Didn't We Almost Have It All 소설 & 이야기

Ano pa kaya ang ginagawa niya, na kung sino-sino na lang ang babae na inuuwi niya at sa hindi pa niya kuwarto gumagawa ng milagro. Hindi kami naghawak ng kamay. Sabi ko practice pa lang naman 'to. Sinubukan namin, kaso sabay kaming napabitiw sa isa't isa. Hindi ko maintindihan pero para bang na-ground kami. Siguro to the highest level ang pandidiri namin sa isa't isa. Matapos ang practice, nagkaayan silang mag-inuman. Hindi na ako sumali sa kanila dahil naiinis talaga ako. Yamot na yamot ako sa kaniya. Sana nandito si Lance. Ang saya-saya ko pa sana.

We were all afraid of what might happen, given Keisha's fragile emotional state. In the end, there's no one to blame. We were all caught in a web of circumstances, grappling with our own fears and uncertainties. Keisha's heart was fragile, and the weight of her emotions threatened to consume her. It's a delicate balance—one that leaves us feeling helpless and disappointed, yet bound by a shared sense of love and concern for one another.

I'm sure about that. Pagdating ng tanghalian ay wala akong ibang inisip kung hindi ang magplano nalang. Naiinis ako dahil kahit hanggang ngayon ay hindi nila mahanap si Neon at kahit ang makalapit malapit sa lupa niya ay nahihirapan sila. “Just do everything. Hindi puwedeng papalpak ngayong araw. Gusto kong may goodnews ngayong araw na 'to.” Seryusong sabi ko sa kanila na sinunod naman nila.

To check if I was still alive and fine. So, is this really the end of us? Muli kong inalala ang lahat-lahat ng nangyari sa 'min. Magmula ng nabunggo niya ko hanggang sa gabing 'yon kung saan ay tinapos na niya ang lahat sa 'min. With that, I have finally got an answer. No. It's definitely a no. Because I won't allow it to end just like that. Just like this. I know that we still have the chance.

Dito niya ibinuhos ang buong panahon at oras niya. “I’m sorry,” iyun na lang ang nasabi ni Athena, kahit na minsan niyang inisip na patayin ang bata ay ayaw niya ng isipin pa yun ngayon. “Naiintindihan ko, nakakahinayang lang ang ilang taon na nagkasama tayong dalawa. We almost there pero nasira lang ang lahat sa isang iglap. Siguro kung natuloy ang kasal natin noon baka may sarili na tayong pamilya.” Naisip din naman yun ni Athena pero naguguluhan na siya ngayon dahil hindi niya naman na pinagsisisihan na dumating sa kaniya si Nathan.

Almost in everything He texted me almost enough. He came close to touching me sufficiently. He was nearly fond of me. All of those almosts, however, never amounted up to something substantial. They never progressed into a formal partnership. I'm looking forward to the future I've imagined with him. The realization that we had been on two different pages all along hurt the most. That I misinterpreted everything he said and did when he was in my presence. I used to believe he understood me, that he cherished our late-night conversations and early-morning coffees equally. All of the flirtation, playful shoves, and cheek kisses used to make me think they meant something.

"Can we?" His smoldering eyes gazed at me. His smile was so warm that I couldn't believe we reached this part where we will be this intimate. Daig pa namin ang aso't pusa kung mag-talo. We trash talk every single opportunity we can pero tuwing tahimik na ang lahat, we enjoyed the tranquility of our breathing and heart beats. He said we are not there yet, if not, then, what do people call this? Hindi ko din alam. Isa lang ang malinaw sa amin, we want to stay this way.

Siguro nga'y naninibago pa kami sa mga nalaman. I could feel my eyes swollen. Hindi ako makapagsalita at nakikinig lamang sa kuwento niya. Ang bigat-bigat sa pakiramdam. Nalaman nga namin ang totoo, hindi naman kami nagkaroon nang pagkakataon na magkasama-sama kahit saglit. "And now we don't have any idea how to find Mommy. We only have her diary but I couldn't finish reading it. I was mad at her. She destroyed us..." her voice cracked.

His jaw is a little bit clenched and I know how hard he was trying to restrain himself from looking at me. I looked at Elijah who just continues eating his food. Now, I'm stucked with this. Alam kong nasabi ko noon kay Elijah na hindi kami magtatagal rito sa Pilipinas. Hindi ko rin naman kasi inaasahan na magkaka-ayos kami ni Rex. I thought we will never fix our past anymore. Also, at that time, I never really imagined that we will be okay. "Do you want to go back there, baby?" I slowly asked.

Kakarating ko lang at kakapasok ng office na pasipol sipol pa. “Obvious ba?” nakangiti kong tanong kasabay ang paglapag ng aking cellphone sa ibabaw ng aking lamesa. Walang pagsidlan ang aking kaligayahan dahil hinayaan na kami ni Mommy sa gusto namin ni Arnie na magsama na. Nangako naman kami na wala munang mangyayari sa ammin hangga’t hindi pa kami nakakasal.