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" I don't care if your name sounds like hell, I'm willing to enter hell just to bring you to heaven. Because you are my Hella." ONE HELLA NIGHT Hella Alexandrea Mondeñego, just graduated and pass the bar exam on becoming a lawyer. For the last time, before she will be serious and say goodbye to her spoiled and party goer self, she goes to the club with her friends. Having the best night, saying goodbye to her social life and to fulfill her promise to her parents. She had a blast party, not knowing that she will have a one hella night, just like her name. And that night, her life changes. She knew being a lawyer is already dangerous. But being held and protected by a secret man that she doesn't know, that he is a Mafia boss. This man, who was always by her side. Who's always protecting her secretly without her knowing, she got curious and that curiosity got her more in danger. A danger of falling in love, with the man she thought her ideal man.A man who has secrets.

Adam Lucky Lacuezo believes that his life is the antonym of his name, Lucky. After 10 years of being a broken man, he met the annoyingly beautiful promdi girl, Jazlyn Bautista. His life has never been the same again because of her. They always fight and scold each other but at the end of the day, she always smiles and let him know that she'll always be there for him. What will happen between this cold man who can't even get his old self back and this woman who wants him to find happiness again? The CEO and his secretary's story.

Warning: This story is not suitable for young readers. It includes scene of abuse, violence, self harm and sexual assault. If these topics are triggering for you, please skip this story. Reading discretion is strongly advice. Eummeriah Ferrer, isang sikat at magaling na artista ng bansa. Masunurin din siya at palakaibigan. Lumaki siyang may pagmamahal sa mga tao, sobrang galing makisama. Ngunit hindi niya akalain na ite-take advantage ang kabaitan niiya. Makikilala niya si Gabrielle Sanchez, siya ang dahilan sa lahat ng gulo na nararanasanan niya. Ngunit ito din ang katuwang niya upang malaman ang totoong kulay ng mga taong minahal niya ng sobra. Makikilala nga ba ni Eumerriah ang tunay na katauhan ng mga tao? Maniniwala pa nga ba siya sa mga pinapakita ng mga ito o magsisimula na siyang pagdududahan ang lahat? Maniniwala pa ba siya sa pagmamahal pagkatapos malaman na kaya siyang pagtaksilan ng mga taong minahal niya ng sobra? Makukuha ba ni Gabrielle ang pusong sugatan ni Eumerriah para pagalingin? O maninindigan si Eumerriah sa bagay na alam niya ay tama.

Zandro's father exiled him to leave their mansion. He was just only 8 then when it's force him to leave in his foreign country. Together with his butler they moved to the philippines and lived a simple life. Not knowing the real situation he begin to feel a deep livid unto his father. He begin to shut off his self to anyone. But only one person can actually change him. A person which he didn't expect with to treasure the most. "ZANDROOO!" matinis na sigaw ng isang babae. Isang ngite ang namutawi sa kanyang mga labi bago ito tuluyang hinarap. "What?" paingos niyang tanong dito. Namumula sa galit ang may kaliitan nitong mukha at halos umusok na ang ilong nito sa galit. Nakakatuwa talaga itong pagmasdan kapag nagagalit. Ngunit isang malakas na batok ang ibinigay nito sa kanya dahilan nang pagkakatayo niya sa kanyang pagkakaupo. Napatingala ito sa kanya nang tuluyan na siyang tumayo. Halos hanggang balikat niya lang ito. "Hindi ka na naman pumasok sa klase natin. Isusumbong na talaga kita kay Uncle," panenermon nito sa kanya. "Tss." 'Bakit naman siya papasok sa loob ng room nila kung wala din naman ito doon.' "Umalis lang ako sandali dahil ipinatawag ako ni Ma'am Jie. Kung saan-saan ka na agad napapadpad gawain ba nang matinong estud-" Naputol ito sa pagsasalita nang hablutin niya ang maliit nitong beywang saka ito siniil ng halik. Halos ramdam niya ang paninigas nito dahil sa ginawa niya. Nang bitawan niya ang mga labi nito ay nakita niya sa mga mukha nito ang pagkagulat. "Your too noisy Eury," he huskily said and intertwined his hands with hers. "Bumalik na tayo sa klase." Hila niya rito. Eurydice Solarte is the Mafia's son obsession.

Angelo Lopez is also the son of Arnald Lopez, the infamous self made millionaire. But unlike his two brothers and two sisters from different mothers, who happens to be all millionaires, Angelo was never known to his father. Raised in an orphanage, Angelo knew who his father and he promised to his mother’s grave that he will take what is rightfully his. After leaving the orphanage Angelo joined local gang and was later became famous internationally. It’s payback time. He promised to himself that everyone who made his life miserable in the past will pay, including his father who abandoned him in poverty.

Evie Clemonte, ang halos tatlong taon nang Asawa ni Rowan McAllestieré. Isang dedikadong Asawa, maalaga at gagawin ang lahat para kay Rowan ngunit mukhang kahit anong gawin ni Evie ay hindi parin niya makukuha ang Atensyon at pagmamahal ng binata. Sa araw mismo nang kanyang kaarawan ay niregaluhan siya ni Rowan nang regalong hindi niya malilimutan. Isa etong divorced paper agreement. Kahit ayaw ay walang nagawa si Evie kundi makipaghiwalay dahil alam niyang wala na siyang malalaban pa dahil bumalik na sa Pilipinas ang tunay na mahal ni Rowan. She decided to leave Rowan and her old self who is dedicated on Rowan alone, She wants him to regret leaving her. Bumalik sya sa totoong kung sino siya at iyon ay ang nag-iisang prinsesa nang karibal ng mga McAllestieré. She's the only daughter in the Demetrius Clan. Nagdesisyon siyang siya na ang mamumuno at maglalampaso sa mga McAllestieré upang makabawi sa mga pagpapahirap at pasakit sakanya ng pamilyang eto. Halina't subaybayan ang mga hakbang ni Evie upang makamit ang inaasam na paghihiganti. At ano na lamang ang mangyayari sa magiging relasyon nila ni Rowan? Abangan.

Dmitri is still being haunted by the tragedy he caused his twin brother, Drake, even after so many years, and he’s pretty much aware that no amount of apologies could ever forgive him. He left the country and lived abroad alone for years just to punish his self. Alison, Drake’s girlfriend, is willing to help him get over that nightmare, but how can she possibly help him when every time he looks at her it reminds him of his brother? Truth be told, he’s still in love with her after all these years, but his Drake’s ghost is what’s stopping him. Will he ever find forgiveness and give his self a chance to live again and love Alison, or will he just continue punishing his self and push her away?

Can you imagine,being pregnant when, you and your boyfriend didn't do it? What do you think is called? S*x and run? Yeah right... She want to end her self, die and never face the world again, kill her child, had a one-night f'ck with the CEO. SHE'S MARIA CLARA ORDONIEZ,SALAZAR. Clara, a wonderful woman, brave and beautiful, she's one of the angels in fantasy club, her home and h'll. Pwede bang maging sanhi ng pag babago ng buhay niya ang isang gabi na hindi naman niya ginusto. Isa siya sa mga, sabihin na lang natin sa napaka misteryosong dalaga sa mundo, hindi alam ang tunay na katauhan, walang nakakalam, she hide her self, perfectly.

Profession Series #1 Atty. Elara 'Ara' Lynette Miranda whose starting her career by establishing up her own law firm. Graduated with Civil Engineering degree and went on to law school to give her brother the freedom to write novels. She lives in province where she met her dearest friends and grow up with his step father. She had previously suffered self loathing and psychiatric disorders but she overcame them by envisioning a new beginning and becoming a better version of herself. She is a powerful Attorney who can turn any case on its head. After nearly three years of living in the dark, a light entered her life when a man named Attorney Devon 'Dev' Sirius Selvantes walked into her office and says that he was the new hired attorney for the law firm. Devon Selvantes title has been ripped off, he gave up his license to practice law and now works as an Accountant. Little did Elara know that little light that came to her just when she needed it the most would cause far more havoc than her parents did. Their happy relationship is shattered, full of uncertainty and is replaced by hatred, pain, and suffering. When their paths cross again, will serve as a resolution to their long-standing misunderstanding or the end for both of them. See you in the court room. Warning ⚠️ -This novel contains sensitive topics about criminal cases (not that detailed), family relationship and a inappropriate languages. Please be open minded. -Under Major Revision! The Verdict ©️PennFeather 2020

Faye Maravilla grew up being a pushover, selfless, and can't stand up for herself. She wanted to have a life that she can express her true self and live the way she wanted. That dream life can be possible when she discovered that she can world travel only if she can see a three line up stars in the