Novel & Cerita This Is Not Goodbye

Charot. "Ok, that's all for tonight. Leaders, maiwan kayo. May ipagagawa ako sa inyo," as he bid his goodbye. "OMG!" tili ko nang makalabas. "Kalma, may susunod pa." "Callie, kinikilig ako!" "Alam namin pero kumalma ka." "Belle, saan ka pupunta?" taong ni Joy. "Tawag ka ni Kris." "Ha? Bakit?" nagtataka kong tanong dahil wala naman kaming business.

It hurts, but I had to let him go. Maybe we are meant for a happy ending in another world and in another life. But not here, not this time. So, this is it! This is the end of my string. I won’t bother you ever again, David!

Parang tinanggalan ng hininga. Lumayo ako. Diretso sa pinto. Walang lingon. Pagbukas ko ng pinto, tumigil ako saglit at nagsalita nang hindi humaharap: “Goodbye, Geg.” Hindi “see you soon.” Hindi “next time.” Hindi “sana maging okay ka.” Goodbye — ang tunay na katapusan. At nang maramdaman kong wala na siyang sinabi, lumakad na ako palabas, dala ang ngiti ng isang babaeng hindi na kailanman babalik sa anino ng nakaraan.

“And I wonder why you had to leave me…” “Why did it have to end so soon?” Napakunot ang noo ko. “What did I do to make you change your mind completely?” “Tsk. Nakalimutan na niya lahat ng ginawa niya?” naiiling kong bulong, pilit pinipigilan ang init ng ulo. Pero nang mabasa ko ang huling linya, tila may kumurot sa puso ko: “When I thought this love would never end… but if this love’s not ours to have, I’ll let it go with your goodbye.”

Hindi ko na alam kung ano pa ang sasabihin ko. “Okay.” Napatigil ako nang marinig ang sagot niya. Just like that? He’s giving up so easily. Isang sabi ko lang, okay agad ang isasagot niya? Pero ano ba ‘tong sinasabi ko? Hindi ba dapat ay natutuwa ako dahil hindi na ako mahihirapang ipagtulakan siya palayo? “I guess this is a goodbye, then.” Kinagat ko ang ibabang labi ko hanggang sa magdugo ‘yon.

Isang paalala na hindi pa ito ang wakas. Na may bukas pa. Kahit wala nang Calvin. Kahit wala nang kasal. Kahit ako na lang.

Gusto kong sabihin un dahil alam kong hind niya ito naririnig. "before i leave and go, i just want to say iloveyou.... . . . . . and goodbye" be happy ezekiel dahil pinapalaya na kita.

Pero bagsak ang mga balikat na bumalik siya sa kanyang sasakyan. Dalawang linggo pero sariwang-sariwa pa rin ang sakit ng paglisan nito nang walang paalam. Ni hindi niya nga alam kung babalik pa ba ito. Kung may hinihintay pa ba siya. Handa naman siya maghintay pero ang tanong meron pa nga ba siyang hinihintay. He remembered one article saying that; "The most painful goodbyes are the ones that are never said and never explained."

Happy memories was filled with darkness, laughter was replaced by suffering and the smile was replaced by strange sadness. "T-Theo, don't stay away please. Don't leave me, I need you. I can't fight if you're not by my side. I beg you my love. Don't be like this. You said, you will stay by my side and you will not walk away from me like the others. But what happened? Why did you stay away from me? Why did you leave me? Why --- When I already love you, when I already believe in you, when I'm used to your presence then you just leave me and stay away as if nothing happened? You even broke your promise. Why Theo? W-Why? Why!"

Ngunit hiwalay na kwento ito. Thank you so much for reading!! Nakakabitin ba?? I will try to add a special chapter💙