What Makes You Doubtful To Yourself Novels & Stories

“Whatever she said, it won’t matter. I’m not interested in her, okay? And I never will be.” Tumango ako. “I know.” “Do you?” Napatingin ako sa kanya. “Red…” He glanced at me again and softened his voice. “I just don’t want you doubting yourself. Or us. Or you're doubting me?" "Hindi 'yon," sagot ko sabay iling. "I'm not doubting you. I'm just... worried. Kinakabahan ako sa kanya... Kung ano pa ang kaya niyang gawin. She doesn't seem to be someone who is willing to back off that easily."

Pagtingin ko sa kanya ay umiling-iling lang siya. "Ano bang meron sa 'kin? Bakit palagi na lang akong iniiwan? May kulang ba? I can't avoid questioning myself and I always have this self doubt in me,"malungkot niyang sabi. "Walang mali sa 'yo.Hindi ka naman niya iniwan dahil ayaw o pagod na siya sa 'yo.Umalis siya dahil kailangan.Isipin mo na lang na hindi pa huli ang lahat,na magkikita pa kayo.Hindi pa tapos ang lahat."

pabirong wika niya. “Sa iyo lang,” anito at seryoso siyang pinagmasdan sa mga mata. “Pagdating sa iyo, I doubted myself. I doubted myself if I am really doing it right— if I am really doing my best. Dahil alam kong kahit napangingiti kita, may mga oras na nasasaktan pa rin kita. And that made me feel worst of myself.” Tila hindi na siya humihinga sa mga naririnig dito. Kung kanina tunaw na tunaw siya, ngayon naman wala na talagang pagsidlan ang kasiyahan sa puso niya.

Kahit pa tumakas ako sa katotohanan, alam kong pilit pa rin akong hahabulin nito. Muli kong sinulyapan ang hawak kong pregnancy test kit. Can I do this? I have so many doubts in myself right now. My decisions in the past month were proof enough that I can't even decide well for myself. How can I ever decide for a child? How can I handle it when a child will depend on me?

Ngayon,tinubuan na ng pagdududa. Maybe, I'm still young and lack of knowledge compared to others who grew up in the civilization. But I know how to feel, and I know that the people around me, who are close to me? Are acting not right. I feel like, something is not really right. They're hiding something... Hindi ko alam kong ano, pero nararamdaman ko. Pagod akong napaupo sa buhangin at umiyak nang umiyak. Gulong-gulong ang isip ko. Nabubulabog ang dibdib ko, kanino pa ako magtitiwala?

It’s hard as hell. Like sometimes we’ll be on top of the world, laughing at the demons from our past. Sometimes we’ll be indifferent, coasting through our days at a snail’s pace. Sometimes we’ll be lost, stumbling through with no direction. And sometimes we’ll be in over our heads with pain and fear. And right now I am facing the latter. Right now, I am spinning with decisions and anxiety, disappointment and self-doubt. Right now I am questioning who I am and how far I've come. Right now I am wondering whether or not I can even make through or if I am even capable of standing on my own two feet.

Pagkatapos ng dalawang oras, inatupag ko naman ang shorthand ko. I can't even concentrate that much. Suddenly, I just feel so nervous. I feel a sudden doubt deep inside my chest. Lumakbay ang isip ko sa mga posibleng mangyari bukas at sa mga susunod na araw. I began to question myself if I am really certain about this... If I am confident with what's going to happen in my life... and if I am ready to be that woman who will be an equal of him, a partner and someone who will stay with him for this lifetime.

I am really trust this man? I admit because of what happened to us, I sometimes doubt him. I stared at him for a second and I felt guilty for doubting this man. I sighed in shame. "I'm sorry..." I mumbled. "Yes, I trust you," I added with nodded. "Fiel..." "Oo nagtitiwala ako, pero minsan hindi ko mapigilang mag-isip..." ang hirap din pala lalo na kung saan kami nag-umpisa.

"I’m just... I don’t know. I’m excited, but also scared. What if this doesn’t work out? What if it’s just another illusion that will eventually fade?" Ava shook her head, placing a hand on Maya’s. "Maya, you have to trust yourself. Trust Ash. You've been through so much already, and you’ve made it this far. There will always be doubts, but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t take the chance. You owe it to yourself—and to Ash—to see where this can go."

Akala ko mahihirapan akong tabuyin ang g*go pero hindi ko inaasahan na madali siyang maka-usap ngayon. Ilang salita ko lang ay tumango siya agad at walang alinlangang umalis na. Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ba ako sa inasta niya nang papaalis pa lamang siya. Pakiramdam ko kasi ay parang may mali. Lalo na sa mukha niyang nakatingin sa akin kanina nang sinabi niya ang mga huling katagang iyon. Pakiramdam ko ay may nadiskubre siya na hindi ko alam kung ano, pero may kutob akong masama iyon. I have never doubted my guts, that’s why I am so confident with myself. But now, I can’t even pinpoint what this bad hunch is telling me. It’s making me helpless. Wala akong magawa kundi magmasid na lang sa m