His Loss Novels & Stories

Masyado nang marami ang nawala sa akin at kahit isa ay wala pang nagbabayad. I cleared my throat and muttered some curses. “I lost already! I lost my stillborn children two times! I lost my left hand! I lost everything I thought I had as I keep on fighting them! Pero kahit isa ay wala pang nagbabayad! Dapat ba ay itigil ko na to at wag na lang gumanti?! Eh sa nangyayari ngayon, only a memory loss can fucking save me! Not you, not Lucien, not even myself, for fuck’s sake!” I blurted out and sobbed so hard I could hardly breathe.

Louesi interjected. Nathan felt like the world just crumbled down his shoulder as he could feel how heavy it was. He has never faced a battle that needed not just his mind but also his strength, but for the first time, he was in his greatest problem–that he would lose everything he has–his life–if he didn’t win. When he thought that everything would go smoothly for the both of them and that he would have her again as long as he assured her and he would show his efforts, nothing would go wrong, but he was wrong.

I can say that even I can do better than that, smoother than a butter. Muli kong tinignan yung Larry... Garry? ...ewan. Inabutan ko ang tingin nito sa malayo ngunit hindi pa rin umaalis sa harap ko. Maya-maya ay lumingon itong muli at saka bumulong ng mahinang 'sorry'. Di ko naman inasahan na makakaramdam ako ng awa sa lalaking to. Halata naman sa kanya na hindi siya sanay sa pakikipag fling kaya ganon ka-awkward ang banat niya.

Mas lalo pang tumitindi ang guilt niya sa pagdaan ng mga araw. Hindi niya kayang makita ang kakambal na maraming nakakabit na kung ano-ano sa katawan nito. Maputla at animo walang bubay na nakahiga. Hindi niya kayang makita na nahihirapan ito. Tama na ang isang beses na nakita niya ito sa ganoong ayos noon sa America. And he can't bear the thought of losing him.

Another siren screamed nearby. Closer. Adrian’s hand gripped my wrist weakly. Then finally— I saw it clearly. The gunshot wound near his side. Deep. Too deep. Panic crashed into me violently. And for the first time since this nightmare began— I truly understood what it meant to lose him. Adrian pressed his forehead briefly against mine beneath the freezing rain. And when he spoke— his voice sounded terrifyingly weak. “Stella…” My heart shattered instantly. Because the way he said my name sounded almost like goodbye.

She just gave me a nod at nagbaling muli ng tingin kay Veronica na nangingiwi habang nilalapatan ng lunas ang sugat sa noo. “Ii shiai datta ne, Oyabun. Nani ga atta ka wakannai kedo, shiai mite nakatta n da yo ne, (It was a good match, Boss. I don’t know what happened; I wasn’t watching the fight,)” mahinang sagot habang nilalakad ko ang palabas ng ER. “Our friends are not happy with the result, and so am I. Losing that huge amount of money to a useless fight is so frustrating. You disappointed me for the second time, Shateigashira.” Yasou sounded calm, yet there was no mistaking the fury beneath his measured tone.

Halo halong emosyon na itinago at isinantabi ko. "Cry it out! It's okay not to be okay, my dear best friend. Don't lose yourself. The moment that happens, you'll gonna lose your battle." Yumakap ako pabalik. "Just like that. Loosen up sometimes.. Don't be afraid to show your vulnerability—Ako lang to, Renze.." "I can't lose her, Lora. I can't. I love her so much. I'm gonna die if I lose her.." Panay ang haplos niya sakin. Nagdudulot iyon ng kaginhawaan.

"shh. Hinanap kita pero nahirapan ako. Di ako sumuko kahit nawawalan na ako ng pag asa. My worst fear is losing you. My weakness was chocolate but now it's you. My heart cannot find rest while you are gone... Missing you makes me crazy...missing you feels like I'm in a burning hell. It hurts so terribly, thinking about how I lost you."I said. Ngumiti siya. Saka hinalikan ako sa noo, ilong at labi. "I love you! Hindi na ako mawawala ulit!"aniya. Tumango ako. At naging ayos na ang lahat. Kyros killed Spencer during the war.

She holds a big part of me at dahil sa pagkawala niya, magdudulot ito ng butas na tanging siya lang ang makakapuna. Pain really is about losing someone you love who holds a big part of you, who helped you throughout your life to grow into what you are now and then one day with an unexpected time you will lose them unarmed. One day you will no longer be able to see their faces again, their genuine smiles and just them in total. And this kind of pain, by losing them will hunt you forever, reminding you always on how easy it is to get hurt. Today is Monday. Wala akong ganang pumasok dahil wala na naman akong rason para pumasok doon dahil hindi papasok sina Leigh, Eun-ji, Yuna at... wala na si I

Pagkatapos ng nangyayari nitong mga nakaraang araw. Noong isang araw masaya pa ako pero ngayon nagkagulo na naman. Hindi ko aakalaing o hindi ko inaasahan ang pagpapakita ni Sheehan and his deal... Ako talaga gagawin niyang masama sa pananakit sa kaniya. But it's fine. Ako naman ang umalis. Ako ang nawala. Ako na lang magiging masama. For the sake of the annulment.