When Life Sucks Mga Nobela at Kwento

ay naipit ako sa mga kasinungalingan. I'm stucked on their lies, i was caught by their deceiving eyes and voices. I don't know what to do, hindi ko na alam kung anong gagawin ko dahil sa mga nangyari. Hindi ko na alam kung anong sasabihin ko, kung anong mararamdaman ko. M-magagalit ba ako? Malulungkot? M-maiinis? "My life is just a fucking lie." Wala na sa sarili kong saad.

“Oh, crap!” ISANG BUWANG MAHIGIT ang matuling lumipas at kahit paano ay unti-unti na ring nakakabangon si Riko. Mahirap dahil walang araw at gabi na hindi niya namimiss si Alvaro pero wala naman siyang ibang choice. Kailangan niyang ituloy ang buhay niya na wala ang lalaki. May mga gabi pa rin na tahimik siyang umiiyak pero ganoon talaga. Hindi lahat ng gusto natin ay nakukuha natin. That’s life tho.

“You’re right. I can’t suffer alone. When those jerks are out there enjoying their wonderful lives. Let’s drag them with us, Mia. Let them taste how sweet despair is.” “T-Those jerks? Who?”

Pero kahit anong gawin ko hindi ko kayang kalimutan. I live my life alone. Without anyone that I can cry on. Without someone comforting me. No thing at all. Just living with my own sadness. (TO BE CONTINUED...)

Sumusuko na ako. Ayaw ko na. Even the strongest person fall. …and this is my downfall. I’m so sick and tired of this life. I’m so sick and tired of living this life in pain and sufferings.

Napayuko na lamang siya at muling bumuhos ang kanyang mga luha ngunit sa pagkakataong iyon hindi niya iyon hinayaang mahulog sa sahig, sa pagkakataong iyon ang panyong hawak niya ang sumalo sa pait at pighati na kanyang naramdaman. He’s right. My life sucks.

It's really tiring to do the same thing every day. It was like a life of a bird, flying everyday to search for a food to eat. It would grow and want to gain more, so the bird tried to fly a little more further. But little did he know... it is the end of his journey. Because his life is already planned. He's not free. He is caged for a very long time, that's why when he tried to fly more than he should, he was shot dead by the man who caged him.

Kumpleto ako ng vitamins, ni hindi ako nagpapaliban ng check ups ko kahit mag-isa lang ako. Gusto ko na lang mawala. It was too difficult to live that even breathing felt so exhausting. I went home still tired. How come one day everything you wished to happen were suddenly gone in an instant? He was supposed to live. He was supposed to celebrate birthdays and have a girlfriend, or wife and a child or children, and live happily without regrets. Why did this happen? Why is everything so unfair?! How come people say that the world is still beautiful to live in when it's so already fucked up as this?

"I become a monster to all of you to save your life. And it's f*cking painful Misha. But I don't have any choice. I don't have any solution. Pinanindigan ko na isa akong demonyo. Destroying someone's life. My life is a mess... So I find people where I can play their lives to fix them but all of them just died because they can't take the pain but they didn't know. After that pain, everything will be alright. If Jetro just answered his phone. He'll know that his debt was already paid. And he doesn't need to do illegal jobs. But pinangunahan s'ya ng takot. And end up killing himself." "Ganther, son..." Hindi ako lumingon. I just keep looking nowhere. "B-bakit hindi mo sinabi sa'kin?" Dad asked.

"I was just asking." Si Deewee ay pilit na ngumiti. "Depende sa tao kung papaano nila titingnan ang buhay, Gene. Para sa akin, hindi naman alak ang nagpapasaya sa buhay ng tao. So... no. My life isn't boring. It is healthy and fun, because I know I'll live a long life."