روايات وقصص ضمن Past Tense For Forgive

I really hope and pray that she will forgive me someday. *End of flashback*

"Mr. Forb! I don't need anything. Stop it and leave me now." Lacyd Adam's apple bobbed. "What should I do to make you forgive me, hm?" Lacyd suddenly asked her. Yanzy heart skipped a beat the moment she heard it. Umiwas siyang tumingin sa mga mata nito. "I know, I have big mistakes from the past. But you never want me to explain to you. You accuse me immediately of what you..." "Mr. Forb... I don't want to reminisce about the past. What happened has already happened. Didn't I forgive you back then?" wika ni Yanzy rito.

At two am, I decided to go upstairs, in my room – that used to be our room. I opened the door and I saw Mariake sitting on the bed, waiting for me. My mouth parted. "It's morning na. I've been waiting for you." She said. Agad akong lumapit sa kanya at lumuhod. I put my head on her lap and cried again. "Thank you! Thank you so much." I looked at her again. "Mahal na mahal kita, Kairos..." She said to me. "And I forgive you for every ounce of pain you gave me, I forgive you. I really do..."

Hinaplos niya ang aking pisngi at sunod kong naramdaman ang paghagkan niya sa aking noo. Ngumiti ako! "Your forgiven.." I whispered

Hindi ito nagsalita, nanatili lang itong nakayakap sa kanya habang marahang hinahagod ang likod niya. Maya-maya pa, inabot nito ang pisngi niya at marahang pinunasa ang kanyang mga luha. “I told you before and I’m telling you again, everything has already been forgiven. So let go of the past, sweetheart. It’s time for you to move forward.” Muli siyang napaluha sa sinabi ng Mommy niya. Tumimo sa isip niya ang sinabi nito. Tama ito. It’s time for her to move forward and leave everything that has been weighing her down behind.

"Don't hate your family because of me, Felix. Ayusin na natin lahat. Ayaw ko ng gulo." Narinig ko ang paghinga niya ng malalin kaya hinaplos ko ang panga niya. "Hindi na kita iiwan ulit. Subukan lang natin na makipag-ayos ulit sa kanila. Makikipag-ayos ako sa lola mo. Napatawad ko na siya simula no'ng bumalik ka na ulit sa amin. Pero kung ayaw niya, huwag na lang natin pilitin. Basta, wala nang gulo." "I'll forgive them too." Lumambot ang ekspresyon niya. "If that's what can make us free from every painful things in the past."

" Time pass by kaya hindi tayo dapat manatili sa nakaraan. Sa paglubog ng araw ibig sabihin panibagong araw ulit bukas. As a human wala tayong kakayahan para baguhin kung ano ang nagawa natin dati. My mother told me before to forgive someone kahit gaano kalaki ang nagawa nitong kasalanan. God forgive a sinner like us thats why we should forgive someone who hurt and betrayed us kahit gaano kasakit o kahirap" He is so cool somehow FASTFORWARD " Hubby gising mahuhuli na tayo" sigaw ko kanina ko pa siya sinusubukan gisingin pero tulog parin hanggang ngayon. " Anong oras na ba?" " 8:00 am" tugon ko kaya bigla siyang napamulat " Bakit hindi mo sinabi?" Sa tono ng boses niya parang kasalanan ko pa.

tumigil ako at huminga muna ng malalim hindi na ako makahinga kakaiyak. "Kaya pinangarap ko lang magkaanak kahit isa para hindi naman ako tumandang mag isa tumatak na kasi sa kokote ko na huwag maniwala sa masaya at buong pamilya. Dahil sa pamilya pa lang namin nakikita ko na ang realidad. Please TG forgive me for my dark past that I ashamed."

Napasinghal ako. This is what you want back then Nico. Pay their attention to you. What happened? If only they were not this late, I would be crying with joy. Konting pasakit lang naman ang ginagawa ko kaysa sa akin na ininda ang katoxic’an nila ng ilang taon. “Huwag na mom. I forgive you okay? Ganito ako palagi. Bakit? Ngayon mo lang napansin?” “I’m sorry.”

Kung ganoon lang kadaling magpatawad at basta nalang kalimutan ang lahat, ginawa ko na noon pa. Pero hindi eh. Hindi ganoon kadaling kalimutan ang lahat. Hindi rin ganoon kadaling magpatawad. Maybe I can forgive her someday. Accept and forget about everything. Hindi ko man siyang magawang patawarin ngayon, it doesn't mean na hindi ko na talaga siya mapapatawad pa. Kung ang Diyos nga nagawang magpatawad, ako pa kaya?