When Life Sucks Novels & Stories

it's miserable as fuck. My life literally sucks. Can I just end up everything ng walang masasaktan? How I wish na ganoon kadali mangyari 'yon. It's imposible. This is reality, at sa realidad ng buhay... lahat mahirap. Mahirap abutin ang mga bagay na pinaka aasam ng puso mo. It's too depressing.

Balak sana ni Pamelle na umuwi nang maaga para tapusin ang design drawings ng kanyang store, ngunit ang panggugulo ng kaniyang ama ay nag-iwan sa kanya ng matinding stress kaya hindi siya makapag-focus. Napuno ang bathtub ng tubig at nilubog niya ang kanyang sarili. Hinayaan niyang lumampas ang tubig sa kanyang ulo, nagpupumiglas sa paghinga. Minsan, naiisip niya kung ano pa ba ang worth clinging to sa buhay na ito. Ang buhay ay tila unbearable, puno ng kabiguan at hirap. Miss na miss na niya ang kanyang ina... Mapapalaya ba siya ng ganitong paglubog mula sa sakit?

Sana ay hindi nalang ako nagpunta sa ospital nang hindi ko maramdaman ang ganito katinding takot at lungkot. Life has never been fair. Life is awful. Life is disgusting. Life is cruel. Pahihirapan ka muna bago mo makita ang tunay na kagandahan nito. How ironic that you have to experience the ugly side of life before you realize the beauty of it.

"Can't you just be thankful that you are alive right now?" Natigilan ako't napailing. I looked at him, in pain, in anger. "You think I am happy that you saved me? Because of you, I am living in hell now. Because of you, I am living miserably now. I should have just died that day, that way I won't have to struggle to live in this fucking cruel world." **

Panimula ko at mabilis na tumingin sa paligid. "What will life be like? what could i possibly become. It's a large world, short life and i'm just one of billions. I could make millions but that's something i cant promise In fact let's be honest chances are if you're nice and modest." Tahimik pa rin sila habang nakikinig medyo nawala na rin gaano ang kaba ko. "You'll be walked on and trampled into the ground when your knocked down you'll stay down and never noticed or found

Pero ng hihilain ko pa lang ang naleta ay narinig ko ang nakakatakot na banta ng binata. “Wag mo ng subukang layasan ako dahil kusa kang makakaalis sa puder ko pagkatapos ng ipapakita ko,” malamig na wika ng lalaki habang nakatalikod pa rin. “Fuck this life, why does it have to hurt so much like this?” inis na bulong ko habang nakatingin sa krus na nakadikit sa wall ng condo. Is this karma? A parusa? Or does it have purpose?

Sumusuko na ako. Ayaw ko na. Even the strongest person fall. …and this is my downfall. I’m so sick and tired of this life. I’m so sick and tired of living this life in pain and sufferings.

Sabi niya sabay inject. They say 'Life is so unfair but the truth is, it's the society itself whose unfair'. I feel numb. I feel betrayed. I feel dumbfounded. I felt hurt. I felt disappointed. All my happy thoughts gives me the saddest result. Well I guess I should start accepting things... Starting... Tomorrow.

I saw her watching the player number 6, Eleazar. Ano kayang pakiramdam na sobrang laya mo sa lahat? Yung tipong walang kahit anong komplikasyon ang mahalagay ay nabubuhay ka at ang hinihintay mo na lang ay ang buhay mo sa future. Sometimes I envy some people because I know I can't have their life. I couldn't be like them. I will forever be chains in my darkness. And the truth is just so hard to accept. I am sick. Very sick and the worst is...I'm dying.