Romans & histoires I Can't Stop Thinking About You

Nakasakay na kami at lumipad na ang eroplano. Nagplay nanaman yung Antukin at inaantok na nga ako. Ano ba yan? Tapos sumunod yung kantang Worthless na sinulat ko. Worthless Thinking about tonight How can I let you out of my mind? Why I still care to you? Our memories fade the feeling is mutual Everything change for a reason I don't know why Are you happy now? Tell me, coz I can't move my feet away Away from you

Binalewala ko ang pagsuway ni Avi sa'kin at agad na tinutungga ang bawat shot na natatanggap ko. I have this annoying habit of torturing myself with my own thoughts. I can't stop myself from overthinking. Hindi ko titigilang isipin ang isang bagay hanggang hindi ito nagiging malinaw sa'kin. Hanggang hindi ko nakukuha ang sagot sa aking mga katanungan, patuloy kong iisipin ito.

~'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away I think of you and everything's okay I'm finally now believing~ ~Then maybe it's true that I can't live without you Maybe two is better than one But there's so much time to figure out the rest of my life And you've already got me coming undone And I'm thinking two is better than one~ sa hindi malamang dahilan, hindi ko inaalis ang mata ko sa mata niya, natatakot akong malingat at baka bumaling siya sa iba. ~I remember what you wore on the first day You came into my life and I thought~ ~Maybe it's true that I can't live without you~ kasabay ng pagbigkas ko ng salitang iyon ay ang pagbagsak ng luha sa mata ko, hindi ko alam kung bakit ako naiiyak nga

Mabilis siyang sumagot: “I can’t stop thinking about holding you… I need to see you, baby please…” May maliit na bahagi ng puso ko na sabik na muling maramdaman ang init ng yakap niya. Kaya muli akong sumagot sa chat niya habang pinakiramdaman ko ang sarili ko “You… you can pick me up anytime, if you want.”

But until when? I knew I should stop this since we'll only get hurt in the end, but I just can't. Not now. Not at the moment. This must be crazy, but at the end, I won't regret a thing thinking what ifs. My train of thought stopped when I heard my phone ringing. It flashes Zach's name on the screen. "Hey," "Hey, buddy, wazzap?" Napatawa ako nang kaunti dahil sa narinig. "Wow. Iba na naman accent mo. Kanino ka na naman nagpaturo?"

I hung up the phone tonight Something happened for the first time Deep inside, it was a rush What a rush (what a rush) Cause the possibility That you would ever feel the same way about me It's just too much Just too much (just too much) "Okay, another shot!" "Good!" "Now smile and walk..." "3..2..1... perfect!" Why do I keep running from the truth? All I ever think about is you You've got me hypnotized, so mesmerized

I just strumps the guitar and close my eyes to feel the presence of the song And I need you And I miss you And now I wonder If I could fall into the sky Do you think time would pass me by? 'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles If I could just see you tonight It's always times like these when I think of you And I wonder if you ever think of me 'Cause everything's so wrong and I don't belong Living in your precious memory~~~ I open my eyes and strumming my guitar like a pro 'Cause I'll need you And I'll miss you And now I wonder If I could fall into the sky Do you think time would pass me by? Oh 'cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles If I could just see you tonight~~

And it’s all because I was fucking disappointed with the thought of Icarus leaving me without saying anything. And now that I had acknowledged it, I couldn’t stop myself from overthinking anymore. One minute, I was thinking of any other possible reasons except that he did not leave me, and then one minute, here I was, spiraling over the thought that he really did leave without telling me, without giving me reasons. I immediately shook my head. “No, no, no. I should not overthink. He could just be outside,” I said to myself as my eyes went to the closed door of my room.

Can't remember how did it start? You are always on my mind every day, always you, always seen What do I feel whenever you are with me? I feel the same way Every time you come to me I was like stunned I don't know what to say Is it love? It feels the same Is this the beginning? can't be stopped This is Love I hope this feeling never ends Is this Love Is this Love Because it feels Love we found Only you will know the feeling If I could be you our feelings are together My heart is like that too

Pero hindi ko rin kayang umalis. So instead, I said, “Do you ever think about… us?” “Us?” “Yeah.” She hesitated. “Drake, there is no us.” “Right,” I said. “That’s what I keep telling myself too.” “Then stop thinking about it.” “I can’t.” “Why not?”