Novel & Cerita I Messed Up Meaning

“Oo. Eksakto. Isang pagkakamali. Isang tanga at impulsive na sandali. Pero ang meron tayo ay totoo, Ingrid.” Ngumiti ako, pero hindi umabot sa mga mata ko. “Alam mo ba ang isa pang impulsive, Dennis?” “Ano?” tanong niya, sabik. “Nagkamali rin ako nung gabing iyon.” “Huh? Anong pagkakamali? Eh, okay lang. Anuman iyon, pinatawad na kita.” “Totoo ba? Kahit nakipagtalik ako sa isang estranghero?”

Inis na inis na nga siya dahil sa mga empleyado ng mall na ito at ngayon ay binangga pa siya. Napahawak siya sa sintido at tumingin sa taas habang natatawa ng pagak. Frustrated na frustrated na siya sa mga nangyayaring kamalasan sa araw niya ngayon kaya konting pagkakamali lang ay ginagawa na niyang big deal. "Why don't you---" "I'm so sorry Mr., I was in a hurry that's why I didn't saw you,"

"Ang usapan natin ay natapos na kagabi sa opisina mo. I told you... it was a mistake. Isang pagkakamali na dulot ng pagod at emosyon. Ang nakikita mo ngayon... ito ang totoo. Ito ang Stefanie na kailangang humarap sa mga pating sa labas. At kung iniisip mong magagamit mo ang 'mistake' na iyon para makuha ang loob ko... nagkakamali ka." "Mistake? Stef... we were both there. Ramdam ko ang panginginig mo... ramdam ko kung paano ka lumapit sa akin. You can't just label it as a corporate error and expect me to move on," giit niya... tumayo siya at lumapit sa pwesto ko.

"We're going to lost billions if this freakingly will go down the drain! I freakingly told you to stay focus on this project?! Are you freakingly that dumb to let this things happened?! Didn't I told you to settle this right? The freaking freak!" O freakingly geez! I intently closed my eyes as I heaved a deep sigh while massaging the bridge of my pointed nose. "I'm sorry Miss Dashelle. I'll fix this-" "I'm sorry?! Are you nuts? Does your sorry will gonna fix these damn whole things? How and what the freaking freak you're going to do to fix this mess? What if Groupon Con will will freakingly release a statement before you could find their change?" I groaned in anger

"A mistake need a solution, not another mistake. I am sorry Ej, but I am really disappointed on you, I thought you are mature enough.." "Well, you are not. It explains why your first relationship fails."

But I fucked up. Naglasing ako para panandaliang makalimutan 'yong sakit na nararamdaman ko. Para magkaroon ako ng lakas ng loob na harapin siya. Na kausapin siya. Pero sa ginawa kong yun, I made a mess.

Napapikit na lamang ako ng mata at napasabunot sa sarili kong buhok. "Shit. I fucked up," I mumbled.

“Lucinda, a mistake is still a mistake. It can never be undone. She brought shame to our family, and it will be remembered by all!” “But—” Hindi nagawang maituloy ni Lucinda ang kanyang sasabihin nang hawakan ni Maeve ang kanyang kamay at saka binigyan ng pag-iling. “That’s all there is to it, Mommy. Daddy is correct; I messed up and am now a disgrace in our family.” “No, no. Mabi, you—” “Mommy…”

Naguluhan ako dahil sa sinabi niya, pero hindi na 'ko nag-abalang magtanong dahil baka masaktan ko lang ang damdamin niya. "But they helped the wrong person..." Ano'ng ibig niyang sabihin? But then his words made me recall something. I suddenly realized what the letter I received last week was trying to say. Helping Louie was a mistake. Is that the reason all these misfortunes keep following me?

At ang paninigas ng puso ko na animo'y naging bato at hindi na tumitibok. Now, how can I not be hard to myself when I was a d*mn failure? How can I not be hard to myself when I messed up everytime I soften for something or... Someone? "I'm fine now, Kuya. Let's not talk about this anymore." I said as I hang up.