanong ni Amari habang bitbit ang kanyang bag na nakasabit sa 'kanyang likuran.

"Anak, kahapon ka pa tahimik after natin mag dinner." "So what do you expect me to do? To celebrate? Hell no!" "Anak wala naman na kayong magagawa kaya celebrate it nalang." "We will find way." "Nga pala, I'll be gone for almost 2 weeks. May business meetings and proposals kami ng tito mo, I mean ng daddy mo for our company." "Wala akong daddy. Pero fine. Edi umalis kayo. Saan?" "States."

Naaalibadbaran kasi ako na makita ito. Kinuha ko ang cellphone ko ng magring ito. “Navy!” Nawala ang pagod ko ng marinig ang boses nito. “Paalis ako mamaya, Saddie. Pupunta ako ng Cebu for business trip. Hindi ako makakabisita sayo sa loob ng one month. Is that okay with you?”

Nahihirapan sabi niya na siyang kinagat ko ng labi. Ngunit napatikom din ang bibig ko ng maalala ang sinabi niya. "Sorry!" Natatawang sabi ko bago nag peace sign. "Oo nga pala, anong dapat na sasabihin mo kagabi?" Hindi talaga ako mapapanatag kapag hindi ko nalaman 'yon. Inakbayan niya ako at sinandal niya ang ulo sa ulohan ko. "I take a leave for vacation Agatha. I want to go out of country with you!"

So, nag-away nga sila. “You have to talk to him. It’s not healthy in a relationship if you run away from your problems.” “I am not running away. I just want to think.” “Whatever.” Umiling ako at muling binalik ang atensyon sa folder. “If you want to stay, stay. But don’t bother me with my work because I need to finish everything before I go back to Germany for Mom’s birthday.”

You're not terrified that people will abandon you, and you're not clinging to someone because you can't picture your life without them. When you're used to saying your goodbyes, you're used to being alone. You may still be sad or upset, but it never takes over your life, never prevents you from recognizing you're a person worth loving, and never causes you to doubt yourself. When you become used to saying goodbye, you get used to leaving as well. When you are abused, you become accustomed to going away. When something is no longer healthy for you, you know how to disengage. Even if you don't know where you're going or what will happen next, leaving doesn't see