How To Heal Yourself Book นิยาย & เรื่องราว

I'm clueless about the healing process I'm taking— unaware of the purpose of all the disturbances, grieving, and disappearance; the sudden weak hours, vulnerability, and longing for existence. This emptiness grows more soundly than my daily progress. I can't illustrate what more mistakes and loneliness I should deserve to finally welcome the healed version of me. I was pent up in the walls I formed for myself so others would not hurt me, but it turns out to ruin goals and block the paths I suppose to take for a trip to happiness. It can't let me win. It just keeps reminding me that I did nothing good for myself— that all I've done is to blame others; to make chaos inside me; to pretend that

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This is how our story ends and if he wanted me back then I'll just reject him all over again, hindi ako bumabalik sa tira-tira ko na lang. There will always be a new beginning to begin with and I would start it by changing myself first, I will let God heal me and fix every broken pieces he left and to start fresh again, this time I will guard my heart, protect my peace and soul and to be a better version of myself. ....._......

“Iniwan na niya ‘ko, Emerald. Tangina. Iyong babaeng mahal na mahal ko ay iniwan ako. Ano sa tingin mo ang gagawin ko? Magpa-party dahil iniwan niya ‘ko?” “Tanga ka ba?! Kaya siya umalis para sa sarili niya. Kailangan niyang magmove-on sa mga nangyari, Santri. At para magawa niya iyon ay kailangan niyang umalis! Kailangan niyang umalis para sa sarili niya. Itatak mo ‘yan sa isip mo, tangina ka!” And that was the turning point where I finally decided to fix myself. I realized that she needs to heal and I need it, too. And leaving is part of healing.

Doon ko na rin mismo pinalakas ang sarili ko. But before I stand up to my current shoes right now, I’ve been insane. I’ve talked to myself, bumped my head, experienced being a beggar, asked for money from strangers, and even hurt myself. I only remember that when a psychiatrist cured me, a therapist also guided my emotions and feelings.

Naiiyak na naman ako lalo na ng makita ko sa mga mata nito ang sincere. "Hindi mo kaylangang itali ang iyong sarili sa isang katotohanan na hindi naman pwede. Kahit na anong gawin mo kung talagang hindi kayo para sa isat isa hindi talaga magiging kayo. Learn to love yourself first. Hindi naman kasi kaylangang magmahal agad para lang mawala ang sakit na ginawa sayo ng ex mo. Unahin mo muna ang sarili mo before anything else," paliwanag pa niya. Nakikinig ako rito at hindi ko na naman namalayang namalisbis na naman ang aking luha.

"It is seeing you slowly building yourself again and healing from the trauma. I talked to your doctor, and she told me that you're improving. Aling Nene also told me that you were trying to open yourself again to others despite having a hard time trusting someone again." "You're not alone in this battle, kasama mo ako at ang babies natin. Kung kailangan mo pa ng space para—" "A-Ayaw ko na u-umalis, mas kailangan ko kayo, Styx," umiiyak na saad ko at binaon ang mukha sa dibdib niya. "I'm so proud of what you have become; I'm so proud that you were able to overcome everything that you've been through. Nandito lang ako palagi sa tabi mo, Xhia. I will wait for you until you heal yourself and bec

At yun ang una kong gagawin, ang hanapin muna ang sarili ko at matutunang mahalin ulit ito. I wanted to love myself first. I wanted to heal, I wanted to be a better person and build a new life without anyone, without Tristyn, without ate, without Tanya and so on. Gusto kong lumayo muna. At ang unang gagawin ko ay ang kumbinsihin si Tristyn na pakawalan na ako't huwag nang hanapin.

Malalampasan mo rin ang problema mo, basta magtiwala ka lamang at gawin ang nararapat na wala kang tinatapakan na tao. "Darating ang araw, malalampasan mo rin iyang pagsubok. Naniniwala ako sa kakayahan at kadeterminaduhan mo sa buhay. Basta magtiwala ka lamang sa kaniya at maging sa taong nasa tabi mo. Heal yourself, and love yourself more than you love anyone else. Don't run, just face it with a determine smile!" Nakangiti kong sambit dito.

Sa ngayon ang nararamdaman ko ay pagkalungkot, galit at pagkaawa sa sarili ko. Ang sabi ni Josh, iwasan kong uminom ng gamot na ibinigay sa akin ni Dr. Morgan. May tinatawag na ‘self-healing’ at natagpuan ko ang sarili ko na pumayag. Sa puntong ito ay wala akong pagkakatiwalaan kung hindi ang sarili ko lang kaya pipilitin ko na sumunod sa payo niya. "Pwede ba akong magbakasyon ng kahit limang araw?" I asked Bronn, wiping away my tears.