Burned Out Quotes Novels & Stories

"Everything will be okay in the end. If it’s not okay, it’s not the end." – John Lennon I woke up feeling lethargic. It's like theres an empty hole inside my chest and I don't know how to deal with it. Just like before, after that tragedy happened. I felt the same emptiness, like the energy is drained out of my body and I was tasting my own poison, my own karma.

I'm tired of losing my faith, feeling my face burn red with tears of anger at a God who never seems to hear my cries for help. I'm tired of helplessly watching my life unravel before my very eyes. I'm tired of seeing every life plan disintegrate after I've tirelessly fought for any semblance of fulfilment, any glimmer of hope that life is worth living. I'm tired of the prolific reminders that now are not forever, that someday the shards of my life will meld together and I'll rediscover a golden beacon of happiness. I'm tired of listening to empty platitudes, accepting that I'm falling short when I'm trying, trying, trying but never seeming to find the peace I seek.

Nakaramdam ako ng mga pakiramdam na hindi ko pa kailanman nararamdaman. That's why I let myself burn. Hinayaan ko ang sarili kong matupok ng apoy. Because I am craving for that. I cried my heart out inside my car. At nang bahagya akong kumalma ay doon lang ako nagmaneho paalis. I drove my way back to my penthouse. I am tired to feel this pain for almost everyday. I am so tired to be a robot. I am fine alone.

Palusot. Kasinungalingan na pansamantala lang ang bisa. Pero ngayon— pagod na rin siyang magpanggap. “Sir…” mahina niyang sabi. “Kailangan ko po muna ng pahinga.” Tahimik sandali. “Burnout po,” dagdag niya, mas direkta na. Hindi madali ang pag-amin na iyon. Pero totoo. — Sa kabilang linya, nag-iba ang tono ng supervisor.

Tomorrow, I will be the better version of myself, kaya ngayon, uubusin ko na nag lahat ng sama ng loob ko, gagamitin ko ang mga ito para makausad ako at gagamitin ko ang mga ito para maging matatagb ako lalo. Nilagok ko ang alak at saka nilagay sa labi ko ang filter, inhale the nicotine and blow the smoke, “Good bye, I won’t say thank you to the memories, because it’s my mistake on trusting someone like you.” I burned the last piece of picture that I am with Samuel and stand up.

“You’re fired.” Paulit-ulit na umalingawngaw sa isip ko ang mga salitang iyon habang naglalakad ako pauwi, parang sirang plaka na hindi marunong tumigil. Mahigpit kong hawak ang strap ng luma kong bag, halos magkulay puti ang mga daliri ko sa sobrang diin. Hindi ko alam kung alin ang mas masakit—ang biglaang pagkawala ng trabaho o ang pag-uwi para sabihin iyon kay Nanay.

Alam ko rin na may ganitong side si Cayden. I already know what to do pero hindi ko maiwasan na mawala sa pacing dahil nakakadistract din ang pagod. Pawis na pawis na ako at pakiramdam ko ay para akong tanke ng tubig na paubos na rin. Hindi ko akalain na mararamdaman mo pala na paubos din ang enerhiya mo dahil pakiramdam mo ay parang nauubos ka. "I'm almost depleted." Naisaad ko na habang hinihingal. I am longing for a rest. Gustong gusto ko ng magpahinga.

Unti-unti niyang inangat ang tingin at nagsalita gamit ang basag na boses. “I'm not fine. I'm just so tired. I'm tired of being laughed at because my ex-boyfriend is gay. I'm tired of my job because of these clients who act like I'm just their mere servant and belittle me. I'm tired of doing all these extra work just to earn money. And I know I'm doing all these things for my family. But sometimes. Sometimes I'm just so fucking tired.” Humahangos na siya matapos sabihin ang mga hinanakit niyang iyon. First time niya yatang makapagpalabas ng nararamdaman.

“Should I just quit my job then? You know how hard it was for me to earn a living. Should I just waste all my efforts then?” Napatulala ako sa mga sinabi niya. Alam kong may punto siya. Alam kong tama siya, but just this once hindi niya ba kayang unahin ang nararamdaman ko? Hindi niya ba kayang piliing intindihin ako? “Paulit-ulit na lang ‘to, Clara. I'm too tired. Just tell me if you want me to quit then I will.”

Sinubukan ko igalaw ang aking katawan ngunit hindi ko kinaya dahil sa sobrang sakit ng aking nararamdaman 'D*mn I am alive? Imposible naramdaman ko ang pagkasunog ng aking balat bago ako masabugan ng bomba, Alam kong patay nako pero bakit ganito buhay parin. 'Totoo ba ang kasabihang matagal bago mamatay ang masamang damo' Napailing ako dahil dun kalokohan! edi sana buhay pa rin ang matandang iyon.. Mas halang pa naman bituka non sa akin tss