I Can't Take It Anymore Mga Nobela at Kwento

Pagkatapos muli itong tumingin sa akin. "I love you so damn much but I'm so tired defending you. I'm so sorry but I can't do this anymore. Let's end this." ___________________________________

Naiinis na ako. "This fvckin' child is yours!" "This fvckin' child is yours!" "This fvckin' child is yours!" "Ahhhhh! Please! Please! Stop it!" Sigaw ko sa sarili ko. Habang hawak ko ang sentido ko. Umiiyak na naman ako. Ang sakit sakit na ng nararamdaman ko! How do I undo everything? Every time na mag-isa nalang ako. Lagi kong nararamdaman ito, para akong mababaliw. Sobrang nasasaktan na ako.

Sinabayan ko siya. And I can't fight this feeling anymore. I've forgotten what I started fighting for. It's time to bring this ship into the shore, And throw away the oars, forever. Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore. I've forgotten what I started fighting for. And if I have to crawl upon the floor, Come crushing through your door, Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.

And I don't want that to happen. ***

I can't get my phone, sobrang nilalamig ako at nahihilo pa. "T-Ty." Ty, I need you. I can't call mom, nasa trabaho pa 'yon sa ganitong oras. Wala man lang akong magawa, dahil hindi kaya ng aking katawan. Gusto kong kumuha ng gamot na maiinom ngunit hindi ko kinaya. Mayamaya'y nakaramdam ako ng pagbigat ng aking mga talukap, imbes na labanan. Ipinikit ko nalang ang aking mga mata hanggang sa tuluyan na akong sakupin ng kadiliman.

Noon sabi ko kaya ko to, pero ang sakit pa din pala kapag nangyari na. Oh God help me stop the pain. I couldn't take it anymore. It's too much for me, ngayon ko lang ito sasabihin sa 'yo pero hindi ko na kaya. Palagi kong kinakaya ang lahat pero hindi ko na ito kaya. This is too much for me. I lost everyone and I don't want to lose myself. Please I'm begging...please stop the pain. I want to scream. I want to cry. I want to tell the world that the famous Ezra Monique is a loser. I want to release all these pain that I am feeling right now. I feel like I am exploding inside. I feel like am tearing apart.

If only it wasn't for my son's death, I won't choose to stay alive. I pushed my body backwards making my back crash against the soft matress. Isang malalim na hininga ang hinugot at pinakawalan ko. I closed my eyes as I tried calming myself. The irritation is no longer tolerable that I know, any second, a tear might fall from my eyes again. Nakaka pagod nang umiyak ng umiyak.

Paano kung magkasakit na naman ako dahil sa marahas niyang pakikipagsiping? Damn, I can't handle being lacerated again!

At napakalaki ng naging kasalanan ko kay James kaya nagkaletse-letse ang buhay ko! Pakiramdam ko wala na akong nagawang tama! Paano ko pa ipagpapatuloy ang buhay ko kung puro kapalpakan lang ang nagagawa ko! I’m so tired! Hindi ko na kaya! I couldn't take any of my sufferings. Napapagod na akong umiyak. Napapagod na akong masaktan ng mundo. Napapagod na ako sa buhay ko!