Smiling Through The Pain นิยาย & เรื่องราว

Tiniis niya ang bugso ng damdamin at pilit na ngumiti. “Thank you for a warm welcome. Pasensiya na rin kasi hindi ko maipakitang panatag ako rito,” aniya. “Makakapag-adjust ka rin. Whatever bothers you, you can get rid of it. Just look to the good side. Lahat naman tayo may mapait na nakaraan. Malalagpasan natin ‘yon basta huwag nating hayaang hilahin tayo nito pabalik. I know the the healing process was hard and painful, but if you want to move forward, you should learn how to ignore the pain while fighting.”

Kahit sobrang lungkot ang nararamdaman ko. Kahit sobrang sakit. Gusto ko parin ipakita sa harap ng mga tao na masaya ako. I tried to smile because I want to show them that I'm okay. Kahit lungkot ang siyang humahaplos sa puso ko. Ang bawat tibok ng puso ko ay ramdam ko ang kirot nito. Ang sakit sakit sa dibdib. Sa hindi ko namamalayan nalaglag na pala ang ilang butil ng luha ko mula sa mga mata ko.

She was too focused on her pain and misery that she forgot how kind these people were to her. Gigi pointed her two fingers on each side of her mouth and stretch it making her create a smile. Nang makitang gumuhit ang isang ngiti sa mga labi niya ay unti-unti niyang binitiwan ang gilid ng kan’yang mga labi. She plasterred a practiced smile. Kailangan niya iyon.

Nagtubig ang aking mga mata matapos kong sabihin ang mga katagang yo’n. Pain is inescapable. Since we are born, we are destined to experience pain and heartache, and that is okay. It only means that you are normal, and when you exceed, it means that you are strong enough. I love Clinton, and no matter how much pain he caused me, paulit-ulit ko pa rin siyang patatawarin. Call me whatever you want, but I will stand by my words. Yes masasaktan ako, lalayo ako ng panandalian ngunit pagdating sa huli, nakaksigurado akong babalik at babalik pa rin ako sa kaniya upang makinig sa mga rason niya at patawarin siya.

Hinayaan ko lang itong maglabas ng kanyang saloobin at pinakinggan lang ang mga sinasabi nito. "I did everything that it took, I kept the pain unnoticed, and forced myself to be happy but in reality I'm not... I'm not happy, Emy. No matter how much I try, I can't..." Sambit nito as he face palmed himself. "Everything is gonna be okay soon, just pray that it will all be over." Sagot ko rito, a sincere expression plastered on my face.

Humikbi ako nang humikbi habang tinatakpan ang aking mukha at bibig gamit ang comforter. I am so tired of crying, I am so tired of everything that I just wanted to cry it all. Sana, sana ibuhos ko lang pag-iyak ay maayos na. But even though I cry it all, I will still not be okay. I endured this pain in my heart my whole life. I carried this pain with me my whole life. When will I be healed? I’m tired.

Patuloy pa rin ito sa tahimik na pag-iyak. Inaamin kong nasaktan ako sa aking nalaman pero wala na akong magagawa dahil tapos na. Ang magagawa ko lang ngayon ay ang magpatawad at magmove forward. Pagod na rin ako sa ilang taong napuno ng galit ang puso ko. Nakakapagod alagaan sa puso ang galit. Mas masaya paring maging masaya. Mas magaan sa pakiramdam na wala kang inaalagaan galit sa aking dibdib. How many years I've been living in pain. It's time for me to be happy now.

how could i be happy? For Sensui i stay being nurse... smile in every patients, but i can't smile anymore... "P-Poy... p-please wake u-up already. I c-can't smile anymore i-if you stay like t-these, i love you Poy kaya wake up na already... p-please Poy." I said before my eyes get blurred by my tears and all get black. ( TWO WEEKS PASSED )

“That regret, what if.. I spent a little time with him. Gain new memories, make a new one. Forgot the past and move on. Sana hindi ko siya iniwan dito. Sana ginawa ko silang priorities ni Mama. Nag enjoy kami with Linea.” I said and let my tears come out while all the memories we have lush out. It opened like a wound and let me take a taste of the pain. "Pain is what makes us alive." Jean said. "We all have that kind of pain. Ellya and it's up to us. On how we are gonna conquer it. How we are gonna tolerate it and intake it."

Her words were simple yet he knew that it came out along with her pain. Kayang itago ng mukha nun ang sakit pero hindi ng mga mata. Fuck. Napapikit siya at napalunok. He would never forget such a beautiful and innocent face, full of pain. Heart… Naluha siya habang nakapikit. She just has to hold on. Itutuloy pa rin naman niya ang annument at walang nagbago sa damdamin niya. Binuksan niya muli ang smartphone at napasinghot na lang at pinahid ang mata.