I Am Not Okay With This Novels & Stories

No… @IamNobody

Walang ibang karapat dapat kundi ako lang. Mayroon na akong masamang pakiramdam pero hindi ko na ito pinagtagal sa kalooban ko. Wala rin itong matutulong sa status quo. What I need right now is to have a plan as soon as they take off this bag around my neck. Actually, nagulat nga ako na nakakahinga pa ako despite being like this for too long. This dark bag is pretty breathable. I'd say I'm actually impressed.

Now, I am a bit piss off. Written by DBardz

Gusto kong bumalik sa nakaraan pero parang mas gusto kong bumilis ang inog ng mundo para malagpasan ko na ang pagsubok na ito, para malaman ko ang rason kung bakit nararanasan ko ito ngayon. But we can't please everyone. We can't force anyone to stay with us. And we can't change the past too. Kung ano man ang nangyayari ngayon ay tanggapin na lang natin at buong tapang na harapin. "Basa na kayo oh..." "At least ayos lang naman kami, eh ikaw?" Malungkot naman akong ngumiti. "I'm not okay." Lumambot naman ang hitsura nila at nag-unahan pa na tumabi sa akin.

Me: Sorry

Self, stress ka lang kaya siguro mali-mali yang nararamdaman mo. Baka bukas, pag ok ka na tatama din yan. Susmiyo, ano ba yan, hindi nagkakatugma ang lahat. I find myself unwilling to accept or acknowledge them. It's as if a part of me resists the idea that there could be underlying reasons beyond what I initially perceive, and I am hesitant to entertain those possibilities. I am caught in a struggle between what I know logically and what I am willing to accept emotionally, and this conflict leaves me grappling with a sense of denial. It's as if I am hesitant to confront the complexity of my emotions and the multifaceted nature of my feelings, choosing instead to cling to a simpler, albeit p

"If you are just going to preach me, please don't. I don't need that right now. Ginawa ko lang kung ano ang sa tingin kong tama kong gawin." "I just want to ask you if you're okay." "Is there a reason why I can't be okay?" Humugot ako ng hangin at marahan iyong ibinuga. "You think I won't be okay because of them?" "I just—" "I'm fine. Actually lumuwag ang pakiramdam ko dahil nasabi ko ang mga gusto kong sabihin sa kanila. We're even. Don't worry too much. I'm fine," sabi ko na sumakay na sa sasakyan ba naghihintay sa amin.

If I can't fire him, then I'll make left becaue I really am not liking this feelings. Ba't ako titigasan sa taong matitigasan din? THIS IS SO FUCKING WHAT THE FUCK!

Dinig ko ang pagbuntonghininga niya. "This... this is fucking bullshit. I can't with you. Really. Ina? Mas pipiliin mo na maging tahimik kung kailan mas kailangan ka na magsalita? All I want is to know what are you being like this. Si Amari hindi rin gaanong makapagsaya roon sa loob dahil nagkakaganito ka. Ina, it's your fucking birthday pero bakit... "

Yung tawa niyang parang malaya, parang magaan. At doon, parang may humiwa sa loob ko. Kung gaano kadali para kay Liam ang magpasaya sa kanya… ganoon kahirap para sa akin. Hindi ko alam kung dapat ba akong lumapit. Dapat ba akong mag-walk out. Or dapat ba akong magpanggap na okay lang sa akin ang lahat. Pero isang bagay ang sigurado: hindi ako okay.