What Makes You Doubtful To Yourself Novels & Stories

“How can I trust the mere words? I have my own path, and it possible to far dangerous than crossing the forest right now!” “Then go!” Hindi niya napigilan, napakapqit na lamang sa simbolong nasa kaniyan leeg. “But I can't just having the other path while you cross that dreaded... of a forest, Real,” halos hindi na siya makatingin sa akin. “What the hell are you trying to say-” “You are doubting of what suppose you are going to cross because I'm here,” siguro niyang saad. “So please, forget about me while you are deciding...”

I have been carrying luggage for a long time and it was so hard to get along in life with those. Along the way, mas dumami ang pag-iyak because of not trusting and doubting my own self. Paano kung mas pumalpak ako? Paano kung hindi ko magawa at mas malunod ako sa nararamdaman? Hindi naging madali ang nagdaan na dalawat kalahating taon. I was torn between heaven and hell, comfort and chaos, giving up and being sedulous. Ang hirap sa parte ko lalo na't mag-isa lang ako, but that solitary made me realize so many things on my own and put up my new self. May mga gabi na basta na lang ulit ako maiiyak kasi pagdududahan ko 'yong sarili ko at malungkot kasi may naalala akong mga tao.

“Can that change the past? Definitely not! Pero gagaan. Gagaan yung dalahin mo kasi masasagot yung mga tanong. Questions that are left unanswered are heavy baggage. They could hinder our growth.” Napayuko naman siya sa sinabi ng biyenan. “It can hinder your growth in a sense na hindi ka lang mawawalan ng tiwala kay Cyril. But you will also doubt other people, mawawalan ka ng tiwala sa lahat ng tao sa paligid mo. Mawawalan ka ng tiwala sa mga bagong taong darating na nagpapatibok ng puso mo. Or worst, baka humantong pa sa puntong mawalan ka ng tiwala sa sarili mo.”

I could see nothing wrong with it, but why those dirty suspicion running wildly through mind? I seated on the couch ngunit hindi pa man ako nag tatagal sa pag kaka upo ay agad din akong tumayo. I clasps my hand tightly, my entire body was shaking violently. I had a nagging doubt in the back of my mind that runs all the corners of my body. Nasa ganoon akong pag iisip nang tumunog ang aking cellphone. Mabilis ko iyon dinampot para sinohin ang tumatawag.

"I'm so d'mn foolishly inlove with you..and I hope you won't doubt that" Doubt?.. Doubt word is killing me now..and I can't help myself not to believe in my doubts.. Hindi ako nagsalita.. hinayaan ko lang na nasa ganoong posesyon kami.. Nararamdaman ko na rin Yung bigat nya kahit nakatukod Yung tuhod nya mula sa magkabilang gilid ko..I want to push him..but I have no strength to that..Alam ko namang Wala rin Yung kahihinatnan..

he replies. Bumuntong hininga nang mabasa ang reply niya. Hindi ko na talaga sigurado kung sino at ano ang paniniwalaan ko. I am clueless and dumb when it comes to these things. I feel like a fool for doubting Klaus and a mad woman for believing Zachary and his lies. “Ah,” I groan the moment I feel a sting in my head. Hinawakan ko ang ulo ko at para iyong binibiyak sa sobrang sakit.

War Dali-dali akong lumabas ng ospital at pumara ng tricycle. At first, I was hesitant to ride. I started to overthink. Paano kung dalhin niya ako sa isang liblib na lugar? Paano kung yung makakasabay ko ay lalaki tapos manyak pa? I can't help it alright. Once you're exposed from that kind of vulnerability, fear arises and doubt is the only thing that can defend you from any harm.

"Pinalaki kita, alam ko na hindi ka magsisinungaling." "Kasi pinalaki mo ako? Paano kung ibang tao? Maniniwala ba sila?" She doubted herself again. Tama siya, baka hindi siya paniwalaan. Kung gano'n ay ano ang gagawin niya?

’ anang boses sa loob ng aking isipan. Well, am I to blame? Mahirap magtiwala. Mahirap umasa. Baka nakikita niya pa rin si Allysa sa akin kaya niya nasasabi ang mga bagay na 'yan. Natatakot akong maniwala. The only thing that is left in me is my self value and the little love I had for me to be afraid to take the risk. This is hard.

I sighed and wiped my tears. "Fine?! You're not sure about that! He is acting like everything is okay but the truth is, it's not!" She walked closer to me and pointed me directly on my face. "He's doubting you already. He has doubts about you. He was disappointed. He'll rethink everything he had done with us, after that, he might cut ties with us! Saan ka na pupulutin kapag nangyari 'yon? Pati ikaw ay mawawalan! Hindi lang kami!"