This Is Where I Leave You นิยาย & เรื่องราว

The gray sky blurred. The voices stretched thin. My wrist burned so hot I thought it might split open. And right before everything went black, one thought stayed with me. Caelan. I’m sorry.

I've got a tight grip 🎵 on reality 🎵 But I can't let go 🎵 of what's in front of me 🎵 here I know your 🎵 leaving in the morning, 🎵 when you wake up 🎵 Leave me with some 🎵 kind of proof it's not a dream, 🎵 oh 🎵 Sa takot na mahuli uli niya akong titig na titig sa kanya, yumuko na lang ako saka pinakinggan ang kanta ni Jessa. Pero nagulat ako nang may dalawang pares ng paa ang bumungad sa harapan ko. Hindi ako umangat ng tingin dahil alam ko kung sino ang taong yun. Mas napatunayan ko pang siya nga iyon nang walang ano-ano'y bigla na lang niyang kinanta ang last part ng kanta ni Jessa.

Kabanata 32 Leave --- Alam ko sa ginagawa ko, tapos na ang lahat. Kakasuklaman niya ako. Hinding hindi na niya ako patatawarin pa. Traydor ako. Ang tanging rason lang kung bakit ko patuloy na vina-validate ang kasalanang ginagawa ko ay dahil sa mga kapatid ko. I need to do the mission successfully para sa kanila. Alam kong hindi nagbibiro sa B. Alam niya ang kahinaan ko. Ayaw kong mawala ang mga kapatid ko. I need them to be safe. I need to be strong. Dapat ipagsintabi ko na muna ang damdaming ito. Wala naman itong patutunguhan. Marami pa akong daang tatahakin. I need to set aside this heart. I touched my heart. It bleeds here and I don't even know why. T*angina naman nito! Dami ko nang nata

Hindi matanggap ng sistema ko kung gaano ngayon katahimik ang bahay, ramdam na ramdam ko ito. And now I'm holding a glass of whiskey, wanting to forget this silence and maybe tomorrow it's all just a nightmares I have last night. Thought it was but it wasn't and how do I take it , when in just a blink of an eye my family's leave me just like that, sitting upright at the bed is like I am my old self again.

“Akala ko tinanggap mo.” Lumamig ang ekspresyon ni Diana. Tumikyas ang kanyang kilay habang nakatitig sa mommy at daddy njya. “I've had enough, mom, dad,” Diana said coldly. “He means nothing to me now,” she said, leaving her parents in stunned silence.

Let me know if you ever change, if you ever change your mind I still love you, let me know I can't promise you that I'll be waiting I still love you, let me know But for you, I'll leave anything behind I still love you, let me know Paulit ulit na lang ang mga huling bahagi ng kanta. The loudness is only varying until up to the very end, it slowly faded. We trailed further north, to roads that leave the city. Zephaniah turned to me. I was at lost of words when the song finished. Once again, it has fed my long burried affection and hopes.

Nanginig ang tuhod ko. “I can make you leave if I want to…and you can only leave here if I say so,”

“Ganoon na lang iyon? Dahil pagod ka na iiwanan mo ako? You’ll just leave me like this?! Paano naman ako?! Hindi ba ako pagod? I am also tired Lexus but I chose to stay with you kasi mahal kita! Kasi alam kong gagabayan mo ako! Alam kong hindi mo ako pababaya--” “I am leaving you! Can’t you fucking see it?! I don’t want to be with you anymore!” “You even said na ako iyong pahinga mo! What is that huh?! Was that just a fleeting scene because you’re happy? And now that we’re in the middle of this shit iiwanan mo na lang ako ng ganito?!!” Nanginig ang labi ko kaya mariin akong pumikit ang tumalikod muna sa kanya saglit. Sobrang hagulhol ako. I can feel the throbbing pain.

“Because if I let you stay, I’ll destroy you.” At iyon ang gabi—ang halik niya. Fierce, desperate, parang goodbye. Napikit ako nang mahigpit, pinipisil ang tela ng shirt niya tulad ng isang rosaryo na kailangang hawakan. Para akong nakabitin sa hangin, hindi sigurado sa susunod na hinga. He stepped back and the room felt huge, cold. “Leave, before I change my mind.” he rasped, turning away.

Nagulantang ako sa pagiging emotional nito ngayon. [Mrry Ann 🎶🎶] Sometimes I stare at you While you are sleeping I listen to your breathing Amazed how I somehow Managed to Sweep you off of your feet, girl Your perfect little feet, girl I took for granted What you do But I do better I know, baby, I can do better If you leave me tonight I'll wake up alone Don't tell me I will make it on my own Don't leave me tonight This heart of stone Will sink 'til it dies