Novel & Cerita I Felt Betrayed

May alam sila na hindi ko alam, and I don’t know why, but I felt betrayed. Hindi ko alam pero biglang sumikip ang dibdib ko sa naisip. The idea that Sebastian was into someone that is not me poked something inside my chest, and I don’t like this feeling dahil alam ko kung ano ito. I should not feel this way towards my brother-in-law. Tumigil ka, Claire! Nakakahiya ka!

Walang ni isang hazard thing sa loob nito, wala nga akong makitang matulis na pwedeng gawin para saktan ang sarili ko. Siguro nga ay baliw na ako. Nababaliw na ako sa sobrang pag-ooverthink nang mga bagay-bagay na imposible naman mangayari o kahit maliit na negative sa ibang bagay ay hinahanapan ko na. Wala eh, I feel betrayed. Lahat nang mga tao na akala ko hindi kayang magawa sakin ang mga masamang bagay ay na gawa nila.

Now I know why,she ‘s the mole. “ Let’s go,we need to rescue someone.” Hindi pa rin ako makagalaw at pino-proseso pa rin ang nalaman. “ It’s okay bud,we all feel betrayed by her. We trusted her,and you didn’t love her right? I’m sorry that I just told you now,I really am.” Tinapik ni Carlos ang balikat ko,naikuyom ko ang dalawang kamay at tumayo. “ But I think she does.”

"Bituin, akala ko ba may trabaho ka. Bakit ka umuwi?" "Yeah I have work but I'm done. At sino ang hindi uuwi kung may natanggap akong balita na hindi mo man lang binanggit sa aking ungas ka?!" Base sa tono nito mukhang hindi lang sya kay Caleb close kundi pati sa lahat. "Siya ba?" Doon na ako napalingon sa nagsasalita at kita ko ang pagkagulat sa mga mata niya. Hurt is an understatement of what I feel at this moment. I know I don't have the right but I felt betrayed.

Mas pipiliin nya na mamatay ako, it feels like she betrayed me, sinampal nya sa muka ko na may gap padin saamin kahit gaano kalalim ang napag-samahan namin sa loob ng mahigit isang tao. “I feel betrayed when you said it Ate, ganito pala ang pakiramdam. Wala ako makapitan, all i have is myself.” Lumakad ako sa kama at umupo doon, marahang inalis ang dextrose sa kamay ko at kinuha ang cardigan na nasa upuan na malapit sa kama.

A great lie of me. I walked and smile just like nothing happen. I'm a good pretender and I used to it. I made them all believe that nothing was wrong between Miguel and I. But, as you can see, my true feelings were hidden deep within. The pain, being betrayed, sorrow and heartache that I felt. No one know how truly I felt even my parents and friends doesn't know my pain. How truly I hurt and it's killing me slowly. I just realized that in love, when we fall for someone that unexpected to fall for that might be surrender ourselves even in death.

Aside from feeling betrayed, I am mad. I am mad with how things turned out.

I felt betrayed. I felt fucking betrayed for the second time around. Maraming tanong na gumugulo sa aking isipan pero hindi ako handa sa maaaring maging paliwanag niya. Pilit kong pinipigilan ang pagpupumiglas ng mga masasakit na salita. Gustuhin ko mang lumuha, pakiramdam ko'y hindi ko na magagawa pa. Ubos na ubos na. Sagad na sagad na. Pagod na pagod na. Gusto ko na lang maglaho na parang bula at kailanman ay hindi na magpakita.

Siguro ito na ang huling pagkakataon na magpapakababa ako para sa lalaking ni minsan ay hindi nagbigay ng pagtingin sa akin. As we walked away from each other, realizations dawned on me, and I'm at a loss for words. I feel betrayed. This damn feeling is killing my inner self. And once again, I feel a tight hug from the darkness. It really did happen. Life is full of plot twists, indeed.

“Let’s go. I’ll drive you home.” “Don’t touch me with your filthy hand!” Iwinaksi ko ang kamay niya na parang napapaso. Hindi ko gustong madikit sa kaniya gayong kanina lang ay ka-date niya ang matalik kong kaibigan. It felt disgusting to me. I felt betrayed, and this only made me feel more guilty that I’ve betrayed my friend. Plus, there is a very complicated feeling inside of me and it’s hard to explain. Hindi ko na nagawang magpaalam kay Maliah at basta ko nalang sila iniwan doon.