Letting Loose Novels & Stories

Hindi sa gusto ko, kundi iyon ang hinihingi yata ng pagkakataon. If loving you is all that means to me When being happy is all I hope you'd be Then loving you must mean I really have to set you free Letting go is not an easy task When smiling feels like I must wear this lonely mask It hurts deep inside And I just cannot hide That there's anguish at the thought That we should have to part

Hindi ko pa rin alam kung paano sasabihin sa kanya kaya naman sinalubong ko ang kanyang mga mata. "L-Lets-" pero hindi ko pa natapos ang sasabihin dahil nagdadalawang-isip pa ako kung tama ba 'tong sasabihin ko. "Let's what?" Nakakunot-noong tanong nito. "Let's make babies?" ---

Bakit parang laging may sama ng loob? "Let go of me..." Mahina pero sapat lang para marinig kong sabi niya. I let go of his arm because I was afraid that he will shout at me and be mad again. I wiped my lips using my wet tongue. I looked at him using my pleaded eyes. Please, Magen. Take the bait!

Kung anu-anong palusot ang naiisip ko. Pero ang totoo? Ayaw ko lang talagang sumama. Kapag nakaalis na sila, saka naman ako lalabas. Hihiramin ko ang motor ng kaibigan kong si Pinky at sasama sa kung saan-saan. Mas gusto kong gumala. Mas gusto kong gumalaw. Mas gusto kong maramdaman ang kalayaan. Hindi iyong nakakulong sa isang kwartong puno ng mga taong nagpaplastikan ng ngiti habang nag-uusap tungkol sa negosyo. "Tsk! Halika ka na!” ramdam ko ang pagkainip sa boses ni Arif. At bago pa ako makatanggi ay hinawakan na niya ang aking siko.

tanong ni Caleb bigla, hindi inaalis ang tingin sa kalsada. "Yeah," sagot ko, bahagyang ngumiti. "Pero seryoso, Caleb. Hindi ako sanay sa mga ganitong spontaneous na bagay." "Hindi naman masamang subukan, 'di ba?" sabi niya, may lambing sa boses. "Sometimes, it's nice to let go and just enjoy." Napangiti ako nang hindi sinasadya. Parang ang gaan-gaan ng paligid kapag kasama siya—walang pressure, walang stress.

Hindi ko makukuha ang hinahanap ko na sagot sa oras na ito kaya nagdesisyon ako na umalis na lang. "Sorry Bro, but I need to go now. I still have an important meeting tomorrow," paalam ko kay Patrick at nagulat siya. "Ano? Kararating mo pa lang aalis ka na agad," gulat na sabi niya. "Hindi pa nga kita ipinakilala sa mga chika babes dito. Sigurado na hindi mo pagsisihan kapag nakilala mo na sila. Nakakailang shot ka pa lang at masyado pang maaga para umalis ka. The party is just getting started. Stay a little more para naman makapag-relax ka. Bro, you have been working like a horse," sabi niya at ngumiti ako.

Finding the courage to cut ties and make changes and remove the people and things in life that steal your joy is freeing. Freedom is letting go of the grudges you hold and deciding to forgive and forget. Forgiveness isn't about the other person. It is about you. It is about freeing yourself from the grudges and anger and bitterness that keeps you caged, that keeps you from being able to be happy. Letting it all go is to free yourself from the disappointments and pain of the past and move on to brighter days.

Cause you’ll only need the light when it’s burning low Only miss the sun when it starts to snow Only know you love her when you let her go Only know you’ve been high when your feeling low Only hate the road when your missing home Only know you love her when you let her go And you let her go… Mahal na ba niya noon pa si Kate?

So why did it feel like something inside me had cracked? The bell rang. Usually, iyon ang signal para magkagulo ang lahat. Chairs scraping against the floor. Bags being zipped. Students rushing out like five seconds of freedom could save their entire day. But this time, no one moved right away. Parang lahat kami, naghihintay na may magsabi na joke lang. Na mali lang ang balita. Na any second now, Caelan would walk through the door and everyone would laugh awkwardly because, God, ang pangit naman ng joke na ’yon.

kumalas ako mula sa pagkakayakap nya. “Sorry din at masyado akong nangialam” “Wala yun” at ginulo ko ang buhok nya. “Pero ililibre mo ako ng lunch ha” Nag thumbs up naman sya at nagtatawanan na kaming lumabas ng room “Grabe pre, pang MMK usapan nyo kanina” biro sa amin ni Clay. “Kaya nga, muntik na akong mapaiyak eh” dagdag pa ni Emman.