Miserable Life Meaning Novels & Stories

Kahit ayoko, kahit pilit kong pinipigilan ang sarili ko na mahulog, lalo na't lalo lang akong nalulunod, and I don't like that idea. I don't want to make my life miserable. Talaga ba, Cara? Eh sobrang miserable na nga ang buhay mo, tapos sasabihin mo pa na ayaw mong maging miserable! Simula noong hindi mo pinigilan ang sarili mong mahulog sa taong magbabayad lang sa'yo ng pera, wala na. Miserable na ang buhay mo! Ipinikit ko ang aking mga mata; ayaw nang makipagdiskusyon sa sarili ko dahil alam ko naman na talo pa rin ako kahit anong gawin ko.

Wala naman siyang pagpipilian 'di ba? Miserabling sumubsob siya sa mga palad niya at umiyak siya ng umiyak. Halo-halong sakit ang nararamdaman niya. Sakit para sa pag-iibigan nila ni Axis na naging abo dahil sa maling interpretasyon nito sa narinig at para sa magulang niya na pilit sinasalba ang negosyo nila.

I don't deserve any of this. I stared at him through the windshield, talking to someone on the phone while smiling. I gritted my teeth with that view. Fuck that smile. I risked everything for that smile. "Fuck you Hubert Atticus Zaveri." I muttered under my breath. You once meant everything to me, but you turned my life into a living hell. Wala kayong pinagkaiba ng pamilya ko. You're all heartless people who did nothing but ruin me. You're all the reason why I'm a heartless bitch right now. Why I'm so fucking numb. Why I'm so sick and tired of everything. Why I lost myself more.

Bigla itong sumeryoso at masama na akong tinignan. "Akala mo lang wala Travis, dahil sa'yo naging miserable ang kanyang buhay. Hindi niya nagawa ang mga gusto niya. Nasira ang pangarap niya. Pinabaksak mo siya. Ngayon na nakabangon na siya muli, Bumalik siya para maghiganti at kunin lahat sa'yo. That person wants your life to be miserable katulad ng naranasan niya ng dahil sa'yo."

I'm so focused on finding my old memories, in the process that made me lose myself too. "Why does life lessons have to be learned the hard way? You are asking me if I am okay, I don't really know what's the answer." Nakita kong natigilan sya. Tears are continuously falling down my cheek. "I can't be not okay. I have too be okay dahil may umaasa sa akin. I know I am just over sensitive. I'm not supposed to cry today but I really can't help it. Alam mo yung, tipong tahimik ang buhay ko tapos bigla nalang nagulo? Gusto ko lang naman magtrabaho. Gusto ko lang mamuhay ng tahimik pero bakit biglang naging magulo ang buhay ko?"

Walang imik na dinadamdam ang sakit ng pagkawala ng natitira niyang magulang. Why does the world have to be unfair and cruel to them? She was born poor. She dreamed of having a good life but it wasn’t given to her. She found a man who saved her from the dirt, but he’s the kind of man she hates. She was robbed. She lost her father. If unfortunate would be given a name, it would be Anastacia.

Hindi ko maintindihan! At ano ang solusyon na naiisip niya? Ang magpakasal ako?! Iyon na lang ba ang halaga ko sa pamilya namin? Ang maging materyal para lumago at mabuhay ang kumpanyang mahal na mahal nila? This is bullshit! Nanginginig ako sa lamig, galit, at sakit... Hindi ko na alam kung ano pa ang uunahin. I am also suffering, Papa. Can't you see? I am suffering alone here! I am close to dying because I feel like I lose my purpose in this life!

Ayaw kong tapusin 'yon ng dahil sa mga masasamang nangyari. I don't fancy ending my life. This world is chock-full of failure, strifes, and defeats but this is also a paradise and utopia. I'm exhausted of everything and I don't aspire to unite more suicidal and lethal solicitudes to my mind and soul. I must fight because I knew I was in the cryptic part of my journey and I was sure that there was a light waiting for me at the edge and that light will explicate to me how good it is to live.

"I become a monster to all of you to save your life. And it's f*cking painful Misha. But I don't have any choice. I don't have any solution. Pinanindigan ko na isa akong demonyo. Destroying someone's life. My life is a mess... So I find people where I can play their lives to fix them but all of them just died because they can't take the pain but they didn't know. After that pain, everything will be alright. If Jetro just answered his phone. He'll know that his debt was already paid. And he doesn't need to do illegal jobs. But pinangunahan s'ya ng takot. And end up killing himself." "Ganther, son..." Hindi ako lumingon. I just keep looking nowhere. "B-bakit hindi mo sinabi sa'kin?" Dad asked.

malungkot na sagot ko sa kanya. "I respect your point of view in life, pero sa tingin ko ay hindi mo dapat gawing miserable ang buhay mo dahil lang sa iniwan ka ng taong mahalaga sayo.." sabi nya sakin. What the hell, ano bang alam nya? Sino ba sya para sabihin sakin ang bagay na to? Miserable?? Mukha ba akong miserable??