Picture Of Sadness From Inside Out の小説・ストーリー

Habol ni daddy, pero hindi na ako lumingon at deretsong umakyat. Nang makapasok sa kwarto ay roon ko binuhos ang mga luha ko. Humawak ako sa dibdib ko at napapa–upong sumandal sa pintuan ng kwarto ko. It hurts so much, it’s like my chest is being ripped apart, like a knife twisting deeper with every breath I take. The pain is suffocating, drowning me in an endless wave of anguish. Every heartbeat feels like a reminder of how shattered I am inside, and no matter what I do, I can’t escape it.

Tinitigan niya ang sarili sa malaking salamin sa loob ng bathroom habang naliligo siya at nakita niya roon ang pagbabago niya buhat noong mawala ang kanyang asawa. Wala na ang dating saya at sigla sa mukha niya. Tila walang buhay ang kanyang mga mata na hindi kakikitaan ng kislap ng kahit na anong emosyon. Iisa lang ang nakikitang emosyon sa kanya at iyon ay ang kalungkutan.

Nagsasaya ang mga tao pero walang kaalam-alam ang mga ito na tuakbo siya. Hindi naman ako magtatakas, giit ni Charlaine sa sarili. Habang tumatagal kasi ay mas lalo lang siyang naging emosyonal. Makita ang mga tao na masaya habang siya deep inside ay naguguluhan, nasasaktan, at still grieving for her future, hindi niya kakayanin iyon. Kaya mas maigi na lamang na umalis muna siya.

Nang makita ng mga ito kung sino sila ay napuno ng pagkatakot ang kanilang mga mukha. Si Mr. Lozano ay naalimpungatan at halos mamutla ng makita kung sino ang mga taong nasa loob ng silid ng mga oras na iyon. Napakasakit ng nararamdaman niya lalo na sa bahaging iyon ng katawan niya. Hindi niya lubos akalain na mangyayari ang nakakadiring pangyayaring ito sa buhay niya. Baka hanggang sa kanyang hukay ay dadalhin niya ang nangyaring ito.

Mula sa banyo, dumadaloy ang tunog ng tubig at doon lang umiikot ang isip niya. Bumabalik sa utak niya ang eksena kanina, hawak niya ito sa mga braso, namumula ang pisngi habang hinahalikan niya, at sa mga mata nito may bahagyang ulap ng kahihiyan at lambing. Isang init ang gumulong sa katawan niya. Pinisil niya ang sentido, parang may sakit sa ulo. Totoo nga, kapag binuksan ang “Pandora’s box” ng tao, mahirap na itong isara. Kahit siya, hindi exempted.

Zach immediately erased what was written on the white board so that no one would be reprimanded, Ethan immediately pulled Jacob out of the room. "See you later!" Sigaw ni Jacob ng tuluyan nang nahila ni Ethan si Jacob palabas ng classroom namin. But suddenly, Vince caught my eyes. All the excitement I felt was replaced by a strange feeling that I couldn't explain when I saw Vince in tears. His hands slid into the pocket of his pants. He just staring at me with his emotions pain. I could not understand but his eyes were as if they are wrapped in sorrow and pain. Am I the cause of all that sorrow and pain? Instead of tears of joy, I cried with sadness when I saw Vince like that. Why am I feel

Ngunit kahit ganoonpaman, hindi sumagi sa isip ko ang mag-resign at takbuhan ang trabaho o kamuhian s'ya dahil may kung ano sa puso ko na sumisigaw na gusto ko s'yang alagaan dahil alam ko na kaya lang n'ya nagagawa ang gano'ng bagay ay dahil lamang sa sakit n'ya. I can't explain but even I have fear in my heart I am still ready to help and take care of him without hesitation. Because I can't just watch him eaten away by his own disorder. Even he closes his eyes, I can still saw the pain and sadness drawn in his face. I promised to myseld that someday that loneliness will come to an end.

May naghahalikan sa loob. My whole body got cold when I saw it. My chest is tight, and tears flow from my eyes. An image and the recording that I received years ago played in my mind. Those pictures that broke me years ago I saw again in my mind again, and those voice recorders na ngayon ay paulit ulit ko nanamang naririnig sa isip ko. I don't want to think about that; I don't want to hear that again, but I can't help it.

Thinking of losing Yesha was unbearable, naninikip ang dibdib niya kapag naiisip na hindi na niya masisilayan ang mga ngiti ng babaeng nagbigay kulay sa kanyang mundo. “Aaaaahhhh!” muling sigaw niya, saka niya tinumba ang isang mamahaling vase na naabot ng kamay niya. He threw everything that his hands could grab on. Hindi niya alam kung kailan pumatak ang kanyang mga luha. Naramdaman na lang niyang basa na ang kanyang pisngi. Napa-lugmok siya sa kanyang kinatatayuan and he succumbed to his sorrow, a sob escaped his lips and it triggers his emotion. Humagulgol siya ng humagulgol sa kinalugmukan at patuloy na pinag-susuntok ang dingding na kinasa-sadlakan niya.

The kind that comes when someone promises to stay even when you’re shattered. I buried my face in his chest, feeling his heartbeat beneath my ear. It was steady, real, alive. I clung to him like he was my anchor in the middle of a storm that wouldn’t end. Outside the window, the sky was dimming into twilight. The soft orange glow of sunset poured into the room, touching the edges of our faces. It felt poetic—how the world was still beautiful even when I was breaking inside. The silence between us wasn’t empty anymore. It was full—full of understanding, of quiet love, of a shared sadness that didn’t need words.