Unintentionally Novels & Stories

Hindi kaya ng konsensiya ni Sheeva na sabihin sa bata na masama ang ugali ng Tatay nito. Napakurap si Sheeva at napuna ang nababaliw na kalabog ng kaniyang dibdib. Mainam na’t puso niya lang ang pumipintig, ibang usapan na kung pati ang pagkababae niya ay pumintig din. She heard a line from Unorazio before that when a woman's vagina pulsates because of a man, iyon na raw ang the one. Mapaniwalain pa man din siya sometimes kahit batid niyang wala namang matinong sinasabi ang siraulong Uno na iyon.

I know the probability of meeting him today is too small but I can't help but to overthink. Hinilot ko ang sintido ko. Tapos nalaman ko pang hindi ko pala kotse 'yon, talagang kotse ni Zillan 'yon at ako ang nagkamali. Freya and Zoey used my car since they don't have me and thought that I left already in a taxi. Nakakahiya, nakakahiya talaga! Ni hindi ko matignan ang sarili ko sa sobrang kahihiyan.

I unintentionally rolled my eyes at them. It took me a while to process of what did I just do. Marahas akong napapikit. Bakit ko ng ba ginawa iyon? If they like him, I shouldn’t care! Not at all. Pero ewan ko, bigla nalang kasi akong nakaramdam ng inis sa mga babaeng iyon.

I don't know if she intentionally does that but that's what happened during the drive. ….

Nagulat sila nang makita ako, habang ako ay nanatiling nakatitig sa kanila, hindi alam kung anong dapat na maging reaksyon sa halu-halong emosyon. I want to burst out in anger, disappointment, and pain because I feel so f*cking betrayed. I was left with a heavy silence that felt suffocsting and holding back the words I wanted to spit. I want to walk towards them, slap those two, and leave a mark on their faces—but I’m not the type to cause a scene in front of many people just to ruin my name. I may be impulsive sometimes but I still have dignity in myself. My sanity is too important to lose over a useless man.

hinawakan niya ang pisngi ng asawa, "wala kang kasalanan, okay? Nagkamali ka lang na nagtiwala ka, pero wala kang kasalanan." "Paanong wala? hindi ako nakinig sa inyo ng mommy, pinag isipan pa namin kayo ng masama." "Okay lang yun, wag mong masyadong intindihin. Nagkamali ka lang, pero unintentional naman kasi yun. Nagtiwala ka lang, yun lang yun. Pareho lang kayo ng naging actions ni Daddy, pero hindi niyo yan sinasadya." Bumaba siya ng kotse at pumunta sa drivers side," let me drive."

"Stop playing, Braden. Alam mo bang ang laki na ng pinsalang dinulot mo sa buhay ko. Tama na, please..." "Hindi kita pinaglalaruan. Hindi kitang gustong saktan. Sorry if I did it unintentionally. Sorry." The concern was distinct to his voice, but I should be aware that people who made mistake to you, intently or not are still painful to the sufferer like me. Kahit na sabihin hindi niya intensyon na manakit pero ang sakit na dulot nito ay walang pinag-iba. Nakakasakit pa rin.

There's a slight chance na hindi, but I'm betting my all to the higher chance na oo. "Okay, I get it. I'm sorry. It's just one time. Hindi na rin naman mauulit, 'di ba? So, can we just forget it?" pagmamakaawa ko sa kan'ya. "No—," "So, what if we fucked?" Napasinghap siya at mas lalong dumilim ang tingin sa akin pero nagpatuloy ako. "It's just one... or three, or maybe more. I don't know, I lose count how many rounds we did. But overall, it's casual. I went to you 'coz I thought you were sport with this kind of arrangement. You had your release and I had mine. Can we just forget about it? How hard is that? Isang gabi lang naman 'yon. No big deal, right?"

Thank you for answering! Gosh, someone's so grumpy right now because of that! I couldn't reply. I just don't know what to say. I'm not dense and I know what she's talking about. Pero ewan ko ba, I keep on ignoring the thought. Minsan lang ako active sa F******k. Wala akong magawa ngayon kasi wala namang assignments or anything tapos hindi pa ako inaantok kasi ang haba ng supposedly ay 'nap' ko lang, kaya hindi ko namalayang magmi-midnight na and I'm still on F******k. I wouldn't know if it weren't for Sir Troy's chat.

Ito ay isang pagkakamali na kailangang kalimutan. Dahan-dahan akong binuksan ang pinto at marahang lumabas. Walang ingay, walang bakas na iniwan. Tanging ang poot at panghihinayang ang dala-dala ko habang mabilis akong naglakad palayo.