روايات وقصص ضمن When Life Sucks

Napailing na lang ako. My life just became a cliché W*****d story. And I’m pretty sure the ending is going to be a disaster.

Napayuko na lamang siya at muling bumuhos ang kanyang mga luha ngunit sa pagkakataong iyon hindi niya iyon hinayaang mahulog sa sahig, sa pagkakataong iyon ang panyong hawak niya ang sumalo sa pait at pighati na kanyang naramdaman. He’s right. My life sucks.

It's really tiring to do the same thing every day. It was like a life of a bird, flying everyday to search for a food to eat. It would grow and want to gain more, so the bird tried to fly a little more further. But little did he know... it is the end of his journey. Because his life is already planned. He's not free. He is caged for a very long time, that's why when he tried to fly more than he should, he was shot dead by the man who caged him.

Kumpleto ako ng vitamins, ni hindi ako nagpapaliban ng check ups ko kahit mag-isa lang ako. Gusto ko na lang mawala. It was too difficult to live that even breathing felt so exhausting. I went home still tired. How come one day everything you wished to happen were suddenly gone in an instant? He was supposed to live. He was supposed to celebrate birthdays and have a girlfriend, or wife and a child or children, and live happily without regrets. Why did this happen? Why is everything so unfair?! How come people say that the world is still beautiful to live in when it's so already fucked up as this?

o mas tamang sabihin ay gusto pa niyang mabuhay. Sa ilang taon niyang buhay ay halos purong sakit at hinagpis lamang ang naranasan niya. She want to experience the positivity of life but how can she do that? Ni hindi na nga niya halos maigalaw ang katawan dahil sa mga natamo. She's tired, exhausted, depressed, and alone. How can she find light when she already drowning in darkness?

"I become a monster to all of you to save your life. And it's f*cking painful Misha. But I don't have any choice. I don't have any solution. Pinanindigan ko na isa akong demonyo. Destroying someone's life. My life is a mess... So I find people where I can play their lives to fix them but all of them just died because they can't take the pain but they didn't know. After that pain, everything will be alright. If Jetro just answered his phone. He'll know that his debt was already paid. And he doesn't need to do illegal jobs. But pinangunahan s'ya ng takot. And end up killing himself." "Ganther, son..." Hindi ako lumingon. I just keep looking nowhere. "B-bakit hindi mo sinabi sa'kin?" Dad asked.

I'm just a guy who does whatever he wants with his life. • to be continued •

Sana kapag dumating ang araw na iyon ay gugustuhin ko pang makibahahagi sa kanilang buhay. Sinubukan kong buksan muli ang page ko sa F******k kung saan ako nagpapa-order ng mga cake at iba't ibang klase ng pastries ngunit laking gulat ko ng hindi ko na makita ang page ko na pinaghirapan ko din ng ilang taon upang makahakot ng madaming followers at likes. Para na yata akong mababaliw sa frustrations at hindi ko na alam kung ano ba ang dapat kong gawin. Why does everything fucks up?

"I was just asking." Si Deewee ay pilit na ngumiti. "Depende sa tao kung papaano nila titingnan ang buhay, Gene. Para sa akin, hindi naman alak ang nagpapasaya sa buhay ng tao. So... no. My life isn't boring. It is healthy and fun, because I know I'll live a long life."

Naririnig ko ang mga halakhak nila. Ilang beses kong sinubukanag kitilin ang buhay ko pero hindi ako nagtatagumpay. I don't want to live this miserable life anymore. I hate that I was born. I hated myself, I hated my body, I hated my face. I hate everything about me. I want to end this fucking life.