Romans & histoires We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve

Alam kong magagawan ko pa ng paraan ang nararamdaman namin. “Ang last part lang ang narinig ko kaya ‘di ko alam kung sino tinutukoy niya pero in denial ka ba talaga, anak? Tama si Kenneth, being indenial won’t help you. If you like someone, accept it no matter how hard it is. Love is a process kaya magtiwala ka lang kung hanggang saan ka dadalhin ng nararamdaman niyo,” aniya.

Lalo na at kitang-kita ko sa kaniyang mga mata ang pagsisisi. Pero hindi. Kailangan kong maging matapang. Ayoko ng maramdaman ang mga ipinaramdam niya sa akin noon. I deserved better. "Nu’ng hinabol kita at sinabi ko sa’yo na hindi ko kaya—ang sabi mo sa ‘kin nakapagdesisyon ka na, tama na, itigil na...and you just left me there." Unti-unting nag-iba ang timbre ng boses ko nang maalala ko ang nangyari na ‘yon. Pero pilit kong pinigil ang luha ko sa pamamagitan ng malalalim na buntong-hininga. "Kahit nahihirapan ako noon, pinili kong manatili. Pero ikaw...you chose to walk away. And now that you’ve decided you’re ready to come back—you think that I should be welcoming you with open arms? You

And she's singing a familiar song at that time. 🎵My love It's been a long time since I cried And left you out of the blue It's hard Leaving you that way When I never wanted to Self-denial is a game A stranger I never woulda want until There was you 'Cause I have learned that love is beyond What human can imagine More it clears the more I gotta let you go 'Cause what I don't understand Is why I'm feeling so bad now When I know it was my idea I could've just denied the truth and lied

"What?.." "Self-destruction. You look at yourself as a bad person in their life because of your choices. A monster. You are thinking that everyone thinks that you are a cruel person. You are blaming yourself even you are also a victim of the situation. I want you to look to yourself, not as a demon imprinted in your head. Don't think that you deserve all the pain inside you because of the choices that you made. You chose those because you love them and you care for them. You'll be never in peace if you cannot love yourself..." Love yourself? How?

Parang mas lalo akong nahuhulog sa patibong na ginawa ni kupido, bawat araw na lumilipas, bawat minutong nagdaan mas lumalala ang epekto ng drogang tinurok ng kanyang pana. Alam ko naman na impossibleng magkagusto si Lucas sakin, pero bakit umaasa parin ako? Nakakatawa na ganto ang nararamdaman ko kahit batid ko na acting lang ito. Lahat ng ito ay para lamang hindi matuloy ang kasal na iyon. Napainom ako ng tubig ng wala sa oras. -L.D

Sa dami-dami pa ng pweding magkaroon ng problema bakit kami pa? I love him and whatever painful words he says to me, even if he drives me away. I will not give him up. I will not give up our friendship. I will not give up specially now, now that he needs me and I need him.

Agad na pahabol ko at sunod na nilingon si Noah para sumagot. "We do, Father." Natatawang sagot nito kay Father. Pag ako kinurot ni Lola mamaya sa singit, kukurutin ko rin 'to mamaya. "Keziah Arwen and Noah Oliver, your love is something that you both cherish, so much so that it's moved you join in the union of marriage and create a home together. Today, you dedicate your lives to giving one another happiness and support. To be certain, entering into the covenant of marriage is an act of deep trust and faith in the strength of your love. It would be a fool's error to base your marriage on the hope that your partner will change to become something they are not, or do something in the future t

The memories of his deceit swirled in my mind like a toxic storm, poisoning every happy thought and leaving me breathless. We were supposed to be the embodiment of forever, the love story that everyone envied and aspired to emulate. But behind the closed doors of our perfect facade, he was living a lie. And I, in my innocence and trust, was merely a pawn in his game—a piece bought and sold by my own family in exchange for their own selfish interests.

"Hindi ako masamang tao kung hindi ka rin masama sa akin." "I don't deserve it, but I'll spend the rest of my life proving you were right to give me another chance." Inangat ni Aella ang ulo, pinasadahan ng tingin ang mukha nito na para bang may hinahanap. Nandoon ang linya ng desperasyon, stress, konsensiya ng lalaking minsan niyang minahal. Sumilay ang malambot niyang ngiti. "Theo... minsan ang pag-big, hindi 'yan sa kung deserving ka. Tungkol iyon kung pipiliin ka ulit."

“But you are my someone that I am waiting for… please stop pushing me away, it won’t work anymore after what you confessed…” Napalunok ako. Napayuko ang ulo. “Hindi mo ako deserve Liam. P-Pagkatapos ng ginawa ko…” “I love you…” I gasped in mixed emotion hearing those words from him. But do I still deserve to be loved? I was so toxic back then. Ang bilis kong nagpadala sa mga nakita ko. I don’t think I deserve his love. “Marami pa diyan, Liam. Hindi ko makita ang sarili kong nababagay sa’yo-”