Smiling Through The Pain นิยาย & เรื่องราว

Hinayaan ko na kaysa naman ano pang isipin ng mga tao dito na nag-aaway kami na hindi naman kami magsyota. "Smile Clovett in one two three good shot," napapailing na lang ako sa ginagawa niya sa akin. Ayaw niya kasing siya lang ang may post tapos ako wala, kaya kahit wala naman akong idea kung paano mag post kundi ang ngumiti lang sa camera, dahil yun naman ang sabi niya.

Ramdam ko ang titig nya sakin kaya nginitian ko nalang sya. "You're acting weird. Bat ka maputla?" muli akong napatingin sakanya. I stopped with my tracks. Akala ko di niya mapapansin dahil nakangiti ako. "Stop smiling like that, it's painful." Nagtataka ko naman siyang tinignan. "Smiling like what?" "Smiling to hide the pain." I definitely stopped. I could hear the clank of the utensils after I dropped them. The smile I was wearing was drained straight into the sink.

may inis niyang sabi at saka inamoy ang suot niyang polo. His funny and playful personality makes him more admirable. His smiles are really contagious. Para siyang araw na papasikat sa umaga. Ang gandang pagmasdan ng ngiti niya na parang nagsasabi sayong maging masaya lang sa buhay. Pero habang tumatagal na nakilala ko siya, I discovered that behind those smiles is a traumatic and melancholic past. He is hiding all of the pain in his heart and covered it with his bright smile.

This is the price of war that I never get to win and I paid it by wasting my time. The world is full of chaos and turmoil. We have a lot of choices but it's either we live or die in the process. But now that I failed to kill myself, I'll try to fight till there's nothing left to say and whatever it takes I'll fight till my fears go away. Alam kong hindi na maliwanag ang mundong ginagalawan ko. But I'll move along until the sun will rise once again. Living in a world full of pain is a challenge and hell. Growing up as a fighter will tell you that behind every smile, there is always pain. Such that a smile is invented to hide every torment and suffering.

tingin nito sa kanya habang nilalantakan na ang pizza na inorder nito kanina. "Hindi ganoon kadali ‘yon." Salungat niya sa sinasabi nito. "Alam kong hindi madali. Pero ano ba ang madali para sa iyo? Ang bigyan sya ng chance? O, pahirapan ang sarili mo hanggang sa kainin ka nyang sakit na nararamdaman mo? I've been through a lot of pain, Ash. You knew very well that pain is like my oxygen to live with. But now, see I've learned how to live with it. Nasasaktan ako pero at least nagiging masaya ako. You see my point? Pain and happiness coincide on each other. Hindi porke’t ayaw mong masaktan hindi ka na masasaktan…"

Damn, pag mapapangiti ko itong high-end, million yata ang makukuha kong pera dahil sa mga magazines na sold out. Ngunit ang perang inaasam-asam ko, naging bato no'ng hindi man sila ngumiti kahit isa lang. What the hell is wrong with smiling? Hindi ba sila happy sa mga nararating nila? "Everyone? Smile for me, please." Marahang sabi ko.

Dag dagan pa ng magagandang tanawin at dampi ng simoy nang hangin. "Ms. Iyannah Havier, right?" Someone called my name, causing me to turn to my right. "Yes?" I promise to be frugal. That's why I went with Amara so I wouldn't see our schoolmates, but I was wrong. "I'm Zachariah Elferno." When he introduced himself, he extended his hand to me. I smirk and directly stare into the sunrise.What do you want?" I asked in a cold voice as if I wasn't interested in him. "I like that kind of attitude. Grumpy, combative," he said with a smile.He looked into my eyes with a sticky look as if he were attracting me.

Agad siyang ngumiti sa akin at kumaway nang makita niya ako. Kahit pinapainit at pinapasakit ng babaeng toh ang ulo ko palagi... siya rin ang nag-iisang taong nagagawa akong pangitiin dahil sa mga kalokohan niya at dahil na rin sa ngiti niyang palaging abot sa mata niya. Her beautiful smile is like a virus. It's infectious. When she smiles... everyone can't help but smile as well.

Sinubukan kong ngumiti at tumawa pero thank god nagawa ko kasama ang anak ko kahit na pakiramdam ko merong kulang sa akin, kahit na pakiramdam ko meron pa akong hinahanap. Sa totoo lang, ang hirap maging masaya. It's hart to ba happy. It's hard to smile, it's hart to laugh pero sinubukan kong gawin. Pinilit ko sa sarili ko dahil kahit anong gawin ko alam ko dadalhin ko ang sakit at masamang nakaraan ko. Alam ko parte na ng buhay ko ang mapait kong nakaraan sa pilipinas. Dahil alam ko sa sarili ko habang buhay itong nakatatak sa akin.

Sumisigaw na ako sa sobrang sakit at umiiyak dahil hindi ko alam anong gagawin para mawala 'yong sakit. I just wanna stop this pain, I can't take it anymore. ---------- Read.Vote.Comment © michiekelss