Quotes On Hiding Pain の小説・ストーリー

about to end everything. "How to ease this pain? How to dry these tears? How to be brave without thinking anything? How can I get these words that sucking me alive out of my mid?" How can I escape from this? How can I escape from this cruel reality? I'm so tired trying. I'm so tired enduring this pain. I'm so tired hiding from my shell. I'm just so tired about everything. I'm tied up. I don't think I can escape again. I don't think I can go through this. I'm no longer willing to try.

I asked and I can't hide the pain, nanginginig ang tinig ko at para bang iiyak ako anytime. "That night, honestly yes. Hindi kita makilala and I don't know why you hide it from me. Bakit hindi ka nag paalam ng maayos?" I close my eyes and took a deeo breath. "Kasi alam ko na hindi mo ako papayagan-"

A facade that you have been wearing Guess you forgot why you're hurting You just smile through the pain But you're having a hard time to keep yourself sane Why do we have to suffer? But we have to keep it hidden Why do we feel pain? When we have to suppress it deep within Does it make any sense? That life keep having suspense Does it keep you living? To exceed what they are expecting

He becomes distant, na kahit abot tanaw ko siya he becomes unreachable. Tanging si ate lang ang kinakausap niya 'pag nasa bahay kami habang ako ay para na lamang hangin. He never saw me again, I became invisible, as if I had never existed. Just my sister. Sobra akong nasaktan noon, at dumoble pa iyon ng mawala si mama na nagiisang kakampi ko rito sa mundo. Pero kahit ganoon hindi ko kailanman pinakita sa kanila na apektado ko. I mastered it. To be okay even if I'm not. Ang ngumiti kahit ang totoo gusto ko nang umiyak. Ang itago ang sakit kahit ang totoo, gusto ko na lang hilingin na mawala so the pain will stop.

Nangangayayat na rin ako dahil nagkakasya na sa akin ang mga damit na hindi ko na na isusuot. Nalulunod ako sa sobrang lungot. Inaanod ako patungo sa mas masakit na parte ng buhay ko and I don't know can I wash away the pain I felt. I don't know if I can survive this trial I had. Should I’ll let this pain eat me? Should I give up? Should I give him up? ***

Hindi ako nakasagot, ngunit nararamdaman kong may binubuksan siyang pinto sa pagitan naming dalawa. “It means you’re stronger than you think,” dagdag niya. “Pain is a teacher. Embrace it, learn from it. That’s how you’ll get better.” Napakapit ako nang mahigpit sa aking mga kamay, ramdam ang bigat ng kanyang mga salita. Naroon ang kakaibang tibay na dulot ng kanyang pag-asa sa akin. Nagsimula akong huminga nang mas maayos, pilit na pinapawi ang sakit sa katawan ko.

she form her hand like a telephone and put it in front of her ear. "I'm really okay," I smiled weakly still trying my best to hide the pain. She nodded, there's sometimes that stopping her because she stare at me. I pushed her away because she doesn't move looks like she want to stay beside me. I'm not used at it, I mean... I want to be alone because I want to talk to myself. Hindi ako baliw, sometimes talking to yourself is the best way to heal the pain. Kahit saglit lang... it's fine.

Napabuntong-hininga ako, saka tumingin sa kanya nang diretso. “Then we stop being one,” sabi ko, matatag, hindi na nanginginig ang boses ko, “you said it yourself… I’m not in the dark anymore, so don’t treat me like I am.” Bahagya siyang natahimik, parang sinusukat ang sinasabi ko. “I’m not,” sagot niya sa huli, “but understanding something… and being part of it… are two different things.” “Then let me be part of it,” sagot ko agad, walang pag-aalinlangan, “because hiding didn’t work, running didn’t work, and pretending I don’t need to know didn’t work either.”

Tsk hindi nanaman niya ako pinatapos! "Yes, I really don't know. Kasi you always hide your emotions. You always keep the pain! Kahit manlang pinagtanggol mo yung sarili mo, sinampal mo man yung hayop na lalaking yun!" galit na galit niyang sinasabi sa'kin. Nakatingin ako kung saan dahil ayokong magtagpo ang mga mata namin, hindi ko rin alam kung bakit ko ba iniiwasan ang mga mata niya.

When I have face hell at dahil sa impyernong iyon ay kusang inapuyan ako ng galit at kagustuhan gumanti? At sa totoo lang hindi na ako matahimik na basta na lamang ako lumayo sapagkat hindi iyon gano'n kadali. I just can't do that, I can't hide the pain And I can't hide knowing na madami silang nakuha mula sa akin. But hearing him now, ang marinig ang mga kataga nitong umaangkin sa pagkatao ko ay tila mas nakaramdam ako ng inis at galit.