This World Shall Know Pain の小説・ストーリー

"Kahit pala handa ka nang magpaalam, masakit pa rin. Kahit alam mong aalis na siya, mabibigla ka pa rin kapag dumating na yung pagkakataong iyon. Losing our loved ones will be the most painful chapters of our lives... forever." Wade Xynon's POV

No matter how much it hurt you. Because that's the only way out. END_

Pati ba naman ang anak ko mawawala rin sa akin? Isinilang lang ba ako sa mundong ito para maranasan kung gaano ka lupit ang tadhana sa akin? I have experienced so much pain. I have been mistreated, abandoned, blamed for being not enough… I have gone through all of these misfortune in life. “Symphony!” a voice echoed. But I am now in so much pain to recognize who it was. Hindi pa ba sapat na karma ang pagkawala ni Mama? Wala na ba talagang katapusan ang lahat ng pasakit sa buhay ko?

If it was a dream, why I am in deep pain at bakit damang dama ko. I cried for the very last time and gave up when I felt that the pain reached its climax. Maybe, Luna had given me death instead of memories. Dahan-dahang nawawala ang hangin sa aking mga baga. My vision is starting to lose. After a minute of immense pain, my body gave up. I lost my consciousness. Maybe I'm facing the end of the line.

Nang tumayo sila at gusto nilang lumapit ay pinigilan ko sila. Let me release all the pain you've inflicted on me. I stopped them. I'm broke, sad, angry and deeply hurt. Parang pinagkaisahan ako ng mundo. Kumakain ako ng marami kahit busog ay pinilit ko pa ring kumain kahit may mga dumi sa mukha ko. Nahihirapan pa akong huminga kaya sinuntok suntok ko ang aking dibdib at pagkatapos ay uminom na nang tubig at sinunod naman ang juice.

CAITLIN Love includes pain. They say, you don't love if you don't feel pain. That's right, how do you know you're in love if you don't hurt? But sometimes I can't help but ask god, why does it seem so painful? Doesn't it seem too much? Sa isang taong nakalipas na nakaratay si Amber sa hospital pakiramdam ko noon guguho ang mundo ko kapag hindi siya nagising. Kapag tuloyan niya akong iniwan.

Pero ngayon, ang tanging nararamdaman niya na lang kapag nakikita ito ay purong pait at sakit. Pilit niyang pinigilan ang luhang nagbabadyang tumulo. "River, sabi nga nila, huwag mong gawin sa iba ang ayaw mong gawin sa'yo. Magkaiba tayo ng mundo. Kasalanan ko na pinilit kong pumasok sa mundo mo at sobrang mahal ng naging kapalit nun. Bumitaw ka na. Pakawalan mo na ako at papakawalan na rin kita. Pwede ba?"

I felt like I was going to be trapped for the rest of my life but I found the escape. Being in pain makes you think that you’re hopeless. It makes you think that the world is against you. Being in pain can be the end of you if you let it poison your mind. Pain is like venom that affects the mind at first. And then when it totally consumes you, your body will be corrupted. It will begin to be corrupted just like how corrupted your mind has become. It’s poison. That’s what I learned throughout the years. Even though you know that pain will make living seem worse, you cannot avoid it. Pain is always there. There’s a pain in everyday life even how simple that is.

Nagawa niya pa rin gumawa ng masama. "You know I'm in endless pain when I wake up one morning and realize that I'm dead, buried and forgotten by those who are dear and close to me but alive and kicking to strangers, a people who don’t give a d-mn about me. You know you will forever be in pain when you wake up in the morning, with a jolt, to an emotionless face of someone who tells you nothing but to go out and kill, take another human’s life or yours would be taken in more painful ways than you can imagine. You know pain when you go to sleep with it every night and you see yourself being lowered in your own grave but when you scream to those mourning and burying you your screams are whimpers

When Leur mates with someone else than me, I wish to be killed already. Pain. Funny how those four letters hurt so much. I'm sure how many level does a pain should be. Kung may level ang salitang iyon, maaring narating ko na ang pinakamataas na lebel nito to the point that I want to end myself right now. Kung pwede lang sana at bumuka na ang lupa at lamunin ako ng buong-buo, tatanggapin ko ito ng buong-buo. Moon Goddess must have hated me to the point that inflicting pain like this probably is her hobby for me.