I Never Believe In Love นิยาย & เรื่องราว

Na baka dahil sa anak ko, iniiisip niyang ayaw niyang magkalat ng panganay kaya ako na lang din ang gagawin niyang ina ng isa pa niyang anak. Hindi ko alam ang dapat kong isipin. Napaka hirap paniwalaan ng lahat. Pero kahit ano pa man sa dalawa, wala doon ang bumubuo sa hinanakit ko. I feel bad... I feel bad because I know, what ever the reason is, the word love will never be included. Nag simulang manubig ang mga mata ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit hindi pa ako masanay sanay sa katotohanang iyon. Max will never, never, love me. I bet, that's the last thing he would ever feel.

"Is that all because you are bound to marry someone?" "Yep." "Ni minsan ba... hindi ka na-inlove?" Napahigpit ang hawak ko sa bote. Ano bang isasagot ko? Kung sasabihin ko bang oo, maniniwala kaya siya? I was just twelve at that time, young and so innocent. Would anyone believe what I felt that time is... love? But love is an impossible word. "I don't know. I don't believe in love, e," kibit-balikat na sagot ko, not letting him hear my grenade thoughts.

And she's singing a familiar song at that time. 🎵My love It's been a long time since I cried And left you out of the blue It's hard Leaving you that way When I never wanted to Self-denial is a game A stranger I never woulda want until There was you 'Cause I have learned that love is beyond What human can imagine More it clears the more I gotta let you go 'Cause what I don't understand Is why I'm feeling so bad now When I know it was my idea I could've just denied the truth and lied

You and I shouldn't even try making sense of it I forgot how we ever came this far I believe we had reasons but I don't know what they are So blame it on my heart, oh Love moves in mysterious ways It's always so surprising How love appears over the horizon I'll love you for the rest of my days But still it's a mystery Of how you ever came to me Which only proves Love moves in mysterious ways Heaven knows love is just a chance we take We make plans but then love demands a leap of faith So hold me close, never ever let me go

Tumayo ako sa inuupuan ko at pumunta sa stage para mag-gitara kahit tapos na ang gig ko wala naman ng gaanong tao sa bar 6:00pm to 2:00am / 2:00am to 6:00am ang open nito. I'm Mr. Lonely, that's always been there, man Like, took all the bullshit Yeah, I woke up in the middle of the night And I noticed my love wasn't by my side Tryin' ta figure out what I do to make it go bad, cause ever since my love left me My whole life came crashing and I'm so May bago akong nabuong kanta na sumagi sa isip ko. Napatingin ako sa taong pumalakpak sa akin nakita ko si Helga nakatayo sa harap ko.

Hindi ko naman kayang pigilan ang nararamdaman ko. Kumuha na lang ako ng tubig at ininom iyon para maalis sya sa isip ko. Pero simula din nang iwan nya ako at makipaghiwalay parang kasabay na din ang paglimot ko sa salitang LOVE. Ni hindi na ulit ako nagmahal ng ibang lalaki kahit napakarami nilang sumusuyo sakin siguro natakot na ang puso ko. Ano ba ‘tong mga iniisip ko baka mamaya malate na naman ako eh. Makatulog na nga lang ulit. "Don't believe everything you hear. There are three sides to a story yours, theirs, and the truth.”

Aayaw pa, halata namang may tiwala siya sa sinabi ko. "Look, alam mong sa loob ng pitong taon ay hindi ako kailanman nangealam sa pribado mong buhay. Hindi ka kailanman nakarinig ng payo sa 'kin tungkol sa love life mo, pero hindi ko na talaga kayang manahimik. I wouldn't bother to help you if you weren't my bestfriend." Bumutong hininga siya sa aking sinabi at itinaas ang dalawang kamay na tila sumusuko siya. Umayos ito ng upo bago tumingin muli sa 'kin. The loverboy si back!

Pero hindi ko maiwasang makaramdam ng awa at sakit dahil sa pag-iyak ni Rex kanina. Does he really love me? Bakit kaya siya uniyak? Dahil ba hindi ako naniniwala sa mga sinasabi niya? Or maybe...he realized that...I would never believe that he's in love with me? Pero sana naman maintindihan niya. He's a fuckboy. He doesn't do serious relationships and I also don't want to assume that he's in love with me...even if he always assures me about his love for me. Aside from those, I also don't believe in love. I already stopped believing it after I found out my father's betrayal.

wika niya sa mga bulaklak. Pakanta-kanta pa siya habang inaalagaan ang mga ito. "I never dreamed 'Cause I always thought that dreaming was for kids Just a childish thing And I could swear Love was just a game that children play And no more than a game 'Til I met you I never knew what love was 'Til I met you This feeling seems to grow more every day I love you more each day I believe you I believe in every word that you say I love you all the way

"Nasaan ang anak ko?" Sunod-sunod naming tanong kaya nagpabaling-baling ang tingin sa amin ng doctor at malakas na bumuntonghininga. Dahil sa ginawa niyang 'yon ay muling namuo ang kaba at tensyon sa paligid. Lahat kami ay naghihintay ng sagot niya. "She made it." ... I NEVER EXPERIENCED LOVING SOMEONE ELSE. The truth is I don't want to experience love, because it will break you into pieces. And sometimes that will be the reason of your death.