Poem About Myself

WARNING: RATED SPG! Sa loob ng limang mahabang taon, para akong kanaryo na nakakulong sa isang hawla na inaalagaan, pinalamutian, o ginagamit lamang sa kanyang kapritso. My existence revolved around being fed, dressed up, and trotted out when he desired my company. Life with a billionaire bachelor had its perks, and though I often likened myself to a slave, I harbored no complaints as long as the money flowed freely. Yet, as the years passed, the weight of my imprisonment grew heavier, each golden moment tinged with the bittersweet taste of longing. But the saga of my confinement finally reached its conclusion. Bumalik ang kanyang pag-ibig, at sa hindi inaasahang pag-ikot ng kapalaran, pinalaya niya ako para pakasalan ang babaeng mahal niya. Gayunpaman, nang magsimula akong umalis, isang hindi inaasahang bigat ang bumalot sa aking kalooban. Ito ba ay ang pagkawala ng pinansyal na seguridad na nakasanayan ko na, o ako, marahil, ay nahulog nang lubusan sa kanya?

"i never know myself until i found you" —zaira "i never know how to love until i found you" —gavin wil there be a happy ending in a world full of violence? may pag-asa paba ang pag-iibigang minsan nang nawasak dahil sa hindi pagkakaintindihan?

I never believed in second chances. Not after Cynthia. She was my confidant… until death tore her from me and left this mansion echoing with ghosts. Inilibing ko na rin ang puso ko kasabay ng pakamatay ni Cynthia . She was my wife. My peace. My mistake. Then her daughter moved in. Liza. The forbidden reminder of everything I shouldn’t want—young, alive, reckless in ways her mother never was. She looks at me like she sees through the monster I’ve become. Sa tuwing ngingiti siya,  the ache in my chest returns—violent, dangerous, hungry. Every brush of her skin ignites something I can’t bury anymore. I tell myself it’s guilt. I tell myself I’m just protecting her. Pero ang totoo? I want her. Hindi bilang stepdaughter. Not as Cynthia’s child. I want her as mine—completely, ruinously, irredeemably mine. They’ll call me a sinner. A man who crossed the line. Ngunit sa tuwing tinitingnan ako ni Liza, trembling, wanting... I knew I’d already crossed it. I tell myself I’m protecting her, but each night, the lie weakens. Because when she looks at me, it isn’t fear I see—it’s want. And God help me... I want her too. This isn’t love. It’s a beautiful disaster. And I’d burn the world just to feel her breathe my name again.

It was a beneficial relationship for the both of us. A loveless and contractual realtionship. But, why did I let myself to have this feeling? Since when did I have this feeling? Is it possible for my love to be returned? Is it possible for me to stay with you? I want to be with you even if it means betraying everyone, If I can stay with you by leaving everything behind... I'm willing to do it without any hesitation. If loving you means danger, then I would gladly offer my life just to be with you!

I'm so tired of disappointing myself. I'm so tired of heartbreaks and tears. I'm just so tired. I never thought that love can be so tiring. “I p-promise... if this is the world of getting married to me, to hurt me, t-this would be the last tears I will cry anymore.” I said while crying under the rain. But could I still keep those words? Because my life didn't end here. Flood Voldizépeña is 27 years old. He's actually one of the most fearsome trillionaire of all time. A tall, smart, sexy and handsome guy with beautiful sky-blue eyes, who's breaking my promises slowly and tried to build another world with me. Should I let him? But I don't want to fool myself anymore if in the end he'll just give me heartache and destroy myself. But would he? Like, the world of getting married with a trillionaire? I wonder how it ends like.

He kidnapped me, he lured me, he tormented me day and night, HE RAPED ME. I had no choice but to abide with his demonic rules and give myself to him. Kahit anong gawin ko ay hindi ko kayang makatakas mula sa impyernong kinalalagyan ko. I suffered day and night until I got the chance to ran away from him. I ran away with the biggest secret na ako lamang ang nakakaalam. Now I'm free from my tormentor, I'm finally free from Gene Marcus Carter.

WARNING❗️ MATURED CONTENT❗️❗️❗️ SERIES 11 OF 50! I am the perfect son in the eyes of my dying mother until I’m not. All the things I knew about myself and my mother’s death were all lies. My life in general was built on lies. Now, I only had to focus on one thing—be the best leader the Draco Elites had ever had. Be accepted by the notorious crime group, Foedus; to protect the people that matter to me, Carlene, and my men. That was until I met her. Stiffany. She changed every fucking thing. One look and I was bewitched. Under her spell. She’s refreshing and unique. Until she isn’t. She’s a bombshell liar with a smart mouth and legs for days. She betrayed me and I’ll break her. I’ll make her life a living hell. Until her past and mine come back at us. She was caught in the middle of the chaos and I was shattered. Now, I need to do everything in my power and Foedus to save my woman. I don’t care if I burn down the world to ashes or bathe with my enemy's blood. If my enemies—our enemies don’t kill me first. A buried past. A twisted game of love and betrayal. Three souls. Two women and a man with more enemies than allies. When love is more dangerous than entering the world of Foedus, will you leave or just surrender? “Lorenzo tastes like danger and power. A deadly combination. Totally intoxicating.”- Stiffany Author's Note: Names, places, characters, and incidents are just products of my imagination. Any resemblance to the event in the story is just a coincidence. Pwera na lang sa mga nagpahiram ng pangalan. God bless all.

Am I ready to be in love? Am I ready to sacrifice myself? Handa na ba ako sa mga mangyayare kapag sinabi ko sa kaniya na mahal ko siya? Paano kung hindi niya ako mahal? Paano kung wala naman siyang nararamdaman para sa akin ano ang gagawin ko? Deserve niya ba ako? Hindi ako para sa kaniya. Kaya titignan ko na lang siya na masaya sa ibang babae na kayang ipagtanggol at mahalin siya ng lubusan.

I stare at her while she's bent down. "Are you deaf?" I asked her again and she didn't answer me. "Hey!" I can't stop myself from shouting at her because I think she doesn't know how to speak. Napahawak ako sa aking ulo dahil tanging pag-iyak lamang ang tanging sagot niya sa lahat ng taong ko. I rested and looked at her. "Anong pangalan mo?" I ask her in Tagalog words because maybe she's not understand me. "J-Judy p-po S-Senyorito," she answered me while she's shaking. Now I understand that she doesn't understand me if I speak English. I can't stop from smelling and thinking what punishment I should do to her. Because she's my slave at isa siya sa pagmamay-ari kong alipin.

I hate his guts, ang bastos niya. Every time na magkikita kami para kaming mga aso't pusa. I told myself that, I won't fall for him. Then, one day kusa na lang tumibok ang puso ko sa kaniya and I can't help it. Should I give him a chance or not? Hahayaan ko na lamang ba na ang puso ko mahulog sa kaniya? Or do I deserve someone better than him?