Novel & Cerita What Makes You Doubtful To Yourself

he pleaded, his voice filled with sincerity and desperation. His words pierced through my heart, stirring up a whirlwind of conflicting emotions within me. Despite the hurt and doubt clouding my mind, I couldn't ignore the genuine tone in his voice, the earnestness in his eyes. Could I really doubt him? Was it fair to accuse him without concrete evidence?

"May tiwala naman ako sa kanya." "Should you trust him?" Nag-isip ako nang bahagya sa naging tanong ko rin sa aking sarili. "Well.... That's the only thing I could do. Right?" Ugh! Napabangon na ako nang kung anu-ano ang tumakbo sa aking isip. I'm not crazy. I think I'm just paranoid. Too paranoid. Heto nanaman ako sa hindi makatulog sa kakaisip sa kanya. He's harsher than a coffee.

"What's the purpose of lying Shayes if it's obvious enough?” Mukhang hindi tumatalab kay Ziyu ang mga palusot ko. "Bahala kang mag-isip nang mag-isip. It's up to you kung maniniwala ka or not,” I said firmly. "I always have this feeling na you're not a trustworthy person,” he said not looking to me. Nakatingin siya sa mainit na tsaa sa ibabaw ng lamesa. "Then don't doubt your feelings baka tama yan," I said without any concern.

"Why is that? Are you doubting yourself again?" "Sort of. I just can't help it…" "Callista…" Ngumiti ako nang malapad. "I had a doubt, yes. Pero hindi ko naman sinasabing natatakot akong sumubok. This might be new to me, but I'll do my best to make things work. Walang mawawala as long as I'm on the right track. And surely, I'll adapt to it by the time," ika ko.

I am really trust this man? I admit because of what happened to us, I sometimes doubt him. I stared at him for a second and I felt guilty for doubting this man. I sighed in shame. “I’m sorry…” I mumbled. “Yes, I trust you,” I added with nodded. “Fiel…” “Oo nagtitiwala ako, pero minsan hindi ko mapigilang mag-isip…” ang hirap din pala lalo na kung saan kami nag-umpisa.

Halos pinigilan ko ang sariling makisawsaw sa kanila. If doubt is challenging you and you do not act, doubts will grow. It grows until you cannot bear it. You need to show everyone that you are not just. Hindi ka lang sino? Dahil ikaw iyon. Hindi ka dapat pangambahan dahil kaya mong buhayin ang sarili mo gamit ang sarili mo! Tumayo si Tito at Tita. Tumingin sa amin si Tita gamit ang mga mata nitong humihingi ng kapatawaran.

"I can't even believe your feelings. How it ended up to be like this? Bakit sobrang bilis? Paano kung nalilito ka lang rin dahil sa nangyayari? How can you be so sure that you truly love me? What if, you're just tempted? There's so many questions in my mind, One. I know I shouldn't think this way. I know I should look out to the positive side but I'm just being protective to myself." "I'm protecting myself. That's all the thing I know of why I'm being like this. I'm doubting everything. What if, I'll risk it? What will happen to me if ever I'll go to the path I'm not sure at? Hindi ba at ako yung magiging kawawa? I will literally feel an unexpected pain, that I'm scared with. It's hard for m

I feel that is not right pero bakit? Boyfriend ko naman siya at since childhood raw ay magkakilala na kami but why can't I fully trust him? Bakit may doubts pa rin ako sa kanya? Dapat hindi ako ganito kung mag-isip but I can't help it. Pakiramdam ko talaga ay may mali but I don't want to force myself na maibalik ang lahat ng ala-alang nawala sa akin dahil just like what Jason said ay kusa rin naman na babalik iyon as long na regular ang pag-inom ko ng gamot na binibigay niya sa akin.

Mas delikado pa iyon. “Ang sigurado mo,” sabi niya. Tumayo ako. Hindi biglaan. Hindi rin mabagal. Sakto lang para magmukhang natural. “May mga bagay,” sabi ko, “na alam mo kahit wala kang ebidensya.” Nagtagal ang tingin niya sa akin. At doon ko naramdaman—may duda na siya. Hindi pa malinaw. Hindi pa buo. Pero nandoon na.

Sabi niya dahilan para maibagsak ko ang kamay ko. Nanginginig ang mga kamay ko at sobrang sikip ng dibdib ko. This is the first time i doubted my own self. How? How did i turned into this. 15 years of my life was wasted, no! Everything he said wasn't true. I'll kill him if he's lying. I'll definitely kill him!